I tried to CTB and it worked (partial hanging)

[warboy68forever]

before i tell you this know i am being 100% serious. I got a thick wire from a table fan and I made a slipknot which I then tied the other end to my closet, I had not written a note or said goodbye to anyone as I was just doing this to test if i was getting the carotid artery placement right (i know really fucking stupid) . I found the carotid srtery and pushed down and the knot tightened and i was out. It felt like i was having a really bad dream, everything was like it was grey like negative film and i saw things that i cannot explain. I then woke up kicking my feet clawing at my neck while screaming. My dog was barking really loud and I don't know if that's what caused me to "wake up" or if she was barking because I was screaming. When I get the knot off i felt dizzy as soon as I stood up and i dident know if i was alive or not. Now I am scared of CTBing. This happened 30 minutes ago so i dont know if my sentiment will change but ill keep you guys updated. Does anybody know if i did anything wrong? Is there a specific reason as to why i woke up? There is a red mark on my neck.

 

[kilobyte]

I had a similar experience when I tried partial

idk even know what happened.
For a minute, my vision was blurry, it was kind of felt like I was in a dream. I remember I was still kneeling, and I could see my closet, but in that state, I forgot that I hung myself. I heard ringing and gagging, the gagging probably was from me, and it felt and heard like I was in a hurricane. The best way to describe it is sleep paralysis. When I finally became fully conscious, I got up, and my throat was hurting a lot, and I realized that I hung myself, but failed.

Im gonna try again today

This was the response I got, but im sure that I went unconscious for sometime

Ok yer so you hadn't gone fully unconscious and somehow stood up during that stage. Hmm a hurting throat would almost suggest the ligature was slightly in the wrong place.

Sorry but I have to make this terrible joke too- This failure is why you're only a kilobyte and not a megabyte

 

[rozeske]

It's hard to say, what was your position like and in what position did you endup in when you woke up?

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Testing / Passing out comes with risks, don't try it too often. I'm sorry.

Best way to succeed partial hanging and overwin SI

Last week, I have been practicing different ways of doing partial hanging and will share which method has worked the best out of all. In order to succeed partial hanging, is to fully block the carotid arteries on both sides of your neck, around 80-90% of the blood flow in the blood vessels has...

sanctioned-suicide.net

 

[Justnotme]

To be honest, in all the videos I've watched, I've NEVER seen any screams or scratches. When you squeeze the carotid arteries, you still touch the larynx, and after that you can't speak or scream, because the larynx is also compressed. Even if the larynx is not compressed much..

I don't know what happened to you, I'm sorry.

 

[mortuarymary]

Please stop. It worked but it didn't. Stop trying to see if it does, because it will work and you're gone. Think about it carefully.

 

[throneofdispair03]

before i tell you this know i am being 100% serious. I got a thick wire from a table fan and I made a slipknot which I then tied the other end to my closet, I had not written a note or said goodbye to anyone as I was just doing this to test if i was getting the carotid artery placement right (i know really fucking stupid) . I found the carotid srtery and pushed down and the knot tightened and i was out. It felt like i was having a really bad dream, everything was like it was grey like negative film and i saw things that i cannot explain. I then woke up kicking my feet clawing at my neck while screaming. My dog was barking really loud and I don't know if that's what caused me to "wake up" or if she was barking because I was screaming. When I get the knot off i felt dizzy as soon as I stood up and i dident know if i was alive or not. Now I am scared of CTBing. This happened 30 minutes ago so i dont know if my sentiment will change but ill keep you guys updated. Does anybody know if i did anything wrong? Is there a specific reason as to why i woke up? There is a red mark on my neck.

I had a very similar experience. I woke up on the floor because my bowline was loose.

 

[lriayakaihar]

I've had 4 partials where I blacked out. It's the main reason I joined this website was to read similar experiences. They all feel like bad dreams where I'm very anxious and I know something is wrong and I'm trying to remember what it was. I doubt I'm out for very long, when I finally regain consciousness I'm still confused and not sure what's happening, and then I realize I'm choking. I panic, my SI instinct kicks in and I've been able to either swing my legs to the side enough to put some weight on a shelf or sink (depending on where I was), and let myself down. The last time I was hanging from a ratchet strap on a door next to my sink and I looked at my reflection after I got down and my lips were blue. I don't feel relief or regret. I don't feel much of anything. I do wonder how much brain damage I might be causing. I still have the strap up, I wish I had somewhere else to ctb besides my home though so my family doesn't have to see me. I've failed using CO twice and my truck just smells bad now.

