willitpass
Don’t try to offer me help, I’ve tried everything
- Mar 10, 2020
- 2,720
i don't know why but for probably 6 years now i WANT myself to suffer. not always in a suicidal way either. i want to give myself a serious infection that spreads to my whole body. i have tried to amputate limbs. i have starved myself, dehydrated myself, consumed excessive amounts of caffeine. extremely self destructive behavior. i think it started as a way to gain control and now i don't know why. i've done terrible things to myself that can cause awful pain just because i can. i know some of them have to potential to kill me but that isn't why i do them. i do them because i like suffering