NSFW I will die a virgin

[Crematoryy]

For so many years I nurtured an immense expectation of the moment when I could finally be with someone. It would be like an immeasurable victory; a ray of fulfillment amidst the darkness. But I am doomed to die alone. My destiny has always been, and always will be, depressive solitude. All my days will be identical. I feel that paying is humiliating, and perhaps I will choose to die without ever loving or fulfilling the biological function of the sex for which I was born.

I don't want superfluous advice about "love yourself first" or "look for a prostitute." I'm just facing my grief, for an aspect of life that never existed for me. I curse all who live.

 

[NameOfAction]

Sex does not equate fulfilment. Humans are a touch better than other fauna. We can find purpose where there is none, we can transcend biology.

Not having sex isn't a failure.

 

[myattempt]

Having sex is one thing and since I'm assuming you're opposed to the Idea of a prostitute I'm assuming that you're more referring to love/making love - which love isn't even real it's a philosophical concept where you express gratitude to someone because they have something you want or desire - I mean we like to believe that love is unconditional but that just isn't true because when you don't meet the persons quota anymore they suddenly ' don't love you anymore ' or claim they've ' fell out of love ' with you - I solely believe that love in and relationships in the media is all propaganda and so is like stupid holidays like valentine's day to keep you distracted and spending money - I think they're bigger issues like that lack of resources in the world that I'm worried about - I have no desire personally for love and sex and I never have cared for it I only care about dying in a peaceful humane way I believe I deserve

 

[NameOfAction]

Thank you for your attendance. I also know many men in the same situation, and loneliness with deprivation is bitter. A friend of mine had an unsuccessful attempt with fireeaarrm x

It is your conscience that assigns meaning to your actions. And certainly, that has a lot of meaning for me.

Should you be posting his face?

 

[briardweller]

I'm probably a 6/10 at best and it's not hard to get laid unless you have high standards in my opinion

 

[myattempt]

Yes just a bad idea in general not everyone on this site has good intentions and you don't want to doxx yourself - I'm so sorry about your friend I hope he finds peace that must've been so terrifying to survive ctb by firearm

 

[darksouls]

Thank you for your attendance. I also know many men in the same situation, and loneliness with deprivation is bitter. A friend of mine had an unsuccessful attempt with fireeaarrm x

It is your conscience that assigns meaning to your actions. And certainly, that has a lot of meaning for me.

that is really sad,
I hope that your friend is doing better by now

 

[Bootleg Astolfo]

I'm still voting we should ban sex and enforce a christian puritanist rule. The best way to take revenge on society, is to show them the way and the light.

 

[primadonna_]

For so many years I nurtured an immense expectation of the moment when I could finally be with someone. It would be like an immeasurable victory; a ray of fulfillment amidst the darkness. But I am doomed to die alone. My destiny has always been, and always will be, depressive solitude. All my days will be identical. I feel that paying is humiliating, and perhaps I will choose to die without ever loving or fulfilling the biological function of the sex for which I was born.

I don't want superfluous advice about "love yourself first" or "look for a prostitute." I'm just facing my grief, for an aspect of life that never existed for me. I curse all who live.

As a decent looking sorority girl I can promise that honestly i could have lived life without it but it might be because i like don't feel the emotional connection. If you decide to live you'll probably find someone to love you in your future, but maybe not cuz we're both on this forum for a reason.

 

[GyreOfAsh]

I can relate to the virgin part but I'm a volcel so it's kind of different. Not sure why I don't value sex but it's definitely got something to do with my perspective on the world, the inevitable suffering & the fact that no contraceptive is apparently 100% foolproof.

I recommend not thinking to hard about it if you can. It's just an act that even it can get stale or lose it's novelty when it's done a lot or enough times. Doesn't really make you more or less virtuous either if you have or haven't done it. I imagine the feeling is not too different from doing it alone. Could be wrong though.

 

[Hellonearth]

I was tormented for years because I couldn't fulfil my burning urge to have sex. I was also cursed with having an unusually high sex drive. I couldn't go out without enduring the visual stimuli of scantily clad women, hearing friends, acquaintances boast about their experiences, watching couples hold hands... Hell. The worst part was being told that if I wasn't having the same experiences, then I wasn't "socialising enough", "working out enough" etc, etc. All bullshit. Condescending, ignorant bullshit.

Things stayed this way until I actually started having sex at age 26 - and despite people telling me beforehand that sex was totally unimportant, getting laid was one hell of a weight off my shoulders. Immediate psychological relief. It doesn't bring you happiness, but it sure as fuck is a pre-requisite for happiness or at the very least a normal life. People who tell you otherwise (namely women and above average men) are people who get sex - and they spin this narrative because they've never experienced the torture of a decade-long dry spell.

All I can say is that I feel you bro. You are being tormented by a natural urge that won't let you rest until you complete your most important duty. You are told that you are delusional, narcissistic and a loser for attaching so much importance to a hardwired biological imperative. You have been failed by a society that wants hypergamy at the expense of social stability.

