This post is just some maniac complains coming from a suicidal hippie zoomer. It contains loads of bluffing and superficial shits please just close it if you find it disgusting.
I should have the very last piece ready by tomorrow. I prepared three methods sn n and exit bag. But somehow my determination seems to be vanishing while I go through the long waiting period to get these three methods ready.
During this period, I got a good job, like really pays a lot. Some girl just wants to fuck me, a gold digger apparently, i dont mind. I dont mean to bluff but i had these things before but my suicidal thoughts remain solid. I dont know what changed but when you get your hands dirty to prepare the poison that leads to your own death, you start to have doubts. I am way more luckier than the majority of humans on this planet yet i want to kill myself since i cannot graduate from a math phd.
I really dont know. I feel so much pain and powerless when my peer seem to have a much superior iq and knowledge base compared with my poor performance,not to mention those giants in history,? Sir Newton, Poisson Lebesgue etc.
Maybe i will roll a random normal number tomorrow, after i get the last thing i need. Let god decide if i should still live on this planet.
I should have the very last piece ready by tomorrow. I prepared three methods sn n and exit bag. But somehow my determination seems to be vanishing while I go through the long waiting period to get these three methods ready.
During this period, I got a good job, like really pays a lot. Some girl just wants to fuck me, a gold digger apparently, i dont mind. I dont mean to bluff but i had these things before but my suicidal thoughts remain solid. I dont know what changed but when you get your hands dirty to prepare the poison that leads to your own death, you start to have doubts. I am way more luckier than the majority of humans on this planet yet i want to kill myself since i cannot graduate from a math phd.
I really dont know. I feel so much pain and powerless when my peer seem to have a much superior iq and knowledge base compared with my poor performance,not to mention those giants in history,? Sir Newton, Poisson Lebesgue etc.
Maybe i will roll a random normal number tomorrow, after i get the last thing i need. Let god decide if i should still live on this planet.
