Venting I want to die so fucking badly PLEASE don’t tell me to keep on living. I’ll just get angry…

[Nagoop]

I can barely make posts because my OCD is screwing me over. I get SUPER easily stressed to the point where my stomach HURTS LIKE HELL and I don't want to get medicated as I am or was a writer and I don't want meds to FUCK UP my creativity and intelligence/imagination as I NEED that to write. Though I can't write anymore due to multiple issues going on right now.

Please no pitty posts/replies to tell me life is worth living or some BS like that. I'm tired boss… that's all I gotta say… is that I'm tired boss… that's all… that is all… I hope reincarnation is real so I can HOPEFULLY chose a better life as I've heard that is possible or that I can just go back in time to BEFORE all of my troubles began… GOD ID GIVE FUCKING ANYTHING TO GO BACK IN TIME!!!!!!!!!! FML RIGHT NOW!!! AND NO PITTY POSTS/REPLIES!!!

 

[EmptyBottle]

Idk what to say so I'll upload this GIF that I have sent to a few different threads, the first thread I sent it to was a goodbye thread that I didn't know how to respond.

 

[bankai]

Ok I won't,but ill be here for you if you want OP.I'm probably going to die soon. At this point I don't see Any more reason to try too hard lol.

Message me if you want.I'm sorry.Bless you.

 

[Hollowman]

Nobody here is going to tell you to live or not. Wish I could go back in time too.

 

[Nagoop]

Nobody here is going to tell you to live or not. Wish I could go back in time too.

Yeah like I wasn't ALWAYS suffering in my life. I had depression and mood issues in the past but honestly I coped with them by writing and expressing my pain through stories but after a series of unfortunate events it's been even harder for me to stay emotionally stable and on top of that I developed SEVERE DEBILITATING OCD which I never had previously(thanks Methylprednisolone!). And I can't sleep anymore due to other issues I can't talk about that prevent me from getting ANY good amount of sleep… I most I can ever ever ever receive is about Six hours of sleep. After that it's nothing… :(