Discussion I want to try Heroin

[deathgripsme]

I've always been so fascinated and attracted to Heroin even when I was dedicated to living so now that i've clocked out months ago I find myself flirting with the idea more and more, I don't have any drug dealers who sell it, I don't know how I'd go about getting it tbh.
But i've just given up all hope on living, I want to go out with a bang.

 

[Smart No More]

I had a romantic obsession with drug use in my teens. I found my way to heroin. It's nothing like it's depicted in movies or TV. Not really. You would only find commonality in its depictions once you have tried but you'd also see the misconceptions made. It's a nice drug. Don't get me wrong. It's not all tripping and extacy fueled writhing around though. More like a warm blanket and a hot coco on winters day mixed with hugs and love from a significant other and maternal figure mixed into one. Unfortunately that only last for a short period and then it's gone and you're sick most of the time. Chained to the chase to avoid being ill without it. It's a horrible existence at that point and everything else loses value. I'd advise steering clear as you would probably end up trying to stay alive just chasing an ever illusive return to the honey moon period of getting high and end up dying a really shit death after screwing up anything that still means anything to you at the current moment.

 

[intheweeds]

Heroin has been romanticized so much that it's no surprise people have a desire to try it, but in reality it's such a boring ass addictive drug. Nothing good ever comes from a heroin experience.

Meanwhile... LSD and Shrooms are pretty much the opposite of that.

 

[miserableforever]

I had a romantic obsession with drug use in my teens. I found my way to heroin. It's nothing like it's depicted in movies or TV. Not really. You would only find commonality in its depictions once you have tried but you'd also see the misconceptions made. It's a nice drug. Don't get me wrong. It's not all tripping and extacy fueled writhing around though. More like a warm blanket and a hot coco on winters day mixed with hugs and love from a significant other and maternal figure mixed into one. Unfortunately that only last for a short period and then it's gone and you're sick most of the time. Chained to the chase to avoid being ill without it. It's a horrible existence at that point and everything else loses value. I'd advise steering clear as you would probably end up trying to stay alive just chasing an ever illusive return to the boney moon period of getting high and end up dying a really shit death after screwing up anythkng that still means anything to you at the current moment.

I see what you're seeing and I don't disagree. Simply cause Ive never tried that drug. Maybe OP wants to see something else before he leaves the planet. Maybe to them it's worth the potential downfall. I cant tell and it's not my call. But I do understand the fascination, the longing for something we've never experienced.

 

[Snake of Eden]

I tried smoking opium or drinking dried poppy buds tea and i really enjoyed it. Ex meth addict here too. Been on that shit for a year and half and it screwed me up bad. It is a miracle that i managed to stay sober for a year now and not planning to go back on it ever again.

 

[Aeathelina]

I always wanted to try Heroin only because I know that its easy to overdose on

 

[Smart No More]

I see what you're seeing and I don't disagree. Simply cause Ive never tried that drug. Maybe OP wants to see something else before he leaves the planet. Maybe to them it's worth the potential downfall. I cant tell and it's not my call. But I do understand the fascination, the longing for something we've never experienced.

Me too. I totally get it.

I enjoyed it myself. It's just that the fun stuff is short lived. Some people can manage a functional addiction and some can use occasionally without addiction for a while but eventually I've seen it get them all.

It is easy to od on but unfortunately all ambulances are stocked with nalaxone which brings you right out of it. Assuming you're found in time. In my experience more peope are than aren't although news reports say otherwise but that's a bit of scaremongering. Perhaps not unjust scarmongering in this case. That said, news should be news without agendas right!? Just the facts thanks.
Unfortunately these days heroin on the streets is really poor quality, over priced gak. There's all sorts in there and it ruins the high. If I were to buy heroin now it would be via a dnm and I still don't think I'd be super confident in the quality until I'd gone through a few vendors. It has more chance of being decent quality than street stuff though. Used to get half a gram for around 25usd on the streets. Now you'd be lucky to get 0.25 for that. Depending where you live of course. Used to be old hippies and stoners doing it and now its all gangs and manipulated youths who want in on the gang culture. Its made it's mark on pop culture in such a big way.

All the emporers have no clothes on these days. World's a mess and it's all us humans doing it.

 

[deathgripsme]

I see what you're seeing and I don't disagree. Simply cause Ive never tried that drug. Maybe OP wants to see something else before he leaves the planet. Maybe to them it's worth the potential downfall. I cant tell and it's not my call. But I do understand the fascination, the longing for something we've never experienced.

