Venting I want to have a failed attempt

[crazyclem]

I'm not sure whats wrong with me. I keep ruining my life the longer I'm alive but I can't bring myself to ctb. I wish I could just have a failed attempt so that the issues I face could actually be seen as real by the people around me.

 

[Crow_88]

The problem with failed attempts is they can be very painful and leave you with lifelong and painful disablities.

 

[RENOX]

Same, but most methods are created to actually CTB without any survival and most of the methods can leave you with brain damage or many physical disabilities if you survive. When I was a kid I started self harm at 14 and attempted suicide by cutting one of my artery veins in my wrist . I was too scared and I think I didn't cut the vein in to two but I cut the vein halfway through. It bled for sometime but didn't end me and I wish it did. I'd say it was painful but it's not an unbearable pain.

 

[Persona3]

I think what you're looking for is visibility and acknowledgment that your pain is real. But do you really want that from your family who never understood you in the first place? I don't know about your family, but my family would flip the coin, double the pain, and fuck me up for the worse by degrading me through their lack of understanding again. Try to anticipate your family's reaction based on the dynamics. Even so, they're not worth it if you ask me. Sometimes, unfortunately, the people who truly see us aren't to be found in our family