Venting I wanna commit suicide but there's a visitor at home

[DarkDg21]

I made the same thread earlier today but deleted it thinking it flopped and no one cared. Lmao.
I'll be more patient this time for replies lol.
So, to make it short. There's a guest in my house that's gonna stay longer than expected due to medical reasons.
I'm mentally prepared. I feel READY.
You guys know how hard it is to finally get to that state of mind. I
can't postpone my suicide anymore. It's never gonna happen if I don't do it this Tuesday.
Life is basically screwing me over one last time. I hate it.

 

[GasMonkey]

What's your method?

 

[DarkDg21]

What's your method?

Hanging

 

[leavingsoon99]

If that bothers you, then don't. Wait until you feel comfortable and ready.

 

[DarkDg21]

If that bothers you, then don't. Wait until you feel comfortable and ready.

Everyday feels like torture either way. I'm desperate.

 

[leavingsoon99]

Okay. What is your soul saying? What is your inner self saying? THAT's what you listen to. It's not a bad thing to not want to do it around other people. Don't beat yourself up.

 

[Little_Suzy]

I was thinking about responding, but I wasn't sure since my attitude on life is quite realistic, and many people love to smoke up their booty.

It is absolutely 100% your decision.

Now that you have a visitor, your mother will not be alone at home.

 

[DarkDg21]

I was thinking about responding, but I wasn't sure since my attitude on life is quite realistic, and many people love to smoke up their booty.

It is absolutely 100% your decision.

Now that you have a visitor, your mother will not be alone at home.

I was thinking the same thing. There's actually somethingpositive. My mom won't be alone when she finds me.

Okay. What is your soul saying? What is your inner self saying? THAT's what you listen to. It's not a bad thing to not want to do it around other people. Don't beat yourself up.

Thank you. I feel ashamed to be honest. But I don't give a F*ck anymore.

 

[FuneralCry]

To me hanging sounds risky if there are other people in the same building as they could potentially interfere and cause the attempt to fail, but of course when to ctb is up to you, it's really understandable just wishing to be free from all the suffering that this existence brings. I just hate how we exist in a world where there is so much secrecy involved in trying to die, I find it horrible how we cannot just peacefully pass away without complications, none of us should feel like we are forced to suffer. But anyway I hope that you find the freedom you are searching for.