I think tonight will be the night I catch the bus...

[Catching_the_bus]

Wow... I didn't expect to make this post so soon but here we are... I will be Ctbing tonight with SN from CCS... I'm super nervous but with everything going on Ctb is the only remedy to this awful existence ... I have only been a member on this forum for a few days but you have all made me feel welcome and understood and I thank you for that! I didn't expect to be leaving you all so soon! My plan is to drink the SN at around 9pm Eastern Standard Time... I would appreciate any and all support and positive words as I prepare to take the trip to the other side I will keep you all updated as much as I can... I am just hoping I can fight the SI

 

[Darkover]

i am sorry your life has lead you to this point in time i hope you can find peace and freedom

 

[Catching_the_bus]

i am sorry your life has lead you to this point in time i hope you can find peace and freedom

Thank you Darkover! I appreciate it

 

[DreamEnd]

Good luck. Keep us posted if you feel like it

 

[Catching_the_bus]

Good luck. Keep us posted if you feel like it

My plan is to keep you all updated through the whole process... Until I pass out of course!

 

[HopelessAngel]

Safe travels, friend.

 

[DreamEnd]

My plan is to keep you all updated through the whole process... Until I pass out of course!

That's good. Thank you for doing that. I have sn from IC but worried about their quality. Might try to get ccs and mix them

 

[jessisme]

My SN is from CCS too so I will read your posts with interest. You are brave to take these measures toward being able to relinquish that which troubles you and we are here for you in this process. Just let us know how we can be of best support. What is your regimen?

 

[Catching_the_bus]

Gl what is your regimen

I have been fasting for the past 12 hours, I was unable to get any of the preferred antiemetics but I do have zofran. I will be taking a large dose of that 40mins before SN followed by ibuprofen (600mg) and I have 5 10mg diazepam that I will be taking about 20 mins before SN

 

[burningbin]

Wow... I didn't expect to make this post so soon but here we are... I will be Ctbing tonight with SN from CCS... I'm super nervous but with everything going on Ctb is the only remedy to this awful existence ... I have only been a member on this forum for a few days but you have all made me feel welcome and understood and I thank you for that! I didn't expect to be leaving you all so soon! My plan is to drink the SN at around 9pm Eastern Standard Time... I would appreciate any and all support and positive words as I prepare to take the trip to the other side I will keep you all updated as much as I can... I am just hoping I can fight the SI

have you thought it through enough? Because making the wrong choice is alot worse than delaying the right one. Just make sure you are fully 100% sure.

 

[stilhavinightmares]

Wow... I didn't expect to make this post so soon but here we are... I will be Ctbing tonight with SN from CCS... I'm super nervous but with everything going on Ctb is the only remedy to this awful existence ... I have only been a member on this forum for a few days but you have all made me feel welcome and understood and I thank you for that! I didn't expect to be leaving you all so soon! My plan is to drink the SN at around 9pm Eastern Standard Time... I would appreciate any and all support and positive words as I prepare to take the trip to the other side I will keep you all updated as much as I can... I am just hoping I can fight the SI

Hi love. I am also planning on CTBing with SN from CCS tonight. I booked a hotel room and I'm debating going now to check in. I'm not sure if I'll do it this evening or late overnight. I am so sorry you're in the same space as I am. The SI is so fucking real too. I'm struggling really badly. Anyway, I'm here to talk if you need.

 

[Catching_the_bus]

have you thought it through enough? Because making the wrong choice is alot worse than delaying the right one. Just make sure you are fully 100% sure.

I'm 100% sure that I want to Ctb... SI is still pretty strong but I should be able to overcome that. I have put a lot of thought into this and Ctb is the only way out at this point.

 

[burningbin]

I'm 100% sure that I want to Ctb... SI is still pretty strong but I should be able to overcome that. I have put a lot of thought into this and Ctb is the only way out at this point.

you dont have to answer this if you dont want to, but whats your reason?

 

[Catching_the_bus]

Hi love. I am also planning on CTBing with SN from CCS tonight. I booked a hotel room and I'm debating going now to check in. I'm not sure if I'll do it this evening or late overnight. I am so sorry you're in the same space as I am. The SI is so fucking real too. I'm struggling really badly. Anyway, I'm here to talk if you need.

Thank you I am sorry that life has also brought you to this point.. I am sending positive vibes and good luck on whatever path you decide to take I'm here if you need to talk also

 

[Ruma]

Goodluck,I hope everything goes smooth for you,may you find the peace you are seeking x

 

[Catching_the_bus]

you dont have to answer this if you dont want to, but whats your reason?