Yep my life is very boring and I have just over a month left in this world I don't care about the potential risks involved because I literally have the stuff needed to kill me in my bedroom drawer.

 

[Smart No More]

Yep my life is very boring and I have just over a month left in this world I don't care about the potential risks involved because I literally have the stuff needed to kill me in my bedroom drawer.

What method are you going with?

If you have health issues and know things are coming to a head I would say go for it! Have a wonderful last month you deserve it. If your issues are more of the mental health/quality of life kind then I would say give it a miss. Mainly because you'll find yourself putting off your ctb date and before you know it years will have passed and you'll be much worse off.

 

[deathgripsme]

What method are you going with?

If you have health issues and know things are coming to a head I would say go for it! Have a wonderful last month you deserve it. If your issues are more of the mental health/quality of life kind then I would say give it a miss. Mainly because you'll find yourself putting off your ctb date and before you know it years will have passed and you'll be much worse off.

SN method after christmas:)

 

[Zzzzz]

I feel like I could benefit from morphine.

 

[toforigivelife]

If you're thinking of using it in order to die heroin would probably work.

But if you start using it and it makes you feel better and decide to live to get high then your life will really become a living hell. I guess the fun period lasts for a few weeks and then you're in deep shit.

But since you have no physical tolerance for the drug you'd probably be able to snort and booze your way into the next realm.

If you'd like to feel good for a few weeks and then ctb using heroin, that might just work.

I'm just afraid your new drug of choice would give you a new lease on life, a new lease on life that's going to make things even worse.

 

[Darkover]

heroin is nasty drug i smoke it a couple of time it just makes you drift in and out of conscious for like 6 hours and the next day you feel like shit and it's hard to eat afterwards

 

[eternalmelancholy]

I'm just afraid your new drug of choice would give you a new lease on life, a new lease on life that's going to make things even worse.

Becoming a heroin addict ontop of being suicidally depressed sounds like a terrible way to live. I get why people like narcotics so much. I had a bunch of surgeries in the past and was given all kinds of pain meds. Not only does it take away the physical pain but also the mental pain. Like nothing bothers you anymore. All the bad, intrusive thoughts just simply melt away.

I am assuming heroin is much more euphoric. It is the worst type of drug to get involved with as a depressed person. Just remember there is no such thing as rock bottom. Life can always get worse in unfathomable ways.

 

[Snake of Eden]

Becoming a heroin addict ontop of being suicidally depressed sounds like a terrible way to live. I get why people like narcotics so much. I had a bunch of surgeries in the past and was given all kinds of pain meds. Not only does it take away the physical pain but also the mental pain. Like nothing bothers you anymore. All the bad, intrusive thoughts just simply melt away.

I am assuming heroin is much more euphoric. It is the worst type of drug to get involved with as a depressed person. Just remember there is no such thing as rock bottom. Life can always get worse in unfathomable ways.

No harm in someone having some fun if they know for sure they will ctb though. I think we can agree on this point

 

[toforigivelife]

Just remember there is no such thing as rock bottom. Life can always get worse in unfathomable ways.

Amen. There is no rock bottom. It can always get worse. Amen.

For someone who is new to heroin, with no physical tolerance, heroin could be a painless way out. (I'd tell you to ask Jim Morrison but he's unavailable at the moment.) It's, as you've pointed out too, just not a good life path for someone who already has enough problems.

And I'm putting that VERY mildly.

 

[eternalmelancholy]

No harm in someone having some fun if they know for sure they will ctb though. I think we can agree on this point

Fair enough. I have such bad luck, I know I would end up getting addicted instead of ODing.

Amen. There is no rock bottom. It can always get worse. Amen.

For someone who is new to heroin, with no physical tolerance, heroin could be a painless way out. (I'd tell you to ask Jim Morrison but he's unavailable at the moment.) It's, as you've pointed out too, just not a good life path for someone who already has enough problems.

And I'm putting that VERY mildly.

I always thought I had some shitty luck but reading some of the stories on here I am horrified. Life can always get worse in ways you can't even imagine. It sucks we had to gather here under these kinds of circumstances. I am glad this community exists, even if we have to hide away in secret.

 

[miserableforever]

Me too. I totally get it.

I enjoyed it myself. It's just that the fun stuff is short lived. Some people can manage a functional addiction and some can use occasionally without addiction for a while but eventually I've seen it get them all.

