Before I answer your questions, I apologize in advance. I am under "suicide watch" for an indefinite period of time and I am not allowed to access the Internet freely.
That really sounds like an ordeal. I'm sorry you had to go through all that. Eight months seems like an enormous amount of time to be locked up. How many days into your vsed attempt were you? How did you get found out? Are you own your own now, or heavily supervised? Do you think there was any damage done to your body/organs?
It was too long, and there is not much to do in the psychiatric hospital. To me, it feels like years have passed. I cried every day because I wanted to get out of there. I was in vsed for about 7 days, I was discovered because I started to rave and added to that I smoked large amounts of marijuana and took drugs to endure all those days, in the end my psyche "broke" and I made a scandal that I don't even remember, I only know that at some point I lost all consciousness and that I woke up 2 days later in the psychiatric hospital. According to what I have found out these days asking neighbors and friends I made a fucking scandal screaming crazy things in the solitude of my house, they called my family and the rest is history. And as I said before, yes, I am under strict supervision, in fact I am not allowed access to the internet unless under the supervision of a family member. I am also not allowed to live alone in my own house, I am living with an uncle. My life is so controlled that I feel like I am still locked up in the damn asylum. It did not cause any permanent damage.
Sorry you had to deal with this! How did they find you?
I've never heard of a successful VSED attempt tbh. I saw in news Palestinian prisoners in Israhelli jails do VSED for 8 months and still alive although got blind and in terrible conditions.
Tldr: I became psychotic and made a scene that my entire neighborhood found out about and when the police came to my house and saw what was happening, they called my family to come and look for me.
Quite a dull and true statement, I also had pretty bad experiences with therapitsts in the past and had to act in order not to end up institutionalised. However being locked up for 8 months after an attempt does not sound very pleasant at all, hope you managed to muster up the courage to go through it and learned from the experience.
Wishing one day you find a way to make your avatar a physical reality on Earth.
I learned a lot, more than anyone can imagine. Next time will be the final one. Thanks for your good wishes.
That they can lock one up for 8 months just for wanting to escape suffering shows we are all slaves prisoners sheep. This is an evil prison world . I don't get it why Anyone would want to live as a prisoner slave... I would never . It's another reason to get out of this hell.
They say " I want to live as a prisoner slave under threat of extreme torture working every day suffering for no reason just to get old and suffer extremely" they say that is a good situation to be in "we are so lucky to be alive".
Fuck that . I want to escape this evil prison world and evil life. I don't want any part of this evil world and evil life
This world is truly a hellish prison, but the good thing is that sooner or later we will free ourselves from it.
I'm just curious if one (who's very dependent on meds/drugs) ends up in psych ward, do they give the stuff to him to avoid horrible withdrawals?
Yes, they gave me drugs to prevent withdrawal for the first few months, but on the other hand they kept me so fucking DRUGGED with pills that I was almost completely unaware of my surroundings and felt virtually no emotion
8 months is really long, I'm so sorry. where are you from? When I was in psych-ward for attempt many years ago I was let go despite voicing suicidal ideation. (I was young and dumb back then)
Latin America, I was put in a "luxury" psychiatric hospital but it still seemed like a complete hell to me
I'm sorry that happened to you, just thinking about being locked up 8 months for simply wanting to be gone sounds... Hellish...
From the posts I've seen so far I think those clinics or whatever just worsen people's conditions mentally due to the forced nature they have.
While some may benefit from help locking people up like this doesn't seem the way for anything at all...
They literally did NOTHING for me except to make me believe that death is the only way out. But they taught me to be more quiet with my feelings and to be much more careful with those around me, you can't trust anyone in this world.
