FoxInWaiting

FoxInWaiting

I want out!
May 27, 2023
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So I've been dealing with a few rotted teeth, it's gotten to a point where the nerves are infected and it's giving me migraines. My dad has finally found an oral surgeon that will remove them, but that's besides the point.

Anyway, the pain was so great last night that I went into shock.

I confused this for my body going septic. A tooth infection, if left alone for to long, can go to your brain. I've left these cavities wide open for about 3 years now, maybe even longer. I thought at this point it mite be to late.
I starting shaking, my heart was racing then went back down, my temperature went to 91 F and I was entering early hypothermia.

As I was making my way to the hospital, they had me in a bed at the ER, I was laying there nearly passing out several times.
Knowing how long I've let these few teeth rot, that it could potentially spread upwards to my brain, and what I thought in the moment was sepsis, I thought that was it.

I genuinely thought I was going to die.

And there was this wave of shock and sadness I felt at first, like the instinctual "Oh my god I mite die" feeling of course, but after about a minute of that, it shifted to nothing but acceptance.

I oddly felt comfortable knowing that I could pass out at any moment, the hypothermia would take over and that'd be it.

I was completely ok with it.

Despite what happened, I didnt pass out though. My body, after a few hours, regained normal temperature, my migraines are finally starting to improve tonight, and I'm back in the place I live.

It wasen't sepsis, it was shock from the pain, the infection is only in my few teeth, a cat scan showed.

Honestly, me not attending to my cavities early on, it was apart of the plan. If I wait on it long enough, it'll kill me.............I just didn't know it'd be this god damn painful. I know the nerves in your teeth will die if they rot, but not the gums or surrounding nerves, so you'll feel the infection through your whole face if it gets to bad.

Stupid me

Anyway, gonna get these teeth removed within a week hopefully. Got some stronger pain meds in the mean time.

Still got my gun, still waiting for what'll feel like the right time to do it.

But I'm not against the world doing it for me.
 
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DesperateOne

DesperateOne

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May 25, 2023
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What a story... It gives me comfort that almost all of the people who go through the "almost died" phase experience incredible comfort and peace right there in the very end. I think it will be like this for me as well once I get past my SI. First an incredible amount of panic and terror then that will gradually transition to peace. Glad you are alright now, tooth/root pain is the absolute worst feeling in the world.
 
mortuarymary

mortuarymary

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Jan 17, 2024
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Toothache is the worst pain you can have. I really feel for you. Hugs x
 
FoxInWaiting

FoxInWaiting

I want out!
May 27, 2023
49
I gained a powerful tool from this experience. I no longer fear death, I know that when I think it'll happen, I'll be comfortable with it.

Now I DO fear pain, don't get me wrong. Everyone does and always will fear pain, but death, I truly don't fear it now.
 
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