Story I was addicted to prostitutes

[GodKnows]

I was an exchange student in Poland (Erasmus+). I was a virgin and desperate for sex so I started making appointments with high-end escorts (prostitutes). I enjoyed having sex and cuddling with them between rounds. They were all way above my range, and one of them even had fake boobs. But then I injured my penis and nightmare began... it also triggered my fear of STDs because I was receiving bareback blowjobs so I went to get urethral swab and I mentally collapsed after that because of the pain and panic. Soon after I packed my suitcases in panic and ran back home.

Self-control is self-preservation. Men who know say no to prostitutes.

Don't be me.

 

[ge0rge]

when on Erasmus, do as Erasmus students do

 

[Midnight]

Sorry to hear about your experience. That must be really though. However saying "don't do prostitutes" is a bit much imo. I agree one must be cautious but bad experiences happen in all fields. Is there no way to ever recover from your injury? Where the test results good or bad? I'm assuming it all went south given the fact that you are here.

 

[typx]

Like.. you broke your penis?

You didn't get a std but a physical injury to it?

 

[Oblivion]

I have no idea how do some people enjoy prostitutes, i mean they are not into you they don't even like you, but you still have sex with them?

 

[Midnight]

I have no idea how do some people enjoy prostitutes, i mean they are not into you they don't even like you, but you still have sex with them?

People have meaningless sex all the time (be it payed for or not) the fact that they "don't even like" you is discarded by the fact they receive money for it and in return offer their services. It's not always about sex either .. companionship is a big factor aswell. Most human beings i assume crave some kind of physical contact once i a while. Even if it's just to hold someone.

When it comes to married people or people in a relationship doing this well that's a different story ... I don't support that whatsoever. But for people who are alone i find it a really good thing that they exist.

I get that it can be difficult to understand but for some it's not just about "fucking some girl"

 

[Tiburcio]

I have no idea how do some people enjoy prostitutes, i mean they are not into you they don't even like you, but you still have sex with them?

Yeah I feel the same, I would even prefer masturbation... is easier, free and not uncomfortable at all, for me of course

 

[Midnight]

Yeah I feel the same, I would even prefer masturbation... is easier, free and not uncomfortable at all, for me of course

That's what i'm getting at. For some it's not just about having an orgasm. If it was then sure masturbation is fine. But having intimate contact with another person is not easily substituted.

 

[Tiburcio]

That's what i'm getting at. For some it's not just about having an orgasm. If it was then sure masturbation is fine. But having intimate contact with another person is not easily substituted.

I understand both points. I personally never felt the need of companionship, I just enjoy the process.

 

[Ashton]

Paying for sex partically high end is pure fantasy, of course you can get a quick hand job but it is just filling a hole in yourself.

 

[Midnight]

but it is just filling a hole in yourself.

That goes for most if not all forms of pleasure. Pay to play is what society is all about.

 

[ge0rge]

but it is just filling a hole in yourself.

much like fisting, but for the spirit

 

[Tiburcio]

much like fisting, but for the spirit

This reply is marvellous

 

[Lowri]

Odloty? >.>

 

[GodKnows]

Odloty? >.>

Nah, I (unfortunately) managed to find a forum where they write reviews (garsoniera), so I knew which escorts I should avoid.
I was lonely and homesick, so escorts were filling that void. I was almost 25 and still a virgin, and was rejected by girls all my life.
I thought I have control, but I became completely addicted once I gained "self-confidence" (I was getting a boner immediately and was able to ejaculate 2 times in 1 hour).

I physically injured my penis with one escort. I called my travel insurance company to find me a urologist or a surgeon, because the pain was unbearable and I was having major panic attacks because of it. Unfortunately it was Saturday, so they found me the only one that worked that day. Turns out it was a very unethical surgeon who insisted on circumcision and surgery, just so he can get money from the insurance company. I went back to my room and cried. I called my Erasmus+ coordinator back in my country in panic. She gave me a ton of bad advice, including that I should tell everything to my parents. She kinda guilt tripped me into it, so I told my parents I went to a surgeon but it's "nothing serious". Then I started receiving phone calls and text messages from them all day long.

Then I went to get an urethral swab to get checked for STDs. It was the worst pain I ever experienced. I screamed during the entire procedure, and the nurse started shaking her head. I was convinced I must have some STD, and started feeling awful about my escort addiction. I went to my college afterwards for English exam and had a major panic attack. International office set me up an appointment with a psychiatrist the next day. I was feeling 10x worse after the visit. I was prescribed Xanax and some SSRI but I didn't use them. I purchased Xanax and I had no idea what it is. Psychiatrist told me I should take 0.25 mg - 0.5 mg only when it's emergency. I didn't take enough of it and major panic attacks continued. Then I packed my suitcases in huge panic and ran back home, 2.5 months after I left it. hoping I'll never return.

Overall, I should have gained €1300 more ($1500) if I remained until the end of the semester (Erasmus grant). I also applied for jobs and who knows how many of them called me while I was away. I failed Erasmus semester and a chance to live a happy and fulfilled life. I came back home where I was exposed to domestic abuse, spent a week in the psychiatric hospital etc. Now all I have left is CTB.

 

[GodKnows]

What an unfortunate series of events. Visiting escorts wasn't the issue though, or even getting injured. It was getting assigned a piece of shit worthless doctor and having your life ruined. Hope your dick is fine now though.

