I wish I believed that there is something good after death

[Tnatalie]

Really wish. I just have an irration FOMO, that things may be better in the future or so... but seriously - won't be. There are no chances.

 

[reticulator]

Yeah I feel like this is the only shot we have. I had chances to make something of myself, but partly due to mental illness, and just bad choices in general I dug myself into a hole that I can't escape from now. I won't blame it all on mental illness but I would say 90 percent of my issues were caused by depression, and generalized anxiety. The anxiety was the hardest to deal with, it stopped me from pursuing anything of value, and the rage the depression causes at times caused me to burn many bridges.

There's barely a glimmer of light or fight left in me. I have a young son and that's the only thing keeping me here, but I can't hide the way I'm feeling , and I have basically zero moments of joy.

Really wish. I just have an irration FOMO, that things may be better in the future or so... but seriously - won't be. There are no chances.

But the way this world is, and nature in general, and how cruel survival really is, I'm not holding out hope for anything better. Most animals live, die and suffer pretty horrible deaths if you think about it, and they didn't do anything to deserve it. Hopefully I'm not reincarnated into a spider that gets paralyzed and eaten from the inside out by some wasp larvae.

 

[Lost Magic]

Well there is a lot of interesting studies of near death experiences. Dr Raymond Moody (best selling author of Life after Life) has a lot of unique insights.

 

[soul2realm]

In context of your heading:- We simply don't know but can definitely hope for. It's what we have been doing while living in this world. Every day, every passing moment, there is only hope that the next one will be better.
So why not the afterlife. Just think happy thoughts but do not expect anything (the hard part).

 

[Alan James]

Most people who have experienced near-death experiences, out-of-body experiences, regressive hypnosis (in which they recall their past lives and "life between lives") say about the same thing: after death, they usually see this tunnel of light to which they are drawn. Through him, they enter the astral, which is very similar to the virtual reality/metaverse as for example in the book/movie "Ready Player One". It is very likely that both the astral and the physical world are all simulations.

In this dimension there are some entities (which are probably bad guys who pretend to be good) who will try in every way to persuade the deceased to a new reincarnation. They have the ability to read all thoughts there, and they know everything about the deceased (maybe this is AI), so they can find weak points to persuade them to agree to a new reincarnation. The stories that supposedly reincarnation is good and that "Earth is such a school for the soul" are complete, absolute nonsense and lies - many different people say that in fact their true goal is to pump the energy they need from the people and other physical lifeforms (immortal consciousness embodied in the physical bodies like player in video game), this energy is called in different ways, but most often loosh or Gawwah.

And Earth and many other planets is really something like a prison planet: a simulation in which we (being immortal consciousness) are locked in physical bodies (to which this immortal consciousness is connected as avatars, drones) with the main purpose of being resources from which energy (loosh) is pumped out. This was described by the Gnostics, for example.

Reincarnation occurs not only on Earth but also on other planets. After the death of the physical body, if a person agrees to reincarnation, their memory of their past life is blocked. One can recall one's past life through regressive hypnosis. Many books have been written about this, for example by Michael Newton and Dolores Cannon. And Robert Monroe's books - he explored out-of-body experiences.

 

[VoidBlessed]

I'm trying to get rid of that irrational FOMO too. I know it's just going to be worse from here on out but there's always that annoying little hope. I've been reading people's near death experiences, though, and I'm convinced there is something wonderful afterward. There's no way so many different people could see the same thing otherwise.

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

@reticulator sad to hear you have a son. Suicide is hard enough already. Your story sounds like mine. I had chances for success too and blew it.

What's so hard about CTB is the finality. That was it, that was my existence. Suicide feels more like the finishing touch on a good life, the painter signing his work in the corner. That I arrived, fucked up, and hanged myself--how can that be EVERYTHING FOREVER?

 

[Tnatalie]

I'm trying to get rid of that irrational FOMO too. I know it's just going to be worse from here on out but there's always that annoying little hope. I've been reading people's near death experiences, though, and I'm convinced there is something wonderful afterward. There's no way so many different people could see the same thing otherwise.

Could you tell me something more? Im interested. What did the people say?

 

[doomedbynarrative]

Me too. For a long time I kinda believed in NDEs but then I saw that they're kinda rare among people who almost die. Plenty of people almost die or are revived with zero recollection of anything. There's just nothing until they wake up after being revived. Those stories made me feel more sad than anything. Like some people's brains try to make it easy for them on the way out and some people's brains don't do squat for them.

 

[VoidBlessed]

Could you tell me something more? Im interested. What did the people say?

