TheDog_
Member
- Feb 25, 2023
- 97
Yesterday I had intense abdominal and back pain but nothing was found aside from a kidney issue that I've had for a year that I'm already being treated for. Nobody was mean or dismissive but ER just doesn't have the capabilities to help. At least my kidney was functioning fine and the pain went away. I do worry it is my gastrointestinal tract and not my kidney but I don't know. I'm seeing a gastroenterologist soon and maybe getting a colonoscopy just to make sure. I even wonder if it was a probiotic I took because those have caused me pain before. I really thought my appendix was going to burst, I was so scared and in so much pain I really hoped I'd die even more than my usual suicidal tendencies. My family was there with me but it doesn't help. I have other issues and I know I'd be worse off without a support system but they can't help me or cure me so sometimes I feel angry at them. I was really so scared I cried the entire time but the pain slowly went away even without the use of pain medication though I did have to go to the ER twice because it came back and then went away. The body is crazy I hate it. I woke up with the pain too which was very hard for me because two years ago and I woke up sick and I had to undergo testing and surgery for that issue so it felt like I was reliving a trauma again. It makes me scared to sleep. I hope it was just acute inflammation that went away and I really hope I won't have an inflammatory disease. I will be seeing the urogyno soon as well to see if it could have possibly been my kidney. I don't have anybody to talk to so I write it here. I am just sad. I don't want anymore struggles. I hope to kill myself soon