This world has taken it's toll on me. I have been waiting for things to get better for 13 years now and I am tired of waking up everyday in this awful world... The only person I was holding on for was my father and he recently passed away... He was the only person I had... The only one who understood me. I was just waiting for him to pass so it wouldn't hurt him when I Ctb... My whole 24 years of existing has been a shit show to say the least... It's a lot to go into but I am 1000% sure that this is the only way to finally end my pain..

 

[GasMonkey]

See you on the Other Side.

 

[FuneralCry]

Farewell, I hope that you find freedom from this hellish world.

 

[Catching_the_bus]

Approximately 2 and a half hours until I take the SN... Still a little nervous but not as nervous as I was earlier... My next update will be at 8:50pm Eastern Standard Time (about 10 mins before I take the SN)

 

[Source Energy]

I have SN from CCS too and will be taking a later bus soon. I am virtually holding your hand through the process and I will be focusing on your ease and comfort in my mind. May you be free of symptoms and gently fall asleep in peace.
We are here, whatever the outcome.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Wishing you peace and freedom from this horrible world.
If you change your mind we are here for you.

 

[burningbin]

Approximately 2 and a half hours until I take the SN... Still a little nervous but not as nervous as I was earlier... My next update will be at 8:50pm Eastern Standard Time (about 10 mins before I take the SN)

give it one more day?

 

[ranaway]

we are here for you, buddy.
hope everything's alright and for the most part, I hope you can rethink your decision.

 

[Source Energy]

I hope you are still here?

Not to be insensitive, but I have a question: just yesterday you were asking around for SN, and wanted the IC source. When I PM-ed you, you sounded relieved. Why, if you already had SN from CCS? if not, how did you manage to order from CCS yesterday, have it delivered in 1 day AND be ready right away to ctb? Mine took 10 days to arrive...

 

[DreamEnd]

Any update from op?

 

[ThatStateOfMind]

I hope you are still here?

Not to be insensitive, but I have a question: just yesterday you were asking around for SN, and wanted the IC source. When I PM-ed you, you sounded relieved. Why, if you already had SN from CCS? if not, how did you manage to order from CCS yesterday, have it delivered in 1 day AND be ready right away to ctb? Mine took 10 days to arrive...

Also not trying to be insensitive, but the account is also fairly new as well, their account was made 5 days ago. It's quite confusing, maybe I'm also just paranoid due to the attacks on this site recently, though.

In any case, if OP is genuine, I hope they get the peace they are seeking.

 

[AngryWeirdo97]

I wish I had your guts to do it. Good luck, I wish you the very best <3

 

[Catching_the_bus]

Sorry everyone! I had a few things to take care of but now that I have everything taken care of I will be able to take the SN at approximately 7-8 am! Sorry for the confusion I had an unexpected situation come up that needed to be taken care of beforehand

 

[ranaway]

Sorry everyone! I had a few things to take care of but now that I have everything taken care of I will be able to take the SN at approximately 7-8 am! Sorry for the confusion I had an unexpected situation come up that needed to be taken care of beforehand

Are you sure you still want to do it ? No reconsideration ?

 

[Catching_the_bus]

I hope you are still here?

Not to be insensitive, but I have a question: just yesterday you were asking around for SN, and wanted the IC source. When I PM-ed you, you sounded relieved. Why, if you already had SN from CCS? if not, how did you manage to order from CCS yesterday, have it delivered in 1 day AND be ready right away to ctb? Mine took 10 days to arrive...

When I asked for IC I had already obtained the CCS SN however I wasn't able to find any information on purity as my bottle of SN from CCS doesn't state purity of the product (I added a pic so you can see what I mean!) CCS only took a few days to deliver after I ordered however I only live a couple of states away so maybe that's why... I was planning on waiting to Ctb until I could get IC SN but because my situation has gotten so complex I will have to trust CCS

Are you sure you still want to do it ? No reconsideration ?

I have reconsidered Ctb many times in my 24 years of life... If it wasn't for my dad I would have Ctb years ago... He's dead now... There is nothing keeping me on this awful planet anymore. Please believe me when I say that not only have I put YEARS of thought into this but I have also exhausted all measures of help... Nothing has ever made me feel better and nothing ever will... I would have been gone already but I had to make sure some things were taken care of... Now everything is in order and my plan is to do it around 7:30 or 8:00 am Eastern Standard Time. These last few hours are going to be spent meditating and preparing myself mentally for my trip to the other side

Also not trying to be insensitive, but the account is also fairly new as well, their account was made 5 days ago. It's quite confusing, maybe I'm also just paranoid due to the attacks on this site recently, though.

In any case, if OP is genuine, I hope they get the peace they are seeking.

I have been following the forum as a guest for a while but made the account when I got my SN from CCS. I wasn't planning on using it this soon but things went downhill pretty fast in my personal life these past few days and I am ready much sooner then I expected to be