BlueButterfly111
Autistic and Heartbroken
- Dec 26, 2024
- 263
As long as I'm alive, until I get to be reunited with him again, I will never stop missing him. He was my real soulmate and I've never met anyone that was as special as he was, and probably never will.
People tell me that I need to move on, or that I will get over it one day, but I don't want to live without him and it's been almost 10 months now since he passed away. He was so special, everything good that you can ask for in a guy. I daydream about holding him every night, I miss his touch and his soft skin so much. I love him so much. I still think about him every single day and night, and I can't stop. I want him so bad even though he's dead, I want to be wherever he is, I miss him so much.
And he was so unbelievably cute, just everything about him I loved. I'm just so ready for this life to be over, I'm so tired of having to live without him for the past almost 10 months, it's torture. He is perfect, I'm in love with him and obsessed with him, I know that he has to be up there somewhere. The love shared between the both of us is so strong, it is stronger than death.
Sometimes when I'm looking through our messages and listening to his voice notes I get the urge to call his phone number, thinking that maybe he will pick up. I know that it's silly and dumb, sometimes I look up his name on social media thinking I will find him alive and healthy, thinking he will come back, hoping. I literally wanted to call his number a few days ago so bad, just so maybe I can even hear it ring, but I don't want to do that in case his phone is still on and his family sees that.
He was so special, I've tried to think of any other guy I've met, and none of them are even remotely comparable to him in any area, he is literally my perfect soulmate. And that is why I hope and pray that the universe grants me the right to die soon that I can go be with him again. I miss him so much, eternally.
People tell me that I need to move on, or that I will get over it one day, but I don't want to live without him and it's been almost 10 months now since he passed away. He was so special, everything good that you can ask for in a guy. I daydream about holding him every night, I miss his touch and his soft skin so much. I love him so much. I still think about him every single day and night, and I can't stop. I want him so bad even though he's dead, I want to be wherever he is, I miss him so much.
And he was so unbelievably cute, just everything about him I loved. I'm just so ready for this life to be over, I'm so tired of having to live without him for the past almost 10 months, it's torture. He is perfect, I'm in love with him and obsessed with him, I know that he has to be up there somewhere. The love shared between the both of us is so strong, it is stronger than death.
Sometimes when I'm looking through our messages and listening to his voice notes I get the urge to call his phone number, thinking that maybe he will pick up. I know that it's silly and dumb, sometimes I look up his name on social media thinking I will find him alive and healthy, thinking he will come back, hoping. I literally wanted to call his number a few days ago so bad, just so maybe I can even hear it ring, but I don't want to do that in case his phone is still on and his family sees that.
He was so special, I've tried to think of any other guy I've met, and none of them are even remotely comparable to him in any area, he is literally my perfect soulmate. And that is why I hope and pray that the universe grants me the right to die soon that I can go be with him again. I miss him so much, eternally.
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