Venting I want to die because I hate working

[Painless_end]

Apart from my other mental issues, one of the issues is simply that I hate doing a job. It makes me miserable.

I dislike responsibility and I know that's abnormal and makes me dependent on living with my parents.

I don't want to be like this, but since I do not have any real substantial career interests in any field, I feel unhappy whenever I have to work in an office, or even from home for any kind of job.

I don't want to work, and I don't want to deal with the shame that brings me.

I would rather just die and get everything over with, I am completely fed up with everything.

 

[Silenos]

One of my top 10 reasons for sure. Which is kind of ironic considering I haven't worked for years.

 

[blueclover_.]

Same.

 

[Crazy4u]

work is one of my top reasons to ctb. I actually like working but I hate politics and long hours. An ideal should be no more than 30-36 hours per week in a low stress environment

 

[demuic]

Everything revolves around money. Everything is too expensive. You have to pay someone just to be able to exist. It's a cruel world.

 

[ClownMe]

I hate any kid of work, it's so demeaning and it makes you feel like complete shit.

 

[SoDead]

For me it is the same. I was lucky to get a part-time job from home, I work even less then 20 hours per week and still it pays enough to support modest living. Still I quite often hate it and it is sometimes hard to force myself into doing it. The problem is that it is software development and tasks are complex, change often, sometimes it is hard to understand what to do or there is disagreement with others about what to do. It seems to me that eventually I will lose this job, will not find another one with tolerable conditions, and that will be the end.

 

[Darkover]

the matrix has you free yourself from mental slavery.

 

[FuneralCry]

Working is just being a slave to the society. We are forced to exist and we have all these pressures and expectations placed on us, it can send many people into despair. Life is just a pointless struggle until we eventually die. It is all very depressing.

 

[deflationary]

I can relate. There's a lot of very basic things about life that I just don't want to deal with. Working, studying, driving, responsibility of any kind, existing in public spaces, etc. I just don't want to be a part of this society, really. I can't exist comfortably within it.

And I relate to the shame that this kind of existence produces as well. For the longest time I didn't really feel shame, or not very strongly, but it's been catching up with me lately. All my other sources of self-worth are failing me, so I'm more vulnerable to it nowadays I guess.

I do work, but it's a shitty minimum wage job, and I think about quitting all the time. But quitting would mean that I'd eventually need to find a new one. Which is an even more horrifying thought than just simply showing up at the current place for another day.

 

[ncmxm]

Same, it's one of the reasons that make me consider ctbing

Most jobs are so stressful, the people there treat you like shit, the wages are shit and the jobs themselves are pointless

 

[JCcog]

I have a job where I don't do nothing 95% of the time (cushy night job). I still hate it

 

[Niirvana]

Same, we live to work and then we die, what is the meaning? I work in an office because I wouldn't know how to do anything else

 

[Sanva]

i genuinely don't know how people actually go to work 5 days a week, 8+ hours a day. it's insane, i mean there's literally no time for anything else, weekends are filled with chores. I think a 4 day week with 6 hours a day might be tolerable, but of course that means I'm a lazy fuck and i should just go suffer like everyone else does.

 

[Sunset Limited]

The whole world has become the playground of greedy people who think of nothing but more money under the name of "free market" policy. They expected everything to develop in a natural balance without a control mechanism. Thus, the entire global economy turned into a serengeti without an economic and scientific basis. Why should bosses care about income inequality? There is no institution that can discuss the effects of the increasing human population on the economy and the measures to be taken because of the free market :)

Yet is it all the fault of the greedy rich? When you swap a master with a slave, the result is mostly the same. This is us. The Internet is a very important invention. For the first time in human history, a global propaganda tool does not belong only to the system, but to the whole world. Social media is like a microphone presented to all humanity. What does humanity want? The way I see it, they don't want equality, social justice, freedom, a world where no one is poor. They only complain about wages, not being slaves. They just want more money, prestige and a good life for themselves. When they get what they want, they don't care and empathize with others. Everyone competes for a prestigious and well-paid job. So the losers will do the dirty work cheaply. Nobody cares about equality and social justice, just trying to be one of the masters, not a slave.

