i think i'm starting to come to grips with my suicide... it doesn't need to be a sad thing

[SufferingInDenmark]

of course it's a sad thing, but i just mean... i used to imagine that when i in the future will do it, that it would look like something from a movie,
in a dark gloomy room with melancholic music, etc.

i no longer think it will have that "vibe" tho.
sure it will be sad, but if suicide truly is the last solution, then.......... we shouldn't really take it so bad.
as if we are doing something bad. no, maybe we are just doing something necessary to stop the pain.

we do that for our pets if they suffer. why not ourselves?

depending on the method i choose, i would probably try to make it as less "scary" as possible. -- if that makes sense...

 

[Shadow_]

Totally agree. I think of it as a special event. That thing you couldn't wait to happen but marked it on the calendar and have just been counting down the days. Play some great music. Throw on your favorite show. Get pumped.

 

[steveholt]

Ive come to grips with mine and have spoken openly about it to my partner..(wasnt overly happy but) she gets im in pain and kniws its my choice and my dicision when im ready.. it has always bugged me when its said " its selfish to CTB " I belive it selfish of others for keeping you alive in pain.. just to keep themselves happy and feeling better .. like those who keep loved on life support when there is no chance of you coming out of it but keep you alive for years ... just pull the plug already

 

[WhatCouldHaveBeen32]

Suicide isn't sad , as you said, you just make the pain stop. The only thing you can be sad about is that you will miss some events here and there in the future but in the end who cares man? It's all FOMO, the people who died before 3d games, the people who will die before true virtual reality, the people who will die before "immortality" (shudders), the people who will die before we reach some random planet , the people who will die before Betelgeuse explodes and we have "two suns" for like 2 weeks (since I was 12 I hoped everyday) , it's all FOMO. You choosing to opt out earlier than you "were supposed to" is you deciding that you had enough of what was on the table, you want to pack up, pay the check and go home to take a well deserved nap after a shitty day.

 

[Namelesa]

Personally suicide isn't the sad thing here. Its what lead to it. Suicide is end to the suffering someone is experiencing with life. That suffering is the sad thing.

 

[Shadow_]

Ive come to grips with mine and have spoken openly about it to my partner..(wasnt overly happy but) she gets im in pain and kniws its my choice and my dicision when im ready.. it has always bugged me when its said " its selfish to CTB " I belive it selfish of others for keeping you alive in pain.. just to keep themselves happy and feeling better .. like those who keep loved on life support when there is no chance of you coming out of it but keep you alive for years ... just pull the plug already

Yes! I'm miserable, so I should stay that way to make others happy? You want me to be miserable so you aren't sad? Which one of those is is actually selfish?

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand, for me ceasing to exist would be the way to find permanent relief from suffering, all I wish for is to permanently stop suffering. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[AreWeWinning]

For me, it's not about the sadness of the act itself. If anything, it's just a bit scary.

The sadness comes from fomo. The things I might miss out on. The thoughts of what it could have been... And the fact that I'll throw away whatever little value my life still has. All the things I have learned so far, all the suffering I have gone through, all my experiences, all was for nothing and in vain. All the people who believed or believe in me, I have failed.

That's what's sad... And no matter how, with what method, under what circumstances I'll end it, it doesn't help with the above.

For me, it's about coming to terms with the decision itself. Being 100% certain that this is the rational choice. Accepting my fate, so to speak. Letting go. Being ok with throwing away that miniscule chance that my life could still change due to some miracle or who knows what. If I can do that, then actually doing it becomes just something that I have to do, something I should do, and I don't even think about how scary or how sad it is. Like an exam, or a scary adventure. I know it's scary, but I do it anyway.

 

[Kbeau]

of course it's a sad thing, but i just mean... i used to imagine that when i in the future will do it, that it would look like something from a movie,
in a dark gloomy room with melancholic music, etc.

i no longer think it will have that "vibe" tho.
sure it will be sad, but if suicide truly is the last solution, then.......... we shouldn't really take it so bad.
as if we are doing something bad. no, maybe we are just doing something necessary to stop the pain.

we do that for our pets if they suffer. why not ourselves?

depending on the method i choose, i would probably try to make it as less "scary" as possible. -- if that makes sense...

Everyone dies at some point

 

[steveholt]

Yes! I'm miserable, so I should stay that way to make others happy? You want me to be miserable so you aren't sad? Which one of those is is actually selfish?

Exactly... why should we suffer for other peoples happiness . There are many resons for the way things are for us..and some just dont get it or dont give a shit about trying to understand they just dont wanna feel shit about OUR CHOICE...

 

[ma0]

People have definitely been conditioned to feel that way about suicide and death in general, but I do think it is a very one dimensional view of things, and there is a lot more nuance than people give it credit for...