I think my time is coming. This week.

[Readytogo227]

I'm scared. So scared. I got my method ready at any time but I am still scared. But i feel like I must do this. There's no other way to end the pain, the flashbacks, the nightmares, hallucinations....I can't... But i don't wanna die alone. Yet this week might very well be it. Thank you all. For everything.

 

[fieryending]

It's understandable to be fearful about death. You should look up some articles about coming to peace to peace with death. Watch some movies that deal with the subject. Ready your mind. Good luck.

 

[trynacbt]

Might be helpful to talk through some of your feelings through the chat function on here with other members... Whatever you end up choosing, I hope you find peace.
@fieryending could you maybe recommend movies dealing with death? Yesterday I saw The Lovely Bones and that was a good one.

 

[Alucard]

I feel your pain. Maybe my time too soon came.

Whatever you do, I hope you find peace.

 

[Readytogo227]

Thank you. I don't have much time to delay if I can muster the courage. If I do go, I'd like to have some company online. I know it's stupid and selfish but I just don't want to be alone in my final hours.

 

[Alucard]

I understand... I'm scared too, but now I'm starting to be more afraid of living than dying.

I would also like to speak with others but no one around me will be able to accompany me. Solitude of the suicidal in an unjust society.

 

[WelcomingPain]

Thank you. I don't have much time to delay if I can muster the courage. If I do go, I'd like to have some company online. I know it's stupid and selfish but I just don't want to be alone in my final hours.

We'll be here for you in your last moments. I'm sorry for all you're going through and I really hope you find peace

 

[Jean4]

It is not stupid not wanting to be alone. I have no friends or family, and that is my fear. Being alone. We will all be here for you. If it is your time, you will not be alone. We will be here for you with love.

 

[BPD_LE]

No one should have to die alone. Breaks my heart.

 

[Nem]

 

[Pricelessadvice]

I am at the end of my rope today too

 

[Lethe]

(I didn't realize we had both Dracula and Alucard on this forum!)

You don't need to be afraid of it, dear. It's as natural a process as eating and breathing, it will happen to us all eventually. I hope you can find some peace of mind in the coming days.

 

[neilo99]

Thank you. I don't have much time to delay if I can muster the courage. If I do go, I'd like to have some company online. I know it's stupid and selfish but I just don't want to be alone in my final hours.

You'll have plenty of us online to speak to whenever you like

 

[Rachel74]

You wont be alone

 

[trynacbt]

This website is just so f*cking beautiful. These responses ^ move me.
But yes, to second them, you won't be alone.

 

[Wreck-it-Riley]

I dont know if i want to be alone when i go. Physically i will be, but to have somebody to talk to as you go, that would be the most calming thing.

 

[Timetoleave]

Nobody should be alone when they die

 

[jgm63]

Whatever happens, and whatever you decide, I truly believe it will be okay, because one way or another, we always get through - I believe it's a fundamental and unchangeable truth....

 

[Haku]

I can understand how you feel, even though I'm used to be alone for many years, I really dont want to ctb alone, I wish someone could be there with me, and we could go together, but I dont think it will happen, so I have my mind prepared for that outcome, but will still be sort of sad about it. I hope you can find someone that will be with through every step of your departure. Peace and hugs.

 

[Jean4]

I can understand how you feel, even though I'm used to be alone for many years, I really dont want to ctb alone, I wish someone could be there with me, and we could go together, but I dont think it will happen, so I have my mind prepared for that outcome, but will still be sort of sad about it. I hope you can find someone that will be with through every step of your departure. Peace and hugs.

We are all here for you. You won't be alone.

 

[Nem]

I'm looking at the end of my rope as well, things have never been worse. I cannot keep going like this, sorry to hear you feel the same
Peace/hugs

 

[SuicidalSymphonies]

It's okay to be afraid. Never forget that we are your family. Talk to us when you need and when the time comes, we will be glad to keep you company... x I hope you find the peace you deserve and are searching for. It's a hard decision to make.