Hi, my friend!
Whatever you do, don't act impulsively. The consequences of failing could be HELL! At least that's what happened to me.
Remember, death is patiently waiting for all of us. We can always ctb another day.
Whatever happens, I wish you lots of love and peace.
Hugs,
Mattthanks, Matt, I decided that I'm going to organize myself better for that day, even though I've been dead for years, I hope so that things get better with you and I get a lot of happiness: D