NotStrongEnough
Nihilist extraordinaire
- Oct 3, 2021
- 85
I have 2 methods at my disposal currently, both lethal, one straight out of the PPH handbook. I am a coward.
I am laying in bed and I don't know what to do. I put bullets in the mag for my gun but I can't put the mag in the gun.
I have 3 bottles of N and I can't down any of them. The closest Ive come is putting N into gel caps and using it to sleep for a long time. But I can't do the full deed. Of course we all know that's a collosal waste of N and I've only done it twice. I still have 3 bottles of it, just one with slightly less.
I'm scared. All Ive done today is lay in bed. I am taking care of a friend's cat for him. I saw him for the first time in almost 3 years the other day. Ive gained a lot of weight. Probably more than 100 pds. He kept staring at my gut. I know it was a shock to him but I didn't need that. And it's not his fault that Ive gained weight. Just another example of how I'm a shit human being but still can't do anything about it. But on the flip side, I can say I'm probably saving some poor dudes back who'd have to lift my dead fat ass.
I want out. I want to die. But I'm a fuckin coward who can't even put the bullets in the gun. If I can't do that how the fuck am I going to pull the trigger?
I should hire a hitman to take me out. A uh, political person with lots of flags on their truck threatened my bf with a gun after my bf accidentally cut him off. Maybe I should go and cut off a few of em and see if they'd shoot me. I'd be on purpose even, so they could really take their anger out on me. And kill one of "my kind" in the process.
My kind is a good way to put it for me. In multiple senses of the word.
Also, wow. Happy 1 year sanctioned anniversary for me.
I am laying in bed and I don't know what to do. I put bullets in the mag for my gun but I can't put the mag in the gun.
I have 3 bottles of N and I can't down any of them. The closest Ive come is putting N into gel caps and using it to sleep for a long time. But I can't do the full deed. Of course we all know that's a collosal waste of N and I've only done it twice. I still have 3 bottles of it, just one with slightly less.
I'm scared. All Ive done today is lay in bed. I am taking care of a friend's cat for him. I saw him for the first time in almost 3 years the other day. Ive gained a lot of weight. Probably more than 100 pds. He kept staring at my gut. I know it was a shock to him but I didn't need that. And it's not his fault that Ive gained weight. Just another example of how I'm a shit human being but still can't do anything about it. But on the flip side, I can say I'm probably saving some poor dudes back who'd have to lift my dead fat ass.
I want out. I want to die. But I'm a fuckin coward who can't even put the bullets in the gun. If I can't do that how the fuck am I going to pull the trigger?
I should hire a hitman to take me out. A uh, political person with lots of flags on their truck threatened my bf with a gun after my bf accidentally cut him off. Maybe I should go and cut off a few of em and see if they'd shoot me. I'd be on purpose even, so they could really take their anger out on me. And kill one of "my kind" in the process.
My kind is a good way to put it for me. In multiple senses of the word.
Also, wow. Happy 1 year sanctioned anniversary for me.