I think many people want to fade out our existence

[noname223]

I think many people don't like the notion that there are people out there who suffer daily, hate their lives, want do die till they finally die, don't have an happy end, where the suffering has no higher purpose, where the suffering is just meaningless etc.
I have told many people my story when I was in clinics etc. And most people are pretty ignorant when they hear it. There are different types of people. Here comes the type I currently think about. People who are very successful in life, with a decent life quality, empathtic and with a sense for justice. When they realized my pain and that there is no happy end for me they just denied that.

It is complicated and I won't go into details. But they just pretended that such an horrible outcome child abuse that leads to endless suffering and finally suicide must not happen. One of them just convinced himself (a clinical psychologist) well I will have an happy end no matter what. It is complicated but he is overoptimistic for the sake of his own mental well-being. Otherwise my hellish existence would ruin his world views etc. I let him that feeling for now however I cannot postpone my demise/suicide forever.

Another guy with a similar profile just pretended I was deluded by depression and this is why I was this hopeless. Well it is right I am and was depressed though also former therapists of me concluded well I gonna kill myself inter alia because of poverty and bipolar. And I think they are right no matter my current mood.

I think fading out existences like mine or even worse fates is done for the mental well-being of these people. Heathly people want to protect themselves of such nightmare stories. I think this is another reason why suicide is so stigmatized. Such horrible incredibly unfair stories must not happen. So let's eradicate the possibility that such things happen at all. It is kind of naive. But I think that is life pretty unfair in general.

 

[CTB Dream]

Ya this v know how ,even injury damage me nobod care ,even this ppl say care all show no rly care ever say empth even say undrstnd ctb want ctb this all lie, not only hlth ppl all human see same want me disapre cuz me expose nonsns

 

[Holu]

Ya this v know how ,even injury damage me nobod care ,even this ppl say care all show no rly care ever say empth even say undrstnd ctb want ctb this all lie, not only hlth ppl all human see same want me disapre cuz me expose nonsns

I saw a post saying empathy is not real and I honestly have to agree. No matter how similar, they are not you, and as such cannot understand you, and never truly will. Are are born alone and will die alone, regardless of who is standing next to us.

If it makes you feel better I want to see everyone disappear. I'd prefer nothingness over this realm of eternal suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

The fact is that those who refuse to see suicide as being a logical option are just so blinded by their delusional beliefs, I think that some people don't wish to accept the fact that existence isn't always worth enduring as that thought scares them.

And I think that many privledged people who are in denial try to force their life valuing beliefs onto other people in such an insensitive way as they don't want to face the harsh reality of this existence, where life is something so harmful and filled with endless risks and potential for extreme suffering. I wish that everyone had awareness of the way that life is so that nobody would cruelly and unnecessarily procreate, and also it's sad how delusional so many people are as it has meant that suicidal people are treat so badly.

 

[SilentSadness]

Humans are naturally narcissistic and self-centred creatures who rarely empathise until they experience something themselves. There is unfortunately no way to convince pro-lifers that they are delusional without inflicting the same pain on them, which of course doesn't change the amount of suffering in the world. There is no objective reason to live despite what the vast majority of people will repeat endlessly, and I'm sure people will realise this a few hundred years in the future, far too late for us sadly. Most obnoxiously, people love to say that there is "help" for what they have decided is an illness, but in reality this help is just belittling and ignorant, it never helps anyone at all and usually consists of abuse or gaslighting. I hope you are respected more in the future, in my opinion you don't deserve to be treated like this.

 

[milkandcoffee]

Fade out is exactly what I want to do. I just want to melt into the fucking floor and have everyone forget about me.

 

[voc_89]

those who dismiss it are quick to jump up and cry about how the individual should have spoken to them before they decided to CTB. I think they believe we are exaggerating else we would have done it already. What they don't understand is that we have been able to mask the hurt and pain well. But masks only last so long. If anything u know u have a community of like minded people here to listen to you, who believe you, take you on seriously and will try to help you wrestle with these demons.