I tried partial just now

[ForestLove]

should you drink alcohol when doing hanging?

I didn't drink alcohol for this instance. Do u all think I should?

 

[ForestLove]

It's tough to do. Made several attempts and only once blacked out.

Previously I also have difficulties but only after I tied a slipknot, things become different.

 

[Mljonzy]

I tried partial just now. My vision was starting to black out and I stood up. I released the noose. I cried. I don't want to die yet I don't want to live. Once gone, means gone forever. But living is suffering..

i tried it in my car with a belt a few months ago not a serious attempt but i was feeling very suicidal and wanted to see if i could just do it. It's fucking hard to let yourself go no matter how bad the pain is. Then i think about the alternative which is life and it just encourages me to keep trying. Jumping is starting to become appealing for me even though it is scary because if i can just leap off something high then everything will be over and i can't take it back. I feel your pain.

 

[bigj75]

I didn't drink alcohol for this instance. Do u all think I should?

well people are saying it reduces the reaction to discomfort. i still think I'll do a practice run sober and then do it with alcohol.

 

[ForestLove]

i tried it in my car with a belt a few months ago not a serious attempt but i was feeling very suicidal and wanted to see if i could just do it. It's fucking hard to let yourself go no matter how bad the pain is. Then i think about the alternative which is life and it just encourages me to keep trying. Jumping is starting to become appealing for me even though it is scary because if i can just leap off something high then everything will be over and i can't take it back. I feel your pain.

Thanks for sharing your experience. Are you getting better at Living Life now or you still have thoughts?

 

[Mljonzy]

Thanks for sharing your experience. Are you getting better at Living Life now or you still have thoughts?

I'm just done with life i feel worse than ever and can honestly say that i don't think i have ever been happy at any age. Even as a kid everything was just numb and pointless to me. Suicide is my way out of this and there is nothing left here for me to do or look forward to my parents care about me as do a few true friends but it's not enough to keep me here. This will sound cold but i won't feel guilty about hurting anyone by suicide i just had enough and want to get this shit over with. Might buy some rope at tesco after work tommorrow and try again in my car. Partial is easily accessible for me it's either jumping or partial for me. What is it that brings you here if you don't mind me asking.

 

[ForestLove]

I'm just done with life i feel worse than ever and can honestly say that i don't think i have ever been happy at any age. Even as a kid everything was just numb and pointless to me. Suicide is my way out of this and there is nothing left here for me to do or look forward to my parents care about me as do a few true friends but it's not enough to keep me here. This will sound cold but i won't feel guilty about hurting anyone by suicide i just had enough and want to get this shit over with. Might buy some rope at tesco after work tommorrow and try again in my car. Partial is easily accessible for me it's either jumping or partial for me. What is it that brings you here if you don't mind me asking.

Thanks for sharing your story. For me, something had happened to me and it changed my Life forever. I hate myself and cannot forgive myself. I never thought I would ever come to this. Sadly, this is Life..

 

[Trashcan]

Hanging is hard to do and the survival instinct is a bitch. It's okay to be scared. Many people on here back out of partial suspension for that reason.

Some people have mentioned people accidentally killing themselves with this method (such as autoeretic asphyxiation). It's so much easier to die from this by accident and not knowing what to expect because if you don't think you're dying, your survival instinct won't kick in.

 

[starcrossedfate]

All I feel is extreme pressure in my head like I'm gonna stroke

Yeah, that means you're hitting your jugular instead of your carotid. Happens to me a lot.

 

[BlackDragonof1989]

Oh you poor thing *hugs you warmly*

 

[Mljonzy]

Thanks for sharing your story. For me, something had happened to me and it changed my Life forever. I hate myself and cannot forgive myself. I never thought I would ever come to this. Sadly, this is Life..

Thanks for sharing yours too. I also never thought suicide would become a reality when i was younger it's messed up but just thinking no matter what happens we will all get the hell out of this disgusting world whether it is 100 years from now or suicide. None of us hate you here we are all one big fucked up family.

 

[ForestLove]

Thanks for sharing yours too. I also never thought suicide would become a reality when i was younger it's messed up but just thinking no matter what happens we will all get the hell out of this disgusting world whether it is 100 years from now or suicide. None of us hate you here we are all one big fucked up family.

I hope everyone here will find peace in another way or so. Who doesn't want to be free and happy forever? May peace be with you all.

 

[ForestLove]

I havesome Clonazepam and alcohol with me. Should I try taking both before I turn to the noose?

 

[Roph]

It's okay. There's nothing wrong with being scared. When/if you're ready, you can always try again.... but there's no rush.