Venting i think i'll live a little more

[jenny6391bubbles]

i snooped through my mom's things and found out she has stage 4B cervical cancer. i dont know how much time she has left here. i think i'll try my best to live so that i can see her to the very end.

im so fucking lost and alone. im such a incompetent person and i dont knwo what to do. my dad doesn't have that much time either. i dont know anymore. when i graduate in a few years, maybe i can get an office job to help my brother, even though i hate corporate work. it's stable adn there's quite a decent amount of money

i've been crying since yesterday

 

[Un-]

I'm so sorry.

 

[actual_fox]

Salute.
I think It is very brave for you to stay with your mother.

 

[DisillusionedDragon]

You seem like a very kind, empathetic and caring person. I am sorry you are suffering so much
I am also completely lost and alone, have been for a very long time, basically all my life. I know how awful that is.
Don't plan years ahead into the future. This weekend, do something for yourself. Something you enjoy. Try to calm down a little.
If you would like someone to talk to we're always here for you.

Sending much support,

 

[FuneralCry]

It must be painful and hard to deal with being in that situation, it certainly is a cruel existence but I guess that it's inevitable that we will all eventually lose everything. I wish you the best.

 

[Made4TV]

I'm so sorry you're suffering, and I know what it feels like when you see the end in sight...then something happens where you know that to show the most love to people you love, it requires you to stay longer. Hopefully you can wait because....as shitty as dying from cancer is, dying from a broken heart has to be the worst. I'd say take advantage of the recovery section of this site, or other resources that will help you cope as you go through this. Find a caregiver's support group - it can really help. Just my .02. Hugs and strength to you.

 

[BipolarExpress]

I'm so sorry. I can definitely understand why you'd want to stick around for your mother.

 

[theboy]

I am sorry for your situation!
damn stupid life
I hope you can be better with your dear mother.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I'm so sorry. Do they realise that you know? Are you able to confide in your brother if you feel like you can't tell them? It's so courageous and beautiful that you want to be there for your Mum but you need support too. I hope you can reach out to someone. Sending you a big hug.