Today is a particularly bad day for me. Its the anniversary of something really bad for me and I just have trouble making it through every year. Today I tried to ignore it by sleeping and occupying myself but I was constantly reliving it it my head. I relive it most days anyway but today being the anniversary it feels worse.
Anyway, I was writing threads and responses and such trying to ignore it but suddenly I was bitten by f-ing ants because prison sucks. They were coming in from my cell neighbor and I was so occupied I didn't see them. I got bit few times and I just lost it because it brought back all the other times I've been bit by stuff while asleep or woke up with stuff on me. I woken up with rats, like possum sized rats on me, I got bi one time. It just makes me really not want to try a more. This is my hell, its where ill die and then probably got to actual hell. Its like all the worst stuff I could imagine has happened to me in life that now I break over small shit like ants. I spilled half a diet coke (yes I like diet coke) the other day and was in tears. I think I'm going insaner....
Anyways my question, I've done a couple of law enforcement related threads and just wanted to put it out there if any had any requests on subject matter for future threads? Just wanted to ask because being a cop was the only thing I was ever half good at other than loss prevention. Feel free to discuss/request in the comments or message me if you don't feel comfortable.
I figured I owed y'all a prison picture after all this time....I took down part of my sheet to show my bars. Normally I always have it up because the CO's don't care and it gives me some privacy.
Anyway, I was writing threads and responses and such trying to ignore it but suddenly I was bitten by f-ing ants because prison sucks. They were coming in from my cell neighbor and I was so occupied I didn't see them. I got bit few times and I just lost it because it brought back all the other times I've been bit by stuff while asleep or woke up with stuff on me. I woken up with rats, like possum sized rats on me, I got bi one time. It just makes me really not want to try a more. This is my hell, its where ill die and then probably got to actual hell. Its like all the worst stuff I could imagine has happened to me in life that now I break over small shit like ants. I spilled half a diet coke (yes I like diet coke) the other day and was in tears. I think I'm going insaner....
Anyways my question, I've done a couple of law enforcement related threads and just wanted to put it out there if any had any requests on subject matter for future threads? Just wanted to ask because being a cop was the only thing I was ever half good at other than loss prevention. Feel free to discuss/request in the comments or message me if you don't feel comfortable.
I figured I owed y'all a prison picture after all this time....I took down part of my sheet to show my bars. Normally I always have it up because the CO's don't care and it gives me some privacy.
