Help I will be writing my suicide note tonight. Any advice?

[First loss]

It will be a revenge note, for the most part as I want to tell my parents that I hate them for fucking me up the way they did. That will be the part of the note they will get.

Others will be for some meaningful people in my life.

Do you have any advice on this?

Thanks.

 

[Redt2go]

My advice is revenge notes are petty as is killing yourself out of revenge.

Either

1) if they were terrible enough to do something like that to you on purpose they likely won't care about the spite in your note

2) They weren't intentionally evil and the note will be really hurtful and killing yourself will be enough

 

[wiroho]

How did they fuck you up?

 

[color_me_gone]

@Redt2go
You know, my Mom and Grandmother raised me really great, in fact, I couldn't ask for better.
But I'll tell you, I have seen some really, really shitty parents, like they hated their kids, and were intentionally evil.
For that reason, I fully support a note which tells their parents what they did wrong.

Abusive? Absolutely! Do they deserve that? Absolutely!
If they made their child's life a living hell, then living hell for them is Karma.
But as you say, if they really don't care, then it probably will not make their life a living hell.
If it were me, I would do it, in spite of the fact I never even had to suffer that abuse.

 

[Violet]

My advice is revenge notes are petty as is killing yourself out of revenge.

Either

1) if they were terrible enough to do something like that to you on purpose they likely won't care about the spite in your note

2) They weren't intentionally evil and the note will be really hurtful and killing yourself will be enough

I think the same, In the event that they have been very evil with you (sexual abuse or a very bad crime), directly send the suicide note to the police or a newspaper. That's the only what really going to fuck them

 

[First loss]

My advice is revenge notes are petty as is killing yourself out of revenge.

Either

1) if they were terrible enough to do something like that to you on purpose they likely won't care about the spite in your note

2) They weren't intentionally evil and the note will be really hurtful and killing yourself will be enough

I do not believe in evil and good so i cant really tell. They were abusive both physically and mentally and failed to raise me like a proper human being.

How did they fuck you up?

Read the top paragraph.

 

[BidingTIme]

How old are you out of curiosity?

 

[Redt2go]

lol have you seen the suicide at 16 thread? There's a bunch of 16 yr olds up here

[URL="https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/suicide-at-16.11542/"]Suicide at 16[/URL]

 

[wiroho]

How you gone do it?
My parents destroyed my life too but dont want blame them and go edgy out like this it helps nobody. I maybe would writ everything dow if i am not able to ctb.

 

[wiroho]

For your note maybe go deep inside and your first memory where you parents abused negelec and then keep going explain what you felt anf list all stuff out and how this your future effected

 

[AnnihilatedAnna]

I would say what i wanted to say, i would write multiple notes to multiple people. Maybe you could direct one at ur parents and one at your friends, in that way if you want to blame your parents you can but then your friends have a different note for them thats kinda better?

 

[itsallover]

My family didn't even read mine. They just cared about me surviving. Most people think there's no good reason to kill yourself. You even have parents who kill their kids and only care about beating the charges. Better to die in peace than anger my friend.

 

[color_me_gone]

seen the suicide at 16 thread?

hey, good catch @Redt2go he will be among his peer there!

 

[Vaughn]

-if you need to write revenge note - you are not ready to kill yourself.
however, writing stuff MAY get you through this, and you may not want to do this any longer...
I hope to get Nembutal in the next weeks - but I won't need to even write a note to anyone - completely at peace

 

[Othermind]

It will be a revenge note, for the most part as I want to tell my parents that I hate them for fucking me up the way they did. That will be the part of the note they will get.

Others will be for some meaningful people in my life.

Do you have any advice on this?

Thanks.

I've got some good advice on something similar today myself.
And let me tell you, you won't be there to gloat at them tearing their hair out because of your note (assuming they will), so why bother?
I think the 5 stages of grief also apply to ctb and you should work your way towards accepting the end of your life as your inevitable release instead of using it as a club to bash other people.

 

[JustAboutDone]

May I ask why you are killing yourself? If it is to escape from an abusive situation at home there are agencies that can help you and cause your abusing family a lot more trouble which is better revenge imo

 

[Sixfeetunder]

My advice is revenge notes are petty as is killing yourself out of revenge.

Either

1) if they were terrible enough to do something like that to you on purpose they likely won't care about the spite in your note

2) They weren't intentionally evil and the note will be really hurtful and killing yourself will be enough

Second this. If they were abusive people, they won't care. If they weren't abusive, then you're being abusive by blaming them.

 

[Vaughn]

16. Bonus points if you don't start with "do not do it you are young" bullshit.

at 16 was my first attempt... glad it did not work out then, but now am ready 40 years later..

 

[WhiteRabbit]

I don't want to go all "it gets better" on you, but don't you want to at least wait until you can move out of your parents house? Live a little bit of adult life and then decide if you want to ctb?

And I agree with everyone saying that if your parents are really evil, they won't care about your note.

 

[Redt2go]

Just kill yourself

lol

 

[BidingTIme]

-if you need to write revenge note - you are not ready to kill yourself.
however, writing stuff MAY get you through this, and you may not want to do this any longer...
I hope to get Nembutal in the next weeks - but I won't need to even write a note to anyone - completely at peace

I agree. I want to be calm, peaceful and ready to go for my own reasons. Not to spite somebody else.

 

[wiroho]

I agree. I want to be calm, peaceful and ready to go for my own reasons. Not to spite somebody else.

Maybe he has his reasons and the reasons are his parents and how they grow him

 

[JustAboutDone]

And let me tell you, you won't be there to gloat at them tearing their hair out because of your note (assuming they will), so why bother?
I think the 5 stages of grief also apply to ctb and you should work your way towards accepting the end of your life as your inevitable release instead of using it as a club to bash other people.

I like this - I think these five stages are applicable in the same way too, this makes sense

 

[Roberto]

If I left a note. Would be a peace note.
I would say anyone that wasn't their fault
The way to pass out is having peace in own heart and trying to give peace to others.
I woudn't ctb until I felt I was without a revenge emotion. I want my sould to go with love for others, peace in mind, thinking the pain is going to end.
When I was younger than 18 years I thought my parents had the responsability to care about my life. After 18 I'm responsible about my emotions, life and I can't reproach my parents.

My father abused me, he hitted me sometimes also. I forgive all that. I had the chance to overcome it, resolve it. I didn't.

 

[First loss]

How you gone do it?
My parents destroyed my life too but dont want blame them and go edgy out like this it helps nobody. I maybe would writ everything dow if i am not able to ctb.

Probaby hanging by partial suspension. Seems easy enough.

I've got some good advice on something similar today myself.
And let me tell you, you won't be there to gloat at them tearing their hair out because of your note (assuming they will), so why bother?
I think the 5 stages of grief also apply to ctb and you should work your way towards accepting the end of your life as your inevitable release instead of using it as a club to bash other people.

I just want to tell them things that they dont realize now that im alive.

 

[Roberto]

Ok. I admit that I wanted to ctb and leave a note to my social assistant and say 'Thanks' ironically, and do it in their work, during weekend. So they found me dead before opening the center. Because they said to me that I was a lier the first day they met me. They thought I wanted to cheat for them to help me.
I'm not so good to give 'peace' to others. Sorry for my note before. I can't give advice to anyone.