Method I will CTB tonight via SN route

[ReadytoCtb]

I just had my last meal about an hour ago. It's time for me to go. I no longer have anymore hope. So at 11:10 CST I will start my stat dose.

 

[blalost]

Good luck. I'm curious, what did you choose as your last meal?

 

[Myforevercharlie]

My candle is working overtime... For you aswell it shines its light. May it guide you to love and peace

 

[ReadytoCtb]

Mexican street tacos with a coke. It was yummy!

My candle is working overtime... For you aswell it shines its light. May it guide you to love and peace

Thank you!
Well, 6 hrs and 30 minutes to go. I leave my place here in about an hour to head to my rental property. It's vacant at the moment, however, someone should find me within 24 hrs. I am scared and nervous, however, I know I can't live anymore. I have made too many mistakes.

 

[Sadkitty]

Your last meal made me smile. It's something I would choose if I could. Except pepsi all the way! Little things like that probably used to bring you joy. I'm so sorry it's come to this for you and so many others. I wish you luck. Cheers.

 

[ReadytoCtb]

I don't want to do this . I am starting to panic a little. I do know that I have to. To much has happened. Please pray I have the least amount of pain when I die.

 

[beyond_aquila_rift]

I don't want to do this . I am starting to panic a little. I do know that I have to. To much has happened. Please pray I have the least amount of pain when I die.

We are here for you if you change your mind I wish you peace

 

[Sadkitty]

I was just wondering how you were doing. I have attempted twice in my past. But never anything like SN. I very much hope that it goes just as you want.

 

[NekoNomNom]

I don't want to do this . I am starting to panic a little. I do know that I have to. To much has happened. Please pray I have the least amount of pain when I die.

We are here for you if you change your mind I wish you peace

Yes, we're here for you no matter what. You don't have to do anything that you don't want to. You'll always have a place to come back to here, should that be what you decide.

I'm so sorry that you're in this much pain. I hope you're able to find peace in some way, no matter what you decide to do.

 

[Brackenshire]

Maybe if your not calm its not the day..if any doubt stay a few days...it will still be there...talk to us

 

[SerialFailer]

I don't want to do this . I am starting to panic a little. I do know that I have to. To much has happened. Please pray I have the least amount of pain when I die.

You don't need to do it now if you are not ready, no shame in failing this one time.
Most of us will still be here if you fail, but if you succeed may you rest and have peace in your journey.

 

[ssaaahmo]

sending you hugs

 

[Meowkin]

Good luck. Hope you find peace.

 

[Huntfish34]

Thoughts and Prayers no doubt. Stay with us if any doubts. ❤

 

[Sadkitty]

How are you doing? :/

 

[deadmalk]

Mexican street tacos...nice. I'm in the same time zone as you, pretty sure same state as well. I know what you mean about being nervous, I tried twice and felt there was divine intervention that kept it from happening. If you need to vent or talk, you can message me if you'd like. There is no harm in waiting.

 

[SNOB]

If you don't want to do it now isn't the time my friend. You have your whole life to ctb it doesn't have to be today x

 

[Justinian]

I wish you peace ♥

 

[muffin222]

There's no rush if you're uncertain I wish you the best with whatever you decide to do

 

[Quarky00]

I am scared and nervous, however, I know I can't live anymore. I have made too many mistakes.

I don't want to do this . I am starting to panic a little. I do know that I have to. To much has happened. Please pray I have the least amount of pain when I die.

I was hoping to open that up . Because you don't have to . If you are still here feel free to talk .

I have a date set for April 1st of this year. My final court for my divorce is set on March 24th this will give me plenty of time to get my affairs in order before drinking my sn. I would have gone sooner but I was hoping my intuition or my prompting that I heard God's voice that I wasn't getting a divorce was true, which gave me hope, however I must be wrong. I clearly cannot hear God's voice. Having said that I feel like I don't have any hope that my future will be good. My relationship with God has kept me hear on this Earth for 41 yrs. I could of swore I knew God was telling me he would be restoring my relationship with my wife. Seeing that I am clearly wrong, and I don't trust that I hear from God so I find it best for me to exit this world and find the peace I need. I believe that I will enter into heaven even if I commit suicide so I am not scared. What frieghtens me more is continuing living without having direction from the holy spirit. I know this may sound off, however, if I can't hear from God then I don't want to live anymore.

It's your prerogative , loosing a partner and God is hard , but I think people can talk about it .

Hope you are okay where ever you are

 

[Huntfish34]

Amen 2 that Quarky00 , we are still here to talk if possible. ❤

 

[SuicidalSymphonies]

If you are doing alright, we are here to talk to you and comfort you.

There is absolutely no shame in deciding this isn't the decision for you. x

If you have taken your bus, I wish you a peaceful transition..