I want some help/tips

[Eefje-234]

Heyy

I want to end my life on a save way. I have no money and I can't buy anything because my parents watch me. Does someone no a way how I can end my life? (Sorry for my bad English)

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

Please see the list of methods in the Resources megathread at the top of the fees. Also search on this site "deadly plants," there are some ideas for plants that may be local but you will be responsible for doing your own research about them.

How old are you? Why do your parents watch you and have so much knowledge of what you do?

 

[Eefje-234]

Please see the list of methods in the Resources megathread at the top of the fees. Also search on this site "deadly plants," there are some ideas for plants that may be local but you will be responsible for doing your own research about them.

How old are you? Why do your parents watch you and have so much knowledge of what you do?

Thnx for the tip! I am 18 years old and my parents watch me because I have done in total 4 attempts with medications but al failed.

 

[Lost.]

do you on psych drugs? maybe it makes you suicidal if you are on them?

 

[Eefje-234]

do you on psych drugs? maybe it makes you suicidal if you are on them?

no not anymore.... I have ptsd and I can't handle the memory's of my history anymore so that is the reason why I want to make a end of my life

 

[Lost.]

:( i recomend psychotherapy for you, but i dont want bother with anything

 

[Eefje-234]

:( i recomend psychotherapy for you, but i dont want bother with anything

I have therapy but it doesn't work.. And I don't want to bother people with my problems anymore

 

[Quarky00]

Welcome to Sanctioned Suicide
PTSD is horrible and painful .
So are treatments and failed attempts ... could you tell more about those ?

You are not bothering us

 

[Lorntroubles]

Why do I always see "but I'm 18" thing over and over? If u are of age, u can do ur own research. We can only do the deed to our own bodies. Take ur time with a method ur comfortable with.

Peace.

 

[Eefje-234]

Welcome to Sanctioned Suicide
PTSD is horrible and painful .
So are treatments and failed attempts ... could you tell more about those ?

You are not bothering us

I was sexual abused for 4 years and the man who did that is now in jail in 2 months he will get free and I am so scared of that.... and I overdosed myself 4 times... 2 times I needed to stay in the hospital for one night. And another time I overdosed I almost died of a heart attack I don't no if you want to hear other things but you can ask me that anytime.
If I use some ketamine to numb myself and then cut my wrists will that work?

 

[Jessamine]

I was sexual abused for 4 years and the man who did that is now in jail in 2 months he will get free and I am so scared of that.... and I overdosed myself 4 times... 2 times I needed to stay in the hospital for one night. And another time I overdosed I almost died of a heart attack I don't no if you want to hear other things but you can ask me that anytime
If I use some ketamine to numb myself and then cut my wrists will that work?

You'd have to cut deep for it to work.. there is more info about that in the resources. It's not as easy as people think.

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

I was sexual abused for 4 years and the man who did that is now in jail in 2 months he will get free and I am so scared of that.... and I overdosed myself 4 times... 2 times I needed to stay in the hospital for one night. And another time I overdosed I almost died of a heart attack I don't no if you want to hear other things but you can ask me that anytime
If I use some ketamine to numb myself and then cut my wrists will that work?

You say were sexually abused, you say you're 18, and you just gave out your private contact info, so that someone can victimize you before the perp gets out of jail.

Either you are so severely traumatized that you don't have a clue what you're doing, in which case you need professional, trauma-informed help, or you are trolling. Honestly, this entire thread smells of fertilizer.

 

[Quarky00]

I have no idea what is kik , I cannot operate chats , and I it would be good if friends here will listen too
I am speechless for what you've been through .. I have no words . I'm sorry that vicious person is being released , it must be a continuous horror story for you , now made worse . I guess even if the abuser was dead you'd still want to ctb ? (Just hypothetical / exploring ) .

I'm sure everyone would like to hear more , although it is painful -- for you and for us I guess you have more issues , conditions , and distress other than that horrible abuse (as if that's not enough)..

I don't want to bother people with my problems anymore

I just hope that this is not a reason for you wanting to die . Feeling guilt or a burden .

Cutting wrists is usually a common form of self-harm that many practice (it has many reasons) , but it rarely kills . Do you self harm ?

Please share your story with members , here :)

 

[Jessamine]

I was sexual abused for 4 years and the man who did that is now in jail in 2 months he will get free and I am so scared of that.... and I overdosed myself 4 times... 2 times I needed to stay in the hospital for one night. And another time I overdosed I almost died of a heart attack I don't no if you want to hear other things but you can ask me that anytime
If I use some ketamine to numb myself and then cut my wrists will that work?

Yes I mean if you want to talk in private you can message people on here privately anyway. You don't have to use kik.

 

[Eefje-234]

You say were sexually abused, you say you're 18, and you just gave out your private contact info, so that someone can victimize you before the perp gets out of jail.