I mean, it's not just the fault of a greedy bunch of rich people. We are all the same. Man's mental evolution is much faster than his bodily evolution. Thus, we are animals who can think but are still essentially animals. The animal in us is always hungry, selfish and wild. We know what is right, but it contradicts our nature. There's a saying that I'm not sure who it belongs to. It could be Keynes. "One day humanity will be saved, but it will be evolution, not revolution". It's hard being a conscious being living with an animal inside of you. That's why the Perfect Matrix crashed. The will to equality is not yet in human nature. "we are the middle children of history" I hope we can evolve into Übermensch before we destroy ourselves.

 

[SuicidallyCurious]

I'm sort of interesting . there is a lot of work I like doing but for a long time I was a huge fan of starve the beast - contribute as little as possible to the global psychopaths who run the planet .

Eventually I more made peace with the idea of work, be independent so you aren't stuck paying stupid things like interest or buying useless goods which enrich the elite . And having cash in the bank gives you more bargaining power and let's you negotiate with how you interface with the global slavery system

Poverty is very profitable for the elite . Just read stories of how the US government lets fines for small infractions cascade , people arrested over BS like insurance violations etc

 

[Superdeterminist]

Agreed. Working could be ok depending in the job. But many jobs are miserable, it's HARD to find even a really unpleasant job (my undeniable experience time and again), and IMO, it's REALLY hard to find the will to work a low- or average-paying job when you see other people earning way more doing other things, sometimes doing things that don't even appear suitable to be called 'work'. Who wants to be outdone like that?

 

[Trattkantarellen198]

Maybe you could get some sort of wellfare for being sick? Lots of ppl in Sweden where I live, including me, have it :) And if I hadn't managed to fuck up my body so much, listened to it instead of going to school, work etc, I'd have a great time now. I get about 1500 euro 15 000 sek / month for doing nothing, hehe. But then, I was born very tired, even as a kid at 4 years old, i was super tired. So maybe it was inevitable anyway.

 

[NormaJeane]

The system is ungrateful with long working days and trips to and from work - it is similiar to slave labor so I can understand that you want to die.

 

[Ligottian]

Working for managers who are full blown sociopaths is part of the fun. Been there, done that, and have the scars to prove it.

 

[stilldreaming]

i genuinely don't know how people actually go to work 5 days a week, 8+ hours a day. it's insane, i mean there's literally no time for anything else, weekends are filled with chores. I think a 4 day week with 6 hours a day might be tolerable, but of course that means I'm a lazy fuck and i should just go suffer like everyone else does.

I have often said the same myself, 4 days and 6 hrs / day should be full-time. Though at the moment I can only tolerate very part-time. It's heartening that the 4 day workweek is getting more attention, though without UBI I don't think it'll ever properly work, just drive further a wedge between the "haves" and "have nots". In this case, those who can work a salaried job with benefits, otherwise for hourly / freelance / gig employees there will always be that pressure to grind as much as possible.

Saw yesterday a commercial for a new food service that deliverse fresh fruit/veg power bowls and stuff ("I don't have time to chop fruit and vegetables!") and it's just so depressing - so much more plastic waste being generated. The thing is, the planet can't afford such things anymore. Until society agrees tho that we have to spend a certain amount of time doing things the slow way, if only to save on the insane amount of waste being generated...........well that'll never happen will it sigh

 

[Oblivion]

Apart from my other mental issues, one of the issues is simply that I hate doing a job. It makes me miserable.

I dislike responsibility and I know that's abnormal and makes me dependent on living with my parents.

I don't want to be like this, but since I do not have any real substantial career interests in any field, I feel unhappy whenever I have to work in an office, or even from home for any kind of job.

I don't want to work, and I don't want to deal with the shame that brings me.

I would rather just die and get everything over with, I am completely fed up with everything.

Fuck, i swear i had to look at your name to make sure this wasn't me who posted this.
i'm in the same fucking position as you, and i fucking HATE expectations, expecting me to do a good work and deadlines, and then being questions why i didn't reach these expectations, and the fucking time i spend at work just waiting for the fucking time to finish so i can go back sulking at home, FUCK THIS!

i genuinely don't know how people actually go to work 5 days a week, 8+ hours a day. it's insane, i mean there's literally no time for anything else, weekends are filled with chores. I think a 4 day week with 6 hours a day might be tolerable, but of course that means I'm a lazy fuck and i should just go suffer like everyone else does.

