Story 'I was looking for a job and then I found a job and heaven knows I'm miserable now'

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I hope someone gets the reference lol.

So I've been offered a job. Not in the sector I initially strived for, but it's decent money and I'll be using my language skills daily (so at least some of my education won't go to waste). The manager who interviewed me seemed like a kind-hearted person.

But there's no option of remote work and I'm afraid that my OCD will get in the way of my work. It will take me too long to use the bathroom because I'll be washing my hands religiously and I'll be away from my work station for too long. In consequence, I'll be fired/yelled at/made fun of. Or I'll just be the office freak because of my weird behaviours and anxiety. Also, it takes one hour to get from my place to the office. So it gives me 2hrs a day wasted in commute and I'm scared of how I'll handle spending my whole day away from home and not having time for anything. OCD already takes away so much of my time (I shower for 2hrs etc).

These are all the 'real' issues. There's also the ever present feeling that life makes no sense and that I'll hate any job anyway.

I'm sorry if this is irrelevant. I just like sharing my experiences here. This community feels like a safe space where I can be depressed and I'm not forced to 'cheer up' or 'start thinking positively'.

 

[FuneralCry]

That does sound tiring and stressful what you are going through. This life does just seem to be endless misery and problems with no real relief. Life could never make any sense to me personally.

 

[Ligottifan95]

One of my favorite songs from The Smiths.

 

[IfyouareamanWinston]

I'm going to see Morrissey this December


I am underemployed and I understand what you are feeling. I could get a better job and I have even been offered a full time position with my company but giving up the part of my job I actually enjoy and having to work more hours just dose not feel possible for me to do and walk the wire on which I balance my mental health.

 

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A two hour commute for me would be a non-starter. Just too much waste of time in a car. Couple that with time to get ready for work, and each and every day turns into a 12 hour day. I'd never give working for the man 12 hours out of my life in a day. That's just me, though. To each their own.

 

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I hope someone gets the reference lol.

So I've been offered a job. Not in the sector I initially strived for, but it's decent money and I'll be using my language skills daily (so at least some of my education won't go to waste). The manager who interviewed me seemed like a kind-hearted person.

But there's no option of remote work and I'm afraid that my OCD will get in the way of my work. It will take me too long to use the bathroom because I'll be washing my hands religiously and I'll be away from my work station for too long. In consequence, I'll be fired/yelled at/made fun of. Or I'll just be the office freak because of my weird behaviours and anxiety. Also, it takes one hour to get from my place to the office. So it gives me 2hrs a day wasted in commute and I'm scared of how I'll handle spending my whole day away from home and not having time for anything. OCD already takes away so much of my time (I shower for 2hrs etc).

These are all the 'real' issues. There's also the ever present feeling that life makes no sense and that I'll hate any job anyway.

I'm sorry if this is irrelevant. I just like sharing my experiences here. This community feels like a safe space where I can be depressed and I'm not forced to 'cheer up' or 'start thinking positively'.

The Smiths, I thought so many times about the line the past year. I worked for only 4months and it was the most difficult experience in my life. Sick mental people shouldn't work. And no matter how hard you try to be normal everybody will laught at you as you are doing gymnastics to keep yourself together while you have to spend 6 hours on your feet without moving and watching docens of people come and go infront of you,watching u, talking to u,looking at you bad.

 

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A two hour commute for me would be a non-starter. Just too much waste of time in a car. Couple that with time to get ready for work, and each and every day turns into a 12 hour day. I'd never give working for the man 12 hours out of my life in a day. That's just me, though. To each their own.

I would use public transport, so technically I could read something etc in that time, but it's not at all the same as just free time. I agree with you, getting ready for work takes time as well and people seem to forget about it!

The Smiths, I thought so many times about the line the past year. I worked for only 4months and it was the most difficult experience in my life. Sick mental people shouldn't work. And no matter how hard you try to be normal everybody will laught at you as you are doing gymnastics to keep yourself together while you have to spend 6 hours on your feet without moving and watching docens of people come and go infront of you,watching u, talking to u,looking at you bad.

Seems like you had an awful experience, I'm sorry to hear that Did you work in retail/customer service?

 

[CTB Dream]

Job concept awful very sorry make suffer asd tha human cruelty not understand suffer many problem one have nobody see all think machinery, real terrible world terrible job all want machine , society lie say job solve reality job problems