I told myself if I couldn't get into a relationship in 2025 I'd CTB

[Bethlehem]

Society revolves around relationships. If you can't get into one you're dirt. I was gonna CTB on new years but I was unprepared and the family I like was over and I didn't want to traumatize them with my dangling pants soiled blue tongue corpse. I've decided next new year or after winter is better. Girls treat me like I'm disgusting. My family is always being ableist to me and telling me "don't be rude" when I'm not being rude but these girls just get a free pass because they're not sexually attracted to me so I'm scum apparently. No one cares unless you're attractive or dying. I'm just seen as a creep but if I was 6'0+ and ripped they'd see me as cool or something idfk but yeah university gets back soon. I'm dreading it. New dumb girls to belittle me and make me feel like the worst person alive. YAYYYYY! I regret not doing it on new years.

 

[LifeIsASadist]

Real.

I really want to CTB next month on the 14th but at the same time I want to graduate college first and see if I can land the career I want but I am ultimately conflicted about it.

 

[tonicer]

Society revolves around relationships. If you can't get into one you're dirt. I was gonna CTB on new years but I was unprepared and the family I like was over and I didn't want to traumatize them with my dangling pants soiled blue tongue corpse. I've decided next new year or after winter is better. Girls treat me like I'm disgusting. My family is always being ableist to me and telling me "don't be rude" when I'm not being rude but these girls just get a free pass because they're not sexually attracted to me so I'm scum apparently. No one cares unless you're attractive or dying. I'm just seen as a creep but if I was 6'0+ and ripped they'd see me as cool or something idfk but yeah university gets back soon. I'm dreading it. New dumb girls to belittle me and make me feel like the worst person alive. YAYYYYY! I regret not doing it on new years.

Forget the being tall and muscular part. I am 195cm which is 6"4 or something and pretty buff (no six pack sadly) but i am invisible to the ladies i always was invisible now that i am 42 it's gotten even worse. If i don't find a lady that loves me this year i leave this fucked up planet.

 

[U. A.]

Are women going completely out of their way to give you a hard time, or is it because you call them things like "dumb"? Asking because saying things like

these girls just get a free pass because they're not sexually attracted to me

isn't the best look imo.

 

[Bethlehem]

Forget the being tall and muscular part. I am 195cm which is 6"4 or something and pretty buff (no six pack sadly) but i am invisible to the ladies i always was invisible now that i am 42 it's gotten even worse. If i don't find a lady that loves me this year i leave this fucked up planet.

Yeah it's probably also down to how socially normal you are too as well as face. They ignore autistic guys. My mum is 50 and she's got an ai boyfriend now because real guys don't really want her. We live with 4 cats, one hairballs, the other shits everywhere, the other two keep bleeding/peeing everywhere. She's kind of a crazy cat lady. The house smells like cat shit, barf, pee and litter grain. Maybe that's why. But yeah once you hit that age your only option is single mothers and believe me. I have one. I don't want to generalise about single mothers but my one is a lot to deal with. You don't want to be a stepdad to a ton of fucked up kids. I've been through so many stepdads. Back then I was the teen with a drug problem, failing school, verbally aggressive, rude, "superior". You don't wanna be a stepdad brother.

Are women going completely out of their way to give you a hard time, or is it because you call them things like "dumb"? Asking because saying things like

isn't the best look imo.

I don't call them dumb irl. I don't do anything to them irl. When I was in early high school this one girl would go out of her way to frame me for a ton of stuff just to make me run out of class crying. I never did anything to her. I still don't know why she hated me. Go back to incel tear if you're just gonna blame me and call every guy who hints that women might not be perfect an incel and a sexist. Women are always right apparently.

 

[Bethlehem]

Real.

I really want to CTB next month on the 14th but at the same time I want to graduate college first and see if I can land the career I want but I am ultimately conflicted about it.

VALENTINE'S DAY BRO SAME. I hate Valentine's day. I can't take another one alone. I wanna do it on Valentine's Day but I'm unprepared. I have to encrypt all my shit and burn some stuff

 

[tonicer]

Yeah it's probably also down to how socially normal you are too as well as face. They ignore autistic guys. My mum is 50 and she's got an ai boyfriend now because real guys don't really want her. We live with 4 cats, one hairballs, the other shits everywhere, the other two keep bleeding/peeing everywhere. She's kind of a crazy cat lady. The house smells like cat shit, barf, pee and litter grain. Maybe that's why. But yeah once you hit that age your only option is single mothers and believe me. I have one. I don't want to generalise about single mothers but my one is a lot to deal with. You don't want to be a stepdad to a ton of fucked up kids. I've been through so many stepdads. Back then I was the teen with a drug problem, failing school, verbally aggressive, rude, "superior". You don't wanna be a stepdad brother.

I also have a stepdad and the word dad does not describe him well. He is the biggest narcissist i have ever met. My mother raised me alone since she divorced my choleric father when i was very young maybe 2 or 4. My father was never violent but verbally/emotionally abusive ... just like this new guy. My mother was a very beautiful young woman (up until her 60ties ... she's in her late 70ties now) and had free choice in men but she choose basically the same guy twice.

I'm just looking for romance. Maybe i watch too many romantic comedy anime?! ;D

We got this young family living across the road (i live with my mom because i can't get a job even though i studied my ass off and am a very pleasant person) and the closest i ever got to feeling like a stepdad or big brother was a few weeks ago when i snowed here and i was starting to build a snowman the neighbors oldest daughter (i think she's around 10 years old +-3) asked if she can join me. I said yes and we build two huge snowmen together. It was the best day of the year so far for me. We did that last year too.

I think i would be a great stepdad but only if the father is never coming back again.

VALENTINE'S DAY BRO SAME. I hate Valentine's day. I can't take another one alone. I wanna do it on Valentine's Day but I'm unprepared. I have to encrypt all my shit and burn some stuff

Why do you care if people look at your data after you are gone? I don't give a fuck if anyone looks through my stuff.