I once worked 7 days a week 14 hours a day (7 am to 9 pm), yes no days off, and it was in carrying and unloading stuff, i was 15 and i lasted 3 weeks and i then i collapsed and quit.
Most jobs here are 9 to 5 or 8 to 4 and Saturdays till 1.
right now I'm in a 8:30 to 4 job 6 days a week and i'm completely devastated and wanna leave.

Maybe you could get some sort of wellfare for being sick? Lots of ppl in Sweden where I live, including me, have it :) And if I hadn't managed to fuck up my body so much, listened to it instead of going to school, work etc, I'd have a great time now. I get about 1500 euro 15 000 sek / month for doing nothing, hehe. But then, I was born very tired, even as a kid at 4 years old, i was super tired. So maybe it was inevitable anyway.

yes but wellfare means you get money barely for rent and food, that's not a life.

 

[noaccount]

Hi there - I feel this - I try to live frugally, save up, and not have qualms about petty crime, so that I'm less-dependent on work than I otherwise would be - but it still is a factor / pressure for sure. There's no shame in not wanting to sell your time to a boss, at all. It's been helpful for me also to visit places where people are living kind of off-grid, Slab City, van-dwellers' caravans and rendezvous, etc, learn from people living with little or no money, I don't want to give unsolicited advice but I recomend it to anyone who has the chance.

 

[g0921]

Is it only me that feel like my mind is on fire while stuck in workplace?
It was the same feeling when I was at school in younger age,
like I am in a wrong place, and that strong urge eating me up from inside?

 

[LoneMisery]

Im currently unemployed. I would want nothing more but to spend 8 to 10 hours a day at a non toxic work environment. I enjoy getting dirty and stepping back and seeing a job well done on top of being appreciated.

 

[noaccount]

Is it only me that feel like my mind is on fire while stuck in workplace?
It was the same feeling when I was at school in younger age,
like I am in a wrong place, and that strong urge eating me up from inside?

It is definitely not just you. It is something the Situationists spoke quite well to the experience of.

And some zines about it here.

https://www.prole.info/

Maybe helpful or at least entertaining? :)

How to actually enjoy your incredibly inane and stupid job now and then without becoming a brainwashed zombie

Greta Christina's 30 ways to improve your working life.

libcom.org

 

[LONE WOLF.]

Personally I would like a Manual Labour Job! I enjoy hard work!

 

[DeadMemes]

i genuinely don't know how people actually go to work 5 days a week, 8+ hours a day. it's insane, i mean there's literally no time for anything else, weekends are filled with chores. I think a 4 day week with 6 hours a day might be tolerable, but of course that means I'm a lazy fuck and i should just go suffer like everyone else does.

What's insane is that those same people generally see nothing wrong with that. You ask them and they just say 'that's life' or some shit. ????? why aren't you mad ?????

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

I also hate working of any kind. If I could, then I would simply stay at home all day watching tv or playing video games or browsing the internet. To me the only reason to work is in order to maintain doing those things but I know all too well that being deprived for even a few hours is not going to be something I can do. I'm the pathetic leech that anti-socialists or anti-communists will bring up as an example for why people shouldn't be getting free money, which is why I consider myself among them. I promise with every fiber of my being that as long as I am alive my only purpose will be to consume with reckless abandon until all the resources I can access are bled dry and if I work I will put in as little effort as possible and basically be the worst kind of employee, not always by choice but by design.

 

[noaccount]

I also hate working of any kind. If I could, then I would simply stay at home all day watching tv or playing video games or browsing the internet. To me the only reason to work is in order to maintain doing those things but I know all too well that being deprived for even a few hours is not going to be something I can do. I'm the pathetic leech that anti-socialists or anti-communists will bring up as an example for why people shouldn't be getting free money, which is why I consider myself among them. I promise with every fiber of my being that as long as I am alive my only purpose will be to consume with reckless abandon until all the resources I can access are bled dry and if I work I will put in as little effort as possible and basically be the worst kind of employee, not always by choice but by design.

That's... actually fine. And you can never, ever leech as much away from other people as any given landlord does. Like you as an individual living passively by subsistence is fine and not hurting anyone. You're not stealing, like, the majority of profit-value that anyone's labor produces... you know, the way every single "employer" does to their employees.

It's important not to have a work ethic because there's nothing ethical about work.