MiMif
I do not live for others to understand me...
- Sep 13, 2023
- 594
I wanted to wait till I was 25 but honestly it might be best to do it now. I'm burdening alot of people with my feelings right now and my relationships are strained. I want to be alone and not bothering others or ruining the mood.
But I don't want to really burden the people around me specifically my parents with my death so I was thinking of going off the map. (I'm in college) and like leaving a note saying I'm running away.
Then after I get a couple states away from my current place of resident then I'll do it and my parents will simply think I was a bitch that ran away from my responsibilities (they wouldn't be wrong) cause I know if they find out I killed myself they would be broken and I don't want that. I feel so overwhelmed right now I'm not even just burdening myself anymore I'm burdening my parents too. I can't do this. I really dont think I can wait everyday is torture and I'm slowly going insane.
But I don't want to really burden the people around me specifically my parents with my death so I was thinking of going off the map. (I'm in college) and like leaving a note saying I'm running away.
Then after I get a couple states away from my current place of resident then I'll do it and my parents will simply think I was a bitch that ran away from my responsibilities (they wouldn't be wrong) cause I know if they find out I killed myself they would be broken and I don't want that. I feel so overwhelmed right now I'm not even just burdening myself anymore I'm burdening my parents too. I can't do this. I really dont think I can wait everyday is torture and I'm slowly going insane.