 

[RichardFirst]

I don't think anyone should trail run partial hanging (or indeed, any method that can be "tested") unless they are fully prepared to CTB. There's a very real chance that you will succeed, so don't do it unless you're ready to go.

 

[warboy68forever]

I've had 4 partials where I blacked out. It's the main reason I joined this website was to read similar experiences. They all feel like bad dreams where I'm very anxious and I know something is wrong and I'm trying to remember what it was. I doubt I'm out for very long, when I finally regain consciousness I'm still confused and not sure what's happening, and then I realize I'm choking. I panic, my SI instinct kicks in and I've been able to either swing my legs to the side enough to put some weight on a shelf or sink (depending on where I was), and let myself down. The last time I was hanging from a ratchet strap on a door next to my sink and I looked at my reflection after I got down and my lips were blue. I don't feel relief or regret. I don't feel much of anything. I do wonder how much brain damage I might be causing. I still have the strap up, I wish I had somewhere else to ctb besides my home though so my family doesn't have to see me. I've failed using CO twice and my truck just smells bad now.

yeah man the exact same thing happened to me

To be honest, in all the videos I've watched, I've NEVER seen any screams or scratches. When you squeeze the carotid arteries, you still touch the larynx, and after that you can't speak or scream, because the larynx is also compressed. Even if the larynx is not compressed much..

I don't know what happened to you, I'm sorry.

Yeah I probably should've been more specific, I woke up in a panic so I don't remember much but I was making some type of noise. They weren't screams but I was trying to I think.

I had a very similar experience. I woke up on the floor because my bowline was loose.

hi im sorry but what is a bowline?

Testing / Passing out comes with risks, don't try it too often. I'm sorry.

Best way to succeed partial hanging and overwin SI

Last week, I have been practicing different ways of doing partial hanging and will share which method has worked the best out of all. In order to succeed partial hanging, is to fully block the carotid arteries on both sides of your neck, around 80-90% of the blood flow in the blood vessels has...

sanctioned-suicide.net

yeah it was risky and dumb of me to do that, next time I'll ready.

I don't think anyone should trail run partial hanging (or indeed, any method that can be "tested") unless they are fully prepared to CTB. There's a very real chance that you will succeed, so don't do it unless you're ready to go.

It's hard to say, what was your position like and in what position did you endup in when you woke up?

It's hard to say, what was your position like and in what position did you endup in when you woke up?

So it's a little hard to explain do I drew it
This is the initial position I tried to do it in when I passed out


After pushing my head down in this position I passed out and then awoke kicking and clawing at my neck to remove the ligature in this position
Sorry if these drawing are bad and crude I don't really know how to explain it in words but I hope this helps visualize it.

 

[cosmic_traveler]

before i tell you this know i am being 100% serious. I got a thick wire from a table fan and I made a slipknot which I then tied the other end to my closet, I had not written a note or said goodbye to anyone as I was just doing this to test if i was getting the carotid artery placement right (i know really fucking stupid) . I found the carotid srtery and pushed down and the knot tightened and i was out. It felt like i was having a really bad dream, everything was like it was grey like negative film and i saw things that i cannot explain. I then woke up kicking my feet clawing at my neck while screaming. My dog was barking really loud and I don't know if that's what caused me to "wake up" or if she was barking because I was screaming. When I get the knot off i felt dizzy as soon as I stood up and i dident know if i was alive or not. Now I am scared of CTBing. This happened 30 minutes ago so i dont know if my sentiment will change but ill keep you guys updated. Does anybody know if i did anything wrong? Is there a specific reason as to why i woke up? There is a red mark on my neck.

We tried partial for over 2 hours blacking out several times in the process but never fully succeeding. I think our main problem was the ligature wasn't low enough. It should have been more below our goiter, not above. Be careful using wire as it's easier develop a dispersion in your veins if you're unsuccessful. We wish you peace. Big hugs. Be well on your journey.

