I'd rather be sleeping
- Sep 21, 2022
But I have no money. I wish I had the resources to buy land, build a house and grow my own food. I'm in university, pursuing a career while having 0 desire to work, developed cleanliness OCD and a makeup addiction, my diet is express sushi, instant oatmeal and cigarettes. How am I supposed to have passions or dreams while living in hell. I don't want to be traditional, I want to go back to being a neanderthal that picks berries, rolls in dirt and dies at 25. I wish I did not know what germs are. I wish I didn't have to worry about calories. I wish I could look in the mirror and not feel disgusted by myself in my natural state. Does anyone feel like that? How do you escape?