I was too honest with my therapist

[weonaestupida]

so anyway I told my therapist all what I think about suicide and why isn't a bad thing to do.
results: now they want me in a psych ward
I was holding this thought since forever but I couldn't handle anymore so in a impulsive moment (caused by not feeling understand) I told her everything
she said is a case of urgency so she must lock me down, although is not 100% sure that this could happen because it all depends if my family got the money (I live in Chile, South America so everything that equals mental health is expensive as fuck)
She ask me what I feel about the situation, I told her that I don't see how this could change the way I think
I've been in a psych ward before and it was awful, everything is pointless and nothing really helps and the worst thing (for me) is loosing my freedom, it's like been in prision but even there people have more freedom about what they want to do with their day (in my country prisons are not like in the USA, here prisoners have even phones and TV's, by illegal reasons but the police doesn't really care about that)
So anyways, I guess this is what happens with people like me, and what makes me really sad is that I was in my first year at university studying something I really like but again, I guess this is the destination for people like me, this or finally ctb

 

[Gaga786]

im sorry to see you suffering so endlessly. People are just very cruel and of course the typical response regarding psych wards. They don't know that psych wards can actually induce immense trauma that may be more detrimental. They are also very expensive,too. If you don't mind me asking, what did she say when you told her that this won't change your thinking and your previous experience with the psych ward. Im inquisitive to know. Only if you're comfortable sharing. I wish you the best. Please take care of yourself

 

[weonaestupida]

im sorry to see you suffering so endlessly. People are just very cruel and of course the typical response regarding psych wards. They don't know that psych wards can actually induce immense trauma that may be more detrimental. They are also very expensive,too. If you don't mind me asking, what did she say when you told her that this won't change your thinking and your previous experience with the psych ward. Im inquisitive to know. Only if you're comfortable sharing. I wish you the best. Please take care of yourself

she said nothing lol but also she thinks that psych wards can be a bad place too
I don't want to people think that I hate her or something, she's a great person, it's just her job to do stuff like this

 

[Gaga786]

she said nothing lol but also she thinks that psych wards can be a bad place too
I don't want to people think that I hate her or something, she's a great person, it's just her job to do stuff like this

I understand. It's just I feel like the protocol is sometimes open for debate. Some therapists are in fact good and kind people.

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds like a horrible situation, in this anti suicide society it's always a terrible idea to be so open about wanting to die. All those who wish to be gone should just be able to have the option to exit in peace without being punished for wanting to die, suicidal people don't deserve to be locked up in the prisons that are psych wards.

 

[Covalite]

I'm sorry you have to deal with the looming threat of a physc ward. I have been to quite a few mental hostitals and residentals back when i was a minor agianst my will. They have made my life so much harder and so much more painful i.e. not graduating high school due to lack of credits, and also severe physical and verbal abuse from staff. Note I live in the USA so thing could be diffrent in Chile. I just wish this world would let us die with dignaty and not have to deal with people not letting us express our selves or fear being taken away from what little comfurts we have. I wish you the best and hope thing improve for you one way or another and I hope you can make the decision that you feel is best for your self.

 

[miserabletires9]

i shut my mouth about suicide thoughts and everything, be it at the primary doc for annual physical and they let u fill out a form and asking how often u want to kill yourself. And I shut my mouth to my therapist as well.