 

[Intoxicated]

Effect of Oxygen
The brain has a very high metabolic demand for oxygen compared to other organs, and thus, it is not surprising that acute hypoxia is a potent dilator in the cerebral circulation that produces marked increases in cerebral blood flow [163]. In general, blood flow does not change in the brain until tissue Po2​ falls below ~50 mmHg, below which cerebral blood flow increases substantially [163]. As hypoxia decreases Po2​ further, cerebral blood flow can rise up to 400% of resting levels [164]. Increases in cerebral blood flow do not change metabolism, but hemoglobin saturation falls from ~100% at Po2​ >70 mmHg to ~50% at Po2​ <50 mmHg [164]. Acute hypoxia causes an increase in cerebral blood flow via direct effects on vascular cells of cerebral arteries and arterioles. Hypoxia-induced drop in ATP levels opens KATP​ channels on smooth muscle, causing hyperpolarization and vasodilation [165]. In addition, hypoxia rapidly increases nitric oxide and adenosine production locally, also promoting vasodilation [166]. Chronic hypoxia increases cerebral blood flow through an effect on capillary density [16–19] (see Microcirculation and Neurovascular Unit).

Effect of Carbon Dioxide
Carbon dioxide (CO2​) has a profound and reversible effect on cerebral blood flow, such that hypercapnia causes marked dilation of cerebral arteries and arterioles and increased blood flow, whereas hypocapnia causes constriction and decreased blood flow [167,168]. The potent vasodilator effect of CO2​ is demonstrated by the finding that in humans 5% CO2​ inhalation causes an increase in cerebral blood flow by 50% and 7% CO2​ inhalation causes a 100% increase in cerebral blood flow [168]. Although several mechanisms involved in hypercapnic vasodilation have been proposed, the major mechanism appears to be related to a direct effect of extracellular H+​ on vascular smooth muscle [169]. This is supported by findings that neither bicarbonate ion nor changes in Pco2​ alone affect cerebral artery diameter [170]. Other proposed mechanisms involved in the response to changes in Pco2​ include vasodilator prostanoids and nitric oxide; however, the involvement of these mediators appears to be species-specific [171,172].

Control of Cerebral Blood Flow - The Cerebral Circulation - NCBI Bookshelf

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Maybe this explains how waking up is possible if the carotid arteries are not compressed good enough.

 

[4.I.2.Must.Die]

yeah man the exact same thing happened to me

Yeah I probably should've been more specific, I woke up in a panic so I don't remember much but I was making some type of noise. They weren't screams but I was trying to I think.

hi im sorry but what is a bowline?

yeah it was risky and dumb of me to do that, next time I'll ready.



So it's a little hard to explain do I drew it
This is the initial position I tried to do it in when I passed out
View attachment 127596

After pushing my head down in this position I passed out and then awoke kicking and clawing at my neck to remove the ligature in this positionView attachment 127597
Sorry if these drawing are bad and crude I don't really know how to explain it in words but I hope this helps visualize it.

So to clarify you were in a standing position leaning forwards and woke up in a semi-seated position?
If so then my educated guess would be that when you stopped maintaining the upward position the pressure on the noose reduced and you slowly came to. You need to be in a position that can be fairly well maintained after you pass out or that allows you to move into other positions where pressure is still being applied in the right place.
A bowline is a knot that can be used at the anchor point.

We tried partial for over 2 hours blacking out several times in the process but never fully succeeding. I think our main problem was the ligature wasn't low enough. It should have been more below our goiter, not above. Be careful using wire as it's easier develop a dispersion in your veins if you're unsuccessful. We wish you peace. Big hugs. Be well on your journey.

O great and wise traveller you should speak to @Rhizomorph1 the Buddha, you may have interesting conversations. Out of curiosity when you refer to yourself as 'we' is this the same as 'they' when someone is non-binary or for other reasons.

I don't think anyone should trail run partial hanging (or indeed, any method that can be "tested") unless they are fully prepared to CTB. There's a very real chance that you will succeed, so don't do it unless you're ready to go.

