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luna674

Student
May 1, 2026
118
I'm so much pain I might call the help plz respond I need advice I don't want to be put in a hospital
 
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fluorescentpearl

fluorescentpearl

Siin me kohtume siis, See on ju armastus hüperbolo
Jul 19, 2026
546
What did you take a sip of??
 
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luna674

Student
May 1, 2026
118
I puked
I feel a bit better now but my nails are blue
Will this go away ?
Where you getting the pain, and what type of pain
Headache dizzy heat nausea I puked
 
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hdead

Mage
Jun 2, 2026
504
I puked
I feel a bit better now but my nails are blue
Will this go away ?

Headache dizzy heat
You're getting all the classic SN symptoms. It would be best to call for medical assistance if you want to help yourself, since small amounts of SN can definitely be lethal if left untreated - thought it might take a pretty long time. The blue nails are showing that you are becoming hypoxic (i.e. low oxygen in the blood). You need methylene blue ASAP. Please call 911 or whatever emergency number you need to call and get an ambulance in.
 
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luna674

Student
May 1, 2026
118
I actually want to die though this isn't a mistake I'm just a coward
 
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hdead

Mage
Jun 2, 2026
504
I actually want to die though this isn't a mistake I'm just a coward
I don't know what to tell you. You're going through it right now and I'm sorry you're having to suffer so much - but taking only small amounts of it would result in these symptoms. I assume you've done your research. I can imagine this being very scary and lonely and I wish there was something I could say or do to help you through it, but there's simply not..
 
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luna674

Student
May 1, 2026
118
You're getting all the classic SN symptoms. It would be best to call for medical assistance if you want to help yourself, since small amounts of SN can definitely be lethal if left untreated - thought it might take a pretty long time. The blue nails are showing that you are becoming hypoxic (i.e. low oxygen in the blood). You need methylene blue ASAP. Please call 911 or whatever emergency number you need to call and get an ambulance in.
Will this kill me or just injure me
 
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hdead

Mage
Jun 2, 2026
504
Will this kill me or just injure me
I can't say for sure, sadly. How much in grams did you think you ingested? It's been multiple hours now seeing your last post was at 12:51PM (my time), so that's four hours ago.
 
fluorescentpearl

fluorescentpearl

Siin me kohtume siis, See on ju armastus hüperbolo
Jul 19, 2026
546
If you don't think you can drink the whole thing you have to get medical attention you'll only risk injury and even on the off chance you die it'd take very long since we don't know how much you ingested : (
 
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hdead

Mage
Jun 2, 2026
504
I took a sip
25 grams
If only a sip you didn't ingest anywhere near the 25 grams. Please seek medical attention. Don't be ashamed of what's going on! At this rate you're likely to just be doing damage to yourself and coming out worse off.
 
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luna674

Student
May 1, 2026
118
I called I'm so mad at myself I always fuck my life up
I can't even ctb successfully
 
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Estrella87

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Jul 27, 2026
69
luna674 we also spoke in pm, you don't see my messages as you look more here I believe but plz, as everybody says, if you really feel the symptoms you say, specially the blue nails, go hospital now. Otherwise or you will have a very slow death, or, more probably, you will stay with permanent health problems. There is many posts about this, SN is all or nothing, otherwise it goes very bad.
 
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luna674

Student
May 1, 2026
118
EMT is on its way if I make it never again will I play with sodium nitrite
 
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hdead

Mage
Jun 2, 2026
504
I called I'm so mad at myself I always fuck my life up
I can't even ctb successfully
If it means anything please don't be mad at yourself. This is not something that is easy to do, I would even argue that it's probably the hardest thing one can do in a lifetime. I'm glad you called for help. Please take care of yourself, this is hard enough as it is.
 
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luna674

Student
May 1, 2026
118
don't even try that shit seriously 😒 I really have beef with sn now
 
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greatfalls

Member
Aug 1, 2026
11
take a breath and get to a place the paramedics can easily get to you if you feel like you can safely walk. Just keep chatting here until they arrive.
 
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peacebenow

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Apr 26, 2026
595
glad EMT is coming. for now all you have to do is have medical care take care of and look after you while your body recovers.
 
Aflame5926

Aflame5926

le tired
Apr 3, 2026
846
oh damn.

looking at the time stamps she should be either waiting or already picked up.
with all the shitty things that might follow up. just go with the flow man and let it be

big hugs
 
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Penelope12

Student
May 2, 2026
159
I find It absurd To take SN and call for help. Shouldn't One wait for death?
 
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fluorescentpearl

fluorescentpearl

Siin me kohtume siis, See on ju armastus hüperbolo
Jul 19, 2026
546
I find It absurd To take SN and call for help. Shouldn't One wait for death?
What's absurd is you shaming someone for calling for help, she did not ingest enough and would've only gotten hurt instead of dying, besides that dying is the scariest last front of anyone's life and it is natural to be afraid and anxious and even freak out during it or after it..
 
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lastappleonearth

Пиздюк
Jun 11, 2026
136
I find It absurd To take SN and call for help. Shouldn't One wait for death?
It's not absurd, it's only natural. Death is scary and calling for help in such a situation is 100% valid
 
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