 

[sadmummy32]

I was tormented for years because I couldn't fulfil my burning urge to have sex. I was also cursed with having an unusually high sex drive. I couldn't go out without enduring the visual stimuli of scantily clad women, hearing friends, acquaintances boast about their experiences, watching couples hold hands... Hell. The worst part was being told that if I wasn't having the same experiences, then I wasn't "socialising enough", "working out enough" etc, etc. All bullshit. Condescending, ignorant bullshit.

Things stayed this way until I actually started having sex at age 26 - and despite people telling me beforehand that sex was totally unimportant, getting laid was one hell of a weight off my shoulders. Immediate psychological relief. It doesn't bring you happiness, but it sure as fuck is a pre-requisite for happiness or at the very least a normal life. People who downplay it's importance are people who get sex (namely women and above average men) - and they spin this narrative because they've never experienced the torture of a decade-long dry spell.

All I can say is that I feel you bro. You are being tormented by a natural urge that won't let you rest until you complete your most important duty. You are told that you are delusional, narcissistic and a loser for attaching so much importance to a hardwired biological imperative. You have been failed by a society that wants hypergamy at the expense of social stability.

Dude masturbation exists. I used to get all wound up over virginity like it mattered too and if anything it just made me more hollow to realize that someone willing to sleep with you doesn't mean they give a shit about you or your well being.

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"I've never been lonely. I've been in a room -- I've felt suicidal. I've been depressed. I've felt awful -- awful beyond all -- but I never felt that one other person could enter that room and cure what was bothering me...or that any number of people could enter that room. In other words, loneliness is something I've never been bothered with because I've always had this terrible itch for solitude. It's being at a party, or at a stadium full of people cheering for something, that I might feel loneliness. I'll quote Ibsen, "The strongest men are the most alone." I've never thought, "Well, some beautiful blonde will come in here and give me a fuck-job, rub my balls, and I'll feel good." No, that won't help. You know the typical crowd, "Wow, it's Friday night, what are you going to do? Just sit there?" Well, yeah. Because there's nothing out there. It's stupidity. Stupid people mingling with stupid people. Let them stupidify themselves. I've never been bothered with the need to rush out into the night. I hid in bars, because I didn't want to hide in factories. That's all. Sorry for all the millions, but I've never been lonely. I like myself. I'm the best form of entertainment I have. Let's drink more wine!"

- Bukowski

 

[katara]

I'm probably a 6/10 at best and it's not hard to get laid unless you have high standards in my opinion

I think this guy is only interested in models I've seen his comments before

 

[Hellonearth]

Dude masturbation exists. I used to get all wound up over virginity like it mattered too and if anything it just made me more hollow to realize that someone willing to sleep with you doesn't mean they give a shit about you or your well being.

---

"I've never been lonely. I've been in a room -- I've felt suicidal. I've been depressed. I've felt awful -- awful beyond all -- but I never felt that one other person could enter that room and cure what was bothering me...or that any number of people could enter that room. In other words, loneliness is something I've never been bothered with because I've always had this terrible itch for solitude. It's being at a party, or at a stadium full of people cheering for something, that I might feel loneliness. I'll quote Ibsen, "The strongest men are the most alone." I've never thought, "Well, some beautiful blonde will come in here and give me a fuck-job, rub my balls, and I'll feel good." No, that won't help. You know the typical crowd, "Wow, it's Friday night, what are you going to do? Just sit there?" Well, yeah. Because there's nothing out there. It's stupidity. Stupid people mingling with stupid people. Let them stupidify themselves. I've never been bothered with the need to rush out into the night. I hid in bars, because I didn't want to hide in factories. That's all. Sorry for all the millions, but I've never been lonely. I like myself. I'm the best form of entertainment I have. Let's drink more wine!"

- Bukowski

Oh you bet, I would end up in a lunatic asylum if I didn't masturbate. No, in fact, they rarely care about you after sex - as suggested by the 50% divorce rate in Western countries, 70% of which are initiated by women (just a fun fact). Still, it is IMMENSELY more pleasant being reverse pumped and dumped versus a prolonged dry spell with only your imagination (and porn!!) to keep you company.

 

[sadmummy32]

Oh you bet, I would end up in a lunatic asylum if I didn't masturbate. No, in fact, they rarely care about you after sex - as suggested by the 50% divorce rate in Western countries, 70% of which are initiated by women (just a fun fact). Still, it is IMMENSELY more pleasant being reverse pumped and dumped versus a prolonged dry spell with only your imagination (and porn!!) to keep you company.

I prefer to skip the stupid pageantry involved. Whatever is missing from this guy's life goes a lot deeper than swollen balls.

 

[Hellonearth]

I prefer to skip the stupid pageantry involved. Whatever is missing from this guy's life goes a lot deeper than swollen balls.

Ya. Thanks for prescribing masturbation as a pain relief. I'm sure none of us had thought of that one before!

 

[sadmummy32]

Ya. Thanks for prescribing masturbation as a pain relief. I'm sure none of us had thought of that one before!

Yeah it's much healthier to seethe at society because you can't get pussy on demand. It's almost like a refusal to have any self awareness makes you repugnant.

 

[Arvayn]

Come join us, OP... Your awakening is nigh...