A real chance, I wish, too often you try and try and get fuck all

I've had 4 partials where I blacked out. It's the main reason I joined this website was to read similar experiences. They all feel like bad dreams where I'm very anxious and I know something is wrong and I'm trying to remember what it was. I doubt I'm out for very long, when I finally regain consciousness I'm still confused and not sure what's happening, and then I realize I'm choking. I panic, my SI instinct kicks in and I've been able to either swing my legs to the side enough to put some weight on a shelf or sink (depending on where I was), and let myself down. The last time I was hanging from a ratchet strap on a door next to my sink and I looked at my reflection after I got down and my lips were blue. I don't feel relief or regret. I don't feel much of anything. I do wonder how much brain damage I might be causing. I still have the strap up, I wish I had somewhere else to ctb besides my home though so my family doesn't have to see me. I've failed using CO twice and my truck just smells bad now.

Are you talking about full or partial suspension? Oh wait never mind. Why do you think these haven't worked?

Please stop. It worked but it didn't. Stop trying to see if it does, because it will work and you're gone. Think about it carefully.

If we're lucky enough to die we're very very happy. Most don't even pass out.

 

[lriayakaihar]

Are you talking about full or partial suspension? Oh wait never mind. Why do you think these haven't worked?

I guess they started as partial hangings because I've tried many times by applying pressure, but I can't get past the pain of feeling like my head is about to explode. I've tried the night-night method a few times too but don't think I'm applying pressure correctly. Eventually, I just got fed up with how many days in a row I wasted failing, so the few times I blacked out it started as a partial but then I changed the height to just kick out whatever I was standing on, so I guess it was actually a full suspension. I'm not sure how I regained consciousness or why survived multiple blackouts. Seems like adrenaline from SI.

 

[textmewhenyourehome]

I know this is the last place to be saying this, but that sounds pretty scary and I hope you're okay :(

 

[MiMif]

before i tell you this know i am being 100% serious. I got a thick wire from a table fan and I made a slipknot which I then tied the other end to my closet, I had not written a note or said goodbye to anyone as I was just doing this to test if i was getting the carotid artery placement right (i need know really fucking stupid) . I found the carotid srtery and pushed down and the knot tightened and i was out. It felt like i was having a really bad dream, everything was like it was grey like negative film and i saw things that i cannot explain. I then woke up kicking my feet clawing at my neck while screaming. My dog was barking really loud and I don't know if that's what caused me to "wake up" or if she was barking because I was screaming. When I get the knot off i felt dizzy as soon as I stood up and i dident know if i was alive or not. Now I am scared of CTBing. This happened 30 minutes ago so i dont know if my sentiment will change but ill keep you guys updated. Does anybody know if i did anything wrong? Is there a specific reason as to why i woke up? There is a red mark on my neck.

I mean I'm not answering your question but this made me smile...I really wanna try this now. Kudos to you for trying but if your scared of ctbong now it's fine to hold off on it...dont make a permanent choice your not sure about. Hope you find peace in whatever way you see fit

yeah man the exact same thing happened to me

Yeah I probably should've been more specific, I woke up in a panic so I don't remember much but I was making some type of noise. They weren't screams but I was trying to I think.

hi im sorry but what is a bowline?

yeah it was risky and dumb of me to do that, next time I'll ready.



So it's a little hard to explain do I drew it
This is the initial position I tried to do it in when I passed out
View attachment 127596

After pushing my head down in this position I passed out and then awoke kicking and clawing at my neck to remove the ligature in this positionView attachment 127597
Sorry if these drawing are bad and crude I don't really know how to explain it in words but I hope this helps visualize it.

Thanks for this

 

[4.I.2.Must.Die]

I guess they started as partial hangings because I've tried many times by applying pressure, but I can't get past the pain of feeling like my head is about to explode. I've tried the night-night method a few times too but don't think I'm applying pressure correctly. Eventually, I just got fed up with how many days in a row I wasted failing, so the few times I blacked out it started as a partial but then I changed the height to just kick out whatever I was standing on, so I guess it was actually a full suspension. I'm not sure how I regained consciousness or why survived multiple blackouts. Seems like adrenaline from SI.

When you turned it into full suspension how bearable was the increased pressure?