Anita Moorjani says she entered a place of unconditional love and complete understanding of the world. She felt no fear or attachment to the physical world. She felt pure joy and happiness. To me that sounds like paradise.

A hospice nurse talked about a patient of hers who communicated with her as he died. She said he felt joy and wonder, like Anita Moorjani, and kept saying "If only I had known, I wouldn't have been afraid!" He was happy.

The similarity of these two accounts and others like it have almost convinced me death is freedom from this physical prison, from this hell world. Once we're done here, we go to a beautiful place where everything is revealed to us and we are loved just as we are. We just have to be brave enough to jump in.

 

[Alan James]

There are many channels on YouTube where they talk about near-death experiences. There are sites where NDE's are collected.

Yes, not everyone sees something in near-death experiences, many do not see anything, but this does not mean anything - there may be many reasons why someone sees something and others do not.

Be very careful when listening about beautiful and pleasant locations in NDE's and feelings of "endless love" because these are all beautiful places in the astral, it is very likely that a simulation (many say that they definitely and unequivocally saw that this is exactly a simulation of what they see there, adapting to them), specially created to show the deceased such a kind of show. For example:







And this is an all-consuming feeling of love - it may be necessary for the victim to relax in order to reduce critical thinking and arouse trust, so that the victim of these entities agrees to return to the body (some entities are very persistently persuaded to return to the body because, for example, "you still have things to do there on Earth", "how will you leave your children and relatives there alone" and all that stuff). This feeling of love reduces vigilance and critical thinking, and it is much easier for them to persuade the victim to a new reincarnation in this physical hell.

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[phantasmagoria]

What's so hard about CTB is the finality. That was it, that was my existence. Suicide feels more like the finishing touch on a good life, the painter signing his work in the corner. That I arrived, fucked up, and hanged myself--how can that be EVERYTHING FOREVER?

This. Exactly this. Is this really it for not just you, but all of us who plan to ctb? And all we have are speculations of hell after suicide from various religions? This isn't right at all

 

[Lost Magic]

This. Exactly this. Is this really it for not just you, but all of us who plan to ctb? And all we have are speculations of hell after suicide from various religions? This isn't right at all

yeah, all that religious stuff has mixed opinions on it, but it makes certain allowances like mental health problems etc..

 

[reticulator]

yeah, all that religious stuff has mixed opinions on it, but it makes certain allowances like mental health problems etc..

What if you have mental health problems but have also been a bad, bad boy?

 

[BradGuy123]

Well there is a lot of interesting studies of near death experiences. Dr Raymond Moody (best selling author of Life after Life) has a lot of unique insights.

I'm very careful about my anonymity here. I don't give my hometown, what I do for work, etc. I have read Life After Life. I met Raymond Moody at a venue. (Going to keep it that vague.) I talked to him. I totally believe in life after death. I believe in heaven. So many people who have had near death experiences describe similar things. Non-believers say that it's just synapses in your brain firing. That may be true. There is no scientifically verifiable evidence of any of this, so people can believe or not believe, choose any religion they want, etc. For me I choose to believe, and I hope it's true.

 

[reticulator]

I'm very careful about my anonymity here. I don't give my hometown, what I do for work, etc. I have read Life After Life. I met Raymond Moody at a venue. (Going to keep it that vague.) I talked to him. I totally believe in life after death. I believe in heaven. So many people who have had near death experiences describe similar things. Non-believers say that it's just synapses in your brain firing. That may be true. There is no scientifically verifiable evidence of any of this, so people can believe or not believe, choose any religion they want, etc. For me I choose to believe, and I hope it's true.

The problem is no one who ctb ends up going to heaven, according to basically any religion out there. We all end up going to the other place, of endless torment that makes whatever problems we have here look like a fairy tale. There will be wailing, and gnashing of teeth if there's anything after for me, and I haven't been a person deserving of heaven as is. The best I can hope for is oblivion, or to be reincarnated as a roach or something.

I'm very careful about my anonymity here. I don't give my hometown, what I do for work, etc. I have read Life After Life. I met Raymond Moody at a venue. (Going to keep it that vague.) I talked to him. I totally believe in life after death. I believe in heaven. So many people who have had near death experiences describe similar things. Non-believers say that it's just synapses in your brain firing. That may be true. There is no scientifically verifiable evidence of any of this, so people can believe or not believe, choose any religion they want, etc. For me I choose to believe, and I hope it's true.

so I'll assume if life is truly a test from some divine deity, taking one's life would pretty much be ripping up the test and not answering any questions.. so basically an instant fail. He may even think it's worse than what Hitler did.