Venting I think I'm a failure.

[Remember-Me-Not]

I feel like a failure and disappointment. I was told by someone that I should withdraw from a course because I'm too far behind. I had surgery at the beginning of June for a broken bone so I ended up a whole week behind staying at the hospital and another week because I was exhausted and on pain meds. Now trying to function everyday takes so much energy.

I had a distinct thought while trying to desperately catch up with my work: "I think I am a failure. Maybe I should die."

I feel like a burden. I feel tired. I feel like a disappointment. I feel like a failure. I think I already let everyone down.

I don't have anyone I could tell these feelings to. I'm always drawn back to this website whenever I feel devastated. I know these feelings are temporary and eventually I'll figure it out, but I'm honestly crying while I'm typing this out. I just needed to vent. Thank you for reading. And I'll let you all know for sure if I decide to ctb. I don't plan on just disappearing from this website with no word.

 

[At_The_End]

Sorry you had such a crappy day and endure such a tough go. It sucks when you get so down... I wish it was not like that for you... Please keep us posted... I hate to see people stop posting... Hang in there...

 

[Worndown]

Sometimes life gives you lemons. Other times you get hit by the lemon truck. It happens. I have been off work for 7 months so far. You might be too far behind in the class. Talk to the instructor. No harm in protecting the gpa. Take some time and heal.

 

[FuneralCry]

This life can be hard and exhausting. I know what it is like to be tired of it and our thoughts really can torture us. I wish you well.

 

[Remember-Me-Not]

Sometimes life gives you lemons. Other times you get hit by the lemon truck. It happens. I have been off work for 7 months so far. You might be too far behind in the class. Talk to the instructor. No harm in protecting the gpa. Take some time and heal.

I really liked the "Sometimes life gives you lemons. Other times you get hit by the lemon truck."

I'm catching up, I just need to do 2 more weeks worth of work. I emailed my instructor, just need to wait for a reply...
Thank you for replying.

Sorry you had such a crappy day and endure such a tough go. It sucks when you get so down... I wish it was not like that for you... Please keep us posted... I hate to see people stop posting... Hang in there...

Thank you. I appreciate it.

This life can be hard and exhausting. I know what it is like to be tired of it and our thoughts really can torture us. I wish you well.

Thank you, I know my brain does weird things like this. I wish it didn't, but one day I'll be okay. Just not now.