Venting I want everything

[Klophy]

I want to be better...

I want to know what healthy relationships are like...

I want friends who I can laugh with, somebody I can love...

I want a childhood free from abuse a school life free from bullying...

I want to be smarter, to be able to learn things quicker. I hate hitting these mental roadblocks for things that other people easily accomplish, I want talent...

I want to be able to have more control over my own mind, no more execessive intrusive thoughts, no more unhealthy coping mechanisms...

I want confidence and self-esteem, I want the panic attacks to stop, I want to be able to meet and connect with people, I want to be able to walk outside freely...

I want to enjoy things, instead of having them just be a distraction from my thoughts. I want a direction/passion in life...

I want to look better or at least accept what stares back at me in the mirror....

I want financial stability...

I don't want to be me.

 

[FuneralCry]

It is understandable wanting a better life when you live a life that is filled with suffering. Life is just so unfair and disappointing and I'm sorry that you are stuck in this situation.

 

[Suicidebydeath]

Relatable OP, it's sad that to us it might seem like everything but to others that already have it, it's normal and "wanting everything" to them would be things we could consider superfluous to being alive and surviving.

 

[8evergo]

<I want financial stability...<

When you have money, you have bigger problems



your expenses are automatically large and have even more financial problems


<I want to be better...<

that's what you want for the rest of your life

 

[Againstthewind]

I feel you OP, I'm sorry you are feeling this way, sometimes it feels like torture.

 

[jitendrabagaria786@]

<I want financial stability...<

When you have money, you have bigger problems



your expenses are automatically large and have even more financial problems


<I want to be better...<

that's what you want for the rest of your life

This money thing is so fucking true,

 

[Suicidebydeath]

True but not always. Some people are ascetic, and the more money they have the larger their income as well. You can make money with money, it's harder to make it without.

 

[Klophy]

<I want financial stability...<

When you have money, you have bigger problems



your expenses are automatically large and have even more financial problems


<I want to be better...<

that's what you want for the rest of your life

I'll take the problems of having money over not having money. I don't even want to be rich, just stability. Not having to worry about financial woes for a day to day basis.

Yeah, I don't think i have it in me to achieve a state of content within my life.

 

[memoriesoflight]

This all seems possible, in time. Have you been working toward any of what you want in some way?

 

[Graham]

True but not always. Some people are ascetic, and the more money they have the larger their income as well. You can make money with money, it's harder to make it without.

Yeah... money isn't the solution to how people feel but can ease the day today of financial worries

Some people would be unhappy if they were billionaires and couldn't run out of money

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

This money thing is so fucking true,

Having a lot of money is a problem I'd like to have

 

[WhatPowerIs]

I want a childhood free from abuse a school life free from bullying...

This hit close and stuck out to me. How much of life is in our control, really? You can "stop" the bullying, sure, but nobody in the history of the world ever wanted to be bullied in the first place. So much of our childhood shapes who we become in the future. The time in our life where we have the least agency. It's just sad.

 

[jitendrabagaria786@]

Having a lot of money

Having a lot of money is a problem I'd like to have

I couldn't handle money well and now stuck in hellhole

 

[freevoid]

I feel you and I'm so sorry for your suffering. I can relate to most things on your list, just need to add a healthy body to mine. My heart goes out to you

 

[Forever Sleep]

I want to die... At least I know I'll get my wish at some point... One way or the other. Recently realised that this has probably been my most consistent wish.

I think we can all relate to your list though. Reckon we've all had things we wanted to change/strive for in our lives. I hope you do achieve at least some of your list and I hope the changes bring you happiness.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I can't relate to anything on the OPs list, as I just don't want anything anymore. Nothing. Except to no longer be here.