Either you are so severely traumatized that you don't have a clue what you're doing, in which case you need professional, trauma-informed help, or you are trolling. Honestly, this entire thread smells of fertilizer.

It is not my phone number so what will those people do? I can block them anyway... and now it looks like it is not true what i said?? That I will do it for attention? Sorry I wish it was not true and yes maby I need help but I have seen a lot of therapists and it won't work so why can I not just die??

 

[Quarky00]

It is not my phone number so what will those people do? I can block them anyway... and now it looks like it is not true what i said?? That I will do it for attention? Sorry I wish it was not true and yes maby I need help but I have seen a lot of therapists and it won't work so why can I not just die??

No one said you are doing this for attention But it is against our rules to give contact info like that .
But suicide discussion is taboo (usually forbidden) , and society thinks suicidal planning should be stopped , so we are sometimes over suspicious about new people .

 

[Eefje-234]

No one said you are doing this for attention But it is against our rules to give contact info like that .
But suicide discussion is taboo (usually forbidden) , and society thinks suicidal planning should be stopped , so we are sometimes over suspicious about new people . The same for this , for example :

It's very uncommon here to give personal contact info in public .
Remember these forums are 100% PUBLIC TO THE ENTIRE WORLD and anyone browsing can contact you . (threads are not private)

I'm sorry you received that attitude . I know that "doubting" people who have been abused is actually another TRAUMA . And painful

that is sweet of you But I still want a answer for my question and if there are people who want to help me.. help me please... but if you don't want to do that you have probably a reason for that.. you can say that you won't help me I will research anyway and find another way to do it...

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

It is not my phone number so what will those people do? I can block them anyway... and now it looks like it is not true what i said?? That I will do it for attention? Sorry I wish it was not true and yes maby I need help but I have seen a lot of therapists and it won't work so why can I not just die??

Look, you could be totally legit. I get how it hurts to not be believed. I also have seen a fair share of trolling on victim-focused sites like this one. Just last night in fact.

So here's what I'll do. So that you feel safe from me, I will ignore your posts and disengage. I will make no further comments here. I will never try to block you from receiving support.

 

[Quarky00]

I still want a answer for my question

You will not get an answer to "How to kill myself" .
You were given the rules - did you READ?
It's against the rules .


Telling someone how to ctb is wrong . I understand you are in severe distress , but saying "help me kill myself" is not the right place We are a community of people , not here to help to kill others .

 

[Eefje-234]

I have no idea what is kik , I cannot operate chats , and I it would be good if friends here will listen too
I am speechless for what you've been through .. I have no words . I'm sorry that vicious person is being released , it must be a continuous horror story for you , now made worse . I guess even if the abuser was dead you'd still want to ctb ? (Just hypothetical / exploring ) .

I'm sure everyone would like to hear more , although it is painful -- for you and for us I guess you have more issues , conditions , and distress other than that horrible abuse (as if that's not enough)..


I just hope that this is not a reason for you wanting to die . Feeling guilt or a burden .

Cutting wrists is usually a common form of self-harm that many practice (it has many reasons) , but it rarely kills . Do you self harm ?

Please share your story with members , here :)

first yep I self harm myself... and what happend to me is that I had I cousin I don't no if you now this but in the Netherlands there are lover boys..a explain of them are that they give you money, new clothes everything you want.. but they want something back they want sex with you...and for 4 years every week he visited me to have sex in my own sleeping room... "normal" lover boys wants you in the prostitution to make money.. so that was the difference with him he wanted me for his own.. and now a lot of therapy's later I still feel disgusting for what I did because it was my fault this was happened in the trial he said it to me right in my face she kissed me first and i though she was in love with me..

You will not get an answer to "How to kill myself" .
You were given the rules - did you READ?
It's against the rules .


Telling someone how to ctb is wrong . I understand you are in severe distress , but saying "help me kill myself" is not the right place We are a community of people , not here to help to kill others .

it is so true what you said but yeah I am hopeless and maby a good talk will help me get trough the night

 

[Quarky00]

it is so true what you said but yeah I am hopeless and maby a good talk will help me get trough the night

I'm sure that 'a good talk' will not solve problems , and a night is a lot to survive! ;) We are used to severe distress and pain here (sadly) -- many of use try to survive an hour by hour .. haha

normal" lover boys wants you in the prostitution to make money.. so that was the difference with him he wanted me for his own

So you were basically groomed. And then became a property of someone .

still feel disgusting for what I did because it was my fault this was happened in the trial he said it to me right in my face she kissed me first and i though she was in love with me..

That's AWFUL . He's a horrible creature . Even if you did , that does not make everything okay . Why do you think it was your fault (other than the kiss)? I understand you've been through both therapy (psychologist etc) and psychiatric treatment?