I want to CTB, but I feel like I’m missing something.

[purrpetrator]

I plan to CTB via opioid (fetty) overdose. I have completely given up on myself, and the future makes me feel nothing but dread. I am totally and utterly apathetic to everything now. I don't care what I'll miss.

I have always been a person that never leaves things unfinished or unsaid. However, I just can't seem to figure out what the problem is this time around. It feels like I am missing something - something extremely important. And it is stopping me from killing myself. I wrote my letter and everything, but something still seems to be amiss. Could it be that I don't actually want to let go? I just don't know.

 

[Le temps perdu]

If you decide to pause or need some extra time, there is absolutely nothing wrong with that. Whatever you choose, I hope your heart feels at peace.

 

[Front Back]

Well there it goes, don't CTB till you find them all