It is easy to od on but unfortunately all ambulances are stocked with nalaxone which brings you right out of it. Assuming you're found in time. In my experience more peope are than aren't although news reports say otherwise but that's a bit of scaremongering. Perhaps not unjust scarmongering in this case. That said, news should be news without agendas right!? Just the facts thanks.
Unfortunately these days heroin on the streets is really poor quality, over priced gak. There's all sorts in there and it ruins the high. If I were to buy heroin now it would be via a dnm and I still don't think I'd be super confident in the quality until I'd gone through a few vendors. It has more chance of being decent quality than street stuff though. Used to get half a gram for around 25usd on the streets. Now you'd be lucky to get 0.25 for that. Depending where you live of course. Used to be old hippies and stoners doing it and now its all gangs and manipulated youths who want in on the gang culture. Its made it's mark on pop culture in such a big way.

All the emporers have no clothes on these days. World's a mess and it's all us humans doing it.

Short lived fun is better than no fun at all. I haven't had any good moments in months, close to 2 years now. Trying this will never be off the table for me completely. Thanks for the insight.

 

[Bot]

if i had the chance to do it before i ctb i would definitely go for it after all it won't matter in the end since i will be dead anyway..

 

[kittymagic]

I was addicted to opiates for almost 10 years, from before I was even a teenager. Heroin is fun at first but be warned, it's SO addictive and the withdrawals are absolute hell. Truly indescribable torture.

I also tried to intentionally OD and did a massive amount...it just hurt. I didn't even really pass out. Unfortunately I'm cursed with a massive tolerance while I watched others literally turn blue and start to die in my arms on $10 worth.

 

[Rayzieka]

I've also been thinking about if I had access to it if I would use it.
I most likely would but I highly doubt I'll come across it while I'm around.

 

[Midgardsorm]

I don't use any kind of euphoric drugs. But Heroin is very addictive and potentially dangerous.

Even so, I think it's okay for recreational use, moderately or if the user don't care about the long lasting damages, then at will.

It's a very potent drug, might be one of the best actually. Usually I tend to vouch against things like cocaine or stuff like it because of the somewhat aggressive behavior that might induce, but still, alcohol does the same at some point and it's everywhere.

The only problem of LSD or some shrooms would be the absurd hallucinations of it. I remember I saw a very strange movie of a guy under the effects of LSD and it's really scary
Especially because most people said that the movie's portraits of the effects pretty accurate.

Here: (Mostly disturbing stuff)

Spoiler

 

[no-name9859472882]

SN method after christmas:)is sn seconal also how do i get some?

Is sn seconal?

 

[8evergo]

in my youth I sometimes smoked Herion on aluminum foil or pulled through my nose then always after hours then overmayed I is not for me

 

[LittleJem]

I snorted it once in utter desperation to escape suicidal thoughts. It made me feel nauseous. I personally would prefer weed and/or Ketamine. Maybe H doesn't work on me, or I hear it's better second time

 

[ReallyTired]

I've been reading a lot about ketamine recently. Mostly on reddit. It's been fascinating to hear from people who have taken high doses and they seemed to experience ego death and expanded consciousness.
The famous K- hole. It's something I'd like to try before I ctb. Unfortunately, I don't know where to get it, and I'm not comfortable buying the stuff on the darknet.

Heroin is overrated in my opinion. I've tried smoking it long time ago, but it was zombifying. I've always preferred stimulants.

 

[Insomniac]

I've always been so fascinated and attracted to Heroin even when I was dedicated to living so now that i've clocked out months ago I find myself flirting with the idea more and more, I don't have any drug dealers who sell it, I don't know how I'd go about getting it tbh.
But i've just given up all hope on living, I want to go out with a bang.

stay away from drug. It's the only thing adults didn't lie about.

 

[Snake of Eden]

stay away from drug. It's the only thing adults didn't lie about.

If someone is going to die there is no point in staying away from drugs. Drugs are fun. There is nothing wrong with having fun before ctb.

 

[Snake of Eden]

beside, if your whole reasoning is: "if I'm going to die then there's nothing to lose" then you're lying. If you truly felt that way, you couldn't be suicidal in the first place.

If I am going to die of course there is nothing to lose by having some risky fun. Why cant I be suicidal and think like that? What is about that is so contradictory?

 

[Insomniac]

If I am going to die of course there is nothing to lose by having some risky fun. Why cant I be suicidal and think like that? What is about that is so contradictory?

nvm