I think I’ve figured out my method(s), I just need to figure out the time.

[DesperateChallenge]

I had planned to do this last weekend when my family was out of town but the suicidal thoughts thankfully left me alone for a few days so I held off thinking maybe it would really get better. Wrong. They are back and I am regretting not offing myself last weekend. So now I am just trying to find a time when nobody will be around and/or nobody will wonder why I'm gone for a day or two.

My primary method is going to be sodium azide. I hear it can be painful so I plan to also inject myself with horse tranquilizer which should knock me the hell out pretty quickly, even if it doesn't kill me. That will allow the SA to take effect and hopefully, between the two, I'll never wake up. I just need to ensure I prepare signs to let responders know not to do first aid/cpr because of the SA.

 

[Xerxes]

If you're injecting yourself, your method is mobile/portable? You don't have to wait till your family is out of town, rather you can go out of town. Go on a vacation, go for a final walk, go somewhere so that the last thing you'll see before you die is freedom from living. Good luck.

 

[DesperateChallenge]

If you're injecting yourself, your method is mobile/portable? You don't have to wait till your family is out of town, rather you can go out of town. Go on a vacation, go for a final walk, go somewhere so that the last thing you'll see before you die is freedom from living. Good luck.

Because of previous failed attempts my family (who I currently live with) is a little overbearing and freaks out if they can't get in touch with me. I'm worried if I'm gone for a couple hours they will call the cops to find me and I'll be interrupted.

 

[worldexploder]

Isn't SN less painful and SA? Also you can CTB with only horse tranquilizers if there is a way to get the lethal dose into your system without passing out.

 

[Lifeisatrap]

I can relate. Was going to do it while my noisy, overbearing parents were away a few days ago too but then the damn feelings of guilt and uncertainty started to kick in. I would love to have access to something as potent as horse tranquilzer. How did you get it if you don't mind me asking?

 

[Dead_Inside]

Good luck : ). Waiting and trying to find a sneaky time to die is damn hard. How is it other people just die and no one notices??

Definitely get those tranquilizers in - I believe that method has a similar action to cyanide? Which is supposedly a bit uncomfortable.

 

[DesperateChallenge]

Isn't SN less painful and SA? Also you can CTB with only horse tranquilizers if there is a way to get the lethal dose into your system without passing out.

I have 20cc of Acepromazine drawn up and in my closet. Even though I KNOW that should kill me, there is pretty much 0 history of ace and suicide that I could find. If I recall correctly, one person died from several mg of it and another person, a vet, was going to attempt suicide with three ccs but then backed out. It makes me a bit hesitant to try something when I can't find any case studies or anything on the method. Maybe if I could get my hands on a different type of tranq.

 

[DesperateChallenge]

I can relate. Was going to do it while my noisy, overbearing parents were away a few days ago too but then the damn feelings of guilt and uncertainty started to kick in. I would love to have access to something as potent as horse tranquilzer. How did you get it if you don't mind me asking?

I have Acepromazine from racehorsemeds.com. But although it SHOULD be enough to kill me, i DON'T KNOW that for sure and that makes me nervous to try.