I think I'm doing it today

[bluesleep]

I still hesitate a bit, but I know it's time. I've been working on a noose for a few days, I have the house to myself today, I have alcohol an diazepam to numb myself out a bit before.

It's just been so much. My mother and I hate eachother, I have no friends, no siblings, nobody seems to love be, I've been through a lot of shit, so why should I stay, for more of that or worse? I can see what's coming and it isn't pretty or pleasant.

I know I owe it to myself to die after this many years of pain, disappointment and failure.

Anyway, I believe death is the end of everything, so please hope (or pray if you believe in that) that I have the guts to kill myself today. Also, if you have any tips, I'd greatly appreciate them.

If I'm here after today, that just proves how much of a failure I am. Please please let this be the day.

 

[SadGirl]

I'm sorry for your situation, I'm sad to know that yours, and the lives of several other people are being in vain, and I'm sorry for everything having to end like this, I know it would be better not born, I would like that too, but unfortunately we have to go through all the shit and suffering. If that's what you really want, I hope you find peace and move on. Hugs <3

 

[Deadgirl]

Whatever you do I hope you find peace. Just remember SS is always here. I wish you luck on going through the light at the end of the tunnel!

 

[Hotsackage]

Hanging isnt easy. Otherwise I'd be gone. Wish you luck tho

 

[Worndown]

I hope you find peace.
If you do not succeed, we will be here for you. Not failure, just finding a way that does not work. Let us know.

 

[JadedGray]

May you find peace with whichever decision you choose.

 

[SardonicSatire]

While I do suggest you truly think about it, and try everything in your power to make the things in your life right, I do hope in whichever decision you make brings you peace. Do not assume the worst, there are people who love you even if it seems like otherwise at the moment. If you hesitate it means there is still a chance out there, even in this dark place. :)

 

[ImSorryEmma]

may i hope you find peace, if you make it and god or satan is real by the off chance then tell them i said hi

 

[Sick Boy]

I hope everything goes well,and i hope you find peace!

 

[Yelkovan]

I hope you find peace. <3

 

[benq]

Whatever you do I hope you find peace <3

 

[not_a_robot]

May the Force be with you!

 

[Egddios]

Teetering at the brink, too. For a brief moment this afternoon I felt this sudden burst of "ok, let's do this, let's wrap this up" and I was fully fearless. Again, it was a fleeting moment.

Every day till now has felt more and more heavy and I can barely take it. Sunday is Father's Day (I'm in the U.S.), so I tell myself now to just make it past these next couple of days. Just.

Ay.

Whatever happens with you, I will "pray" or rather send you some love. It's all I've got left to give.

 

[Ultima4128]

I wish you good luck

 

[mpti]

Guys, he hasn't been on since the day he posted this in April. Maybe he actually went through with it.

Wishing him peace regardless.

 

[Guy2Roast]

I'm happy for him! I'll be joining him soon!

 

[LifeIsNotFun]

Best of luck.