I've had a few escorts myself, for the same reasons you did. Risky business.

Well, it was my fault for asking the insurance to assign me a urologist/surgeon on Saturday, even though I was fully aware that vast majority of them are not working on weekends. But the pain was severe, it started hurting on Thursday and didn't stop. I couldn't even sleep. I was afraid to wait 2 more days since I had no idea what was going on. If I waited, they would assign me some good doctor instead.

Although it was a mistake to mess with escorts at the first place, especially because I have addictive personality and lack of self-control. But I was never more lonely in my life.

Dick is okay, but it's bent to the left even when flaccid, and I have to aim when I urinate.

 

[Midnight]

Well, it was my fault for asking the insurance to assign me a urologist/surgeon on Saturday, even though I was fully aware that vast majority of them are not working on weekends. But the pain was severe, it started hurting on Thursday and didn't stop. I couldn't even sleep. I was afraid to wait 2 more days since I had no idea what was going on. If I waited, they would assign me some good doctor instead.

Although it was a mistake to mess with escorts at the first place, especially because I have addictive personality and lack of self-control. But I was never more lonely in my life.

Dick is okay, but it's bent to the left even when flaccid, and I have to aim when I urinate.

Most if not all guy's dick tend to lean either to left or right .. flacid or erect. Normal when you consider having the thing either pointed to the left or right in your underwear/pants all day. And everyone has to hold their dick to aim when peeing.

If you don't mind me asking how where you able to afford escorts as a student?

Did the std test come back negative or positive?

You had a shit experience i understand but hey your dick still works and if you are free of std's then you can concentrate on those panic attacks and meds for it back home.

Look just to make it clear. i'm not trying be mr helpfull over here or saying you should reconsider.

 

[Dip]

That goes for most if not all forms of pleasure. Pay to play is what society is all about.

What about free games? ^_^

 

[GodKnows]

I received a huge scholarship. They gave me €2700 even before the start of the semester, and I was about to receive €1300 more if I completed the semester. Most high-end escorts were €80 - €100 per hour, and my monthly rent+utilities was around €150 per month. I was also working as freelancer for around $400 per month.

After I injured my dick, I started freaking out and then everything collapsed. I felt extremely guilty (mostly because I have extremely conservative family and prostitution is illegal in my home country) and my dick hurt extremely bad, and my loneliness and homesickness amplified. My dick is naturally bent to the left, but after the injury it's 2x more bent than it was before. I also have hands tremor because I didn't sleep almost entire May.

STD test came negative

 

[Midnight]

I received a huge scholarship. They gave me €2700 even before the start of the semester, and I was about to receive €1300 more if I completed the semester. Most high-end escorts were €80 - €100 per hour, and my monthly rent+utilities was around €150 per month. I was also working as freelancer for around $400 per month.

After I injured my dick, I started freaking out and then everything collapsed. I felt extremely guilty (mostly because I have extremely conservative family and prostitution is illegal in my home country) and my dick hurt extremely bad, and my loneliness and homesickness amplified. My dick is naturally bent to the left, but after the injury it's 2x more bent than it was before. I also have hands tremor because I didn't sleep almost entire May.

STD test came negative

80-100/hour is pretty cheap. Especially when they come to see you. Good thing the std test was negative. The rest could be fixable perhaps? Maybe freelancing again for some quick cash? Idk ... Either way whatever you decide to do i wish you good luck with it. Fwiw i understand the hooker thing very well (that it's not just about sex etc)

 

[GodKnows]

A lot of shit happened in the meantime. I lost my best friend since I admitted to him what I did (he couldn't get over it), I suffered domestic abuse, spent a week in the psychiatric hospital and I'm on meds. Plus I started abusing Xanax + alcohol and I only passed 1 exam this year. I'm moving out next month most likely. I'll lie to my parents that I'm studying, but I will keep on abusing Xanax and alcohol while my N or SN arrives, and then I'll CTB. I hate this country and its people. I had a chance to escape this hellhole and I ruined it.

 

[Midnight]

A friend abandoning you over stuff like that is no true friend to begin with. Sorry to hear about the domestic abuse .. that must be tough.

 

[BaconCheeseburger]

Ohhh, Erasmus.

I got Herpes on my year abroad...

 

[ge0rge]

I hear tons of people get pregnant on Erasmus, too. Like, they call them Erasmus babies or something.

 

[GodKnows]

I hear tons of people get pregnant on Erasmus, too. Like, they call them Erasmus babies or something.

Most likely. I'd probably know if I didn't spend all day long in my room (except when I was out fucking prostitutes).

 

[BaconCheeseburger]

I hear tons of people get pregnant on Erasmus, too. Like, they call them Erasmus babies or something.

I heard that Erasmus babies were conceived as a result of people meeting on Erasmus, not necessarily just happening during the year abroad, but tomayto tomahto.

I'm still sour that during my USA internship a few years later my roommate met (and is now engaged to) her love that she found out there, whilst I just jump from one shitty relationship to another.

 

[Tiburcio]

I'm very glad I don't value companionship at all.

 

[PeakyBlinder]

Dude sorry for all the trouble you have been through.

I mean this in the best way possible, but your line about your d**k being bent 2x more made me laugh quite a bit thank you. For a moment there i even thought this was a troll post. Please don't get offended or anything but thats just funny.

Would never do prostitutes, but to each their own.

I hope you find what you're looking for my friend.