Venting I was right about everything

[SenelXamano]

My best friend fucking hates me and its all my fault. Fuck what do I do. My life is over its fucking over. I don't even wanna be here rn. My best friend hates me. I just want this nightmare to end. I just want to be gone. I knew it everytime I'm "overthinking" im always right and it never was overthinking. It's about time I just fucking die. All I've done is hurt my friends and the person closest to me for months. Fuck bpd fuck this stupid fucking life fuck my stupid feelings fuck everything honestly. And even now it hasn't fully sunk in how bad I feel right now. How bad I will feel for fucking months. I try opening up and this is where it gets me. My best friends avoiding me and its all my fucking fault.

 

[idontknowwhatiam]

Maybe give your friend some time to come around?

 

[SenelXamano]

Maybe give your friend some time to come around?

Yeah im a bit out of it. He said it'd take time and we're still friends but fuck I hurt him during one of my splits a couple months ago and it's still hurting him now. He barely talked to me for months now I know why. I don't know how to make this right but I've been struggling for so long now missing him and when im not distracted anymore then I know I'm gonna spiral again

 

[idontknowwhatiam]

Yeah im a bit out of it. He said it'd take time and we're still friends but fuck I hurt him during one of my splits a couple months ago and it's still hurting him now. He barely talked to me for months now I know why. I don't know how to make this right but I've been struggling for so long now missing him and when im not distracted anymore then I know I'm gonna spiral again

I hear ya. I'm going through something similar... Although I thought it was best to go no contact. Hang in there.... What does your heart tell you to do?

 

[SenelXamano]

I hear ya. I'm going through something similar... Although I thought it was best to go no contact. Hang in there.... What does your heart tell you to do?

It was about his girlfriend. She's my best friend irl and I split on her really bad when they got together and he was hurt more than her. I feel like shit about it. I'm visiting her right now she said he doesn't want to stop being friends with me so no no contact. It just sucks. I miss him, he was my best friend and I hurt him.