venerated-vader
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- Mar 11, 2025
- 193
In hindsight anyway. I think she might have taken SN.
I've spent all 30 years of my life living out of sheer spite. Being angry and self-righteous is way easier than maintaining a happy, comfortable, self-funded will to live. As it turns out, following in my mother's footsteps is a fate worse than being tortured by life, so I'll be clinging to existence by my fingernails until something out of my immediate control kills me. I learned a lot from you guys, though. I'm glad I joined and I'm sending good vibes to everyone who chooses to ctb, and to those who choose to stick around a little longer. Shit's hard out here.
If I ever get back on that suicidal grind I'll (most likely) pop back in. But my mind is pretty made up at the moment-- hopefully I keep to this conviction for longer than the next few weeks; wanting to die is pretty par for the course, but preparing to ctb is no longer in the cards. The future is full of spooky potentials and I am nothing if not an anxious wreck! But y'know. Spite.
Anyway, seeya folx. Enjoy this picture of my mom's cat, Princess!
I've spent all 30 years of my life living out of sheer spite. Being angry and self-righteous is way easier than maintaining a happy, comfortable, self-funded will to live. As it turns out, following in my mother's footsteps is a fate worse than being tortured by life, so I'll be clinging to existence by my fingernails until something out of my immediate control kills me. I learned a lot from you guys, though. I'm glad I joined and I'm sending good vibes to everyone who chooses to ctb, and to those who choose to stick around a little longer. Shit's hard out here.
If I ever get back on that suicidal grind I'll (most likely) pop back in. But my mind is pretty made up at the moment-- hopefully I keep to this conviction for longer than the next few weeks; wanting to die is pretty par for the course, but preparing to ctb is no longer in the cards. The future is full of spooky potentials and I am nothing if not an anxious wreck! But y'know. Spite.
Anyway, seeya folx. Enjoy this picture of my mom's cat, Princess!
