I think i kind of need a suicide partner cause i can't do this alone...

[itsnotokayy!22]

I'm not too sure still and scared of my death yet still, maybe I'd end up forgoing my decision if I am still not sure or convinced of dying yet but till then if there are people in the same situation as me. Please do reach out if you can...I really need to talk about suicide and this big decision of my life with somebody as to be sure about it.

 

[elenaboo25]

Maybe make a list? Make a list of reasons why you want to keep living, and make a list of reasons why you want to die, and count them. See where you have more reasons. You could also rate the reasons 1 to 10 how important they are, and then count how many points you have on each side. I hope this makes sense.

 

[itsnotokayy!22]

Maybe make a list? Make a list of reasons why you want to keep living, and make a list of reasons why you want to die, and count them. See where you have more reasons. You could also rate the reasons 1 to 10 how important they are, and then count how many points you have on each side. I hope this makes sense.

I am trying to do that yeah but it's hard considering my biases....i promised myself to die before my birthday yet I still live and am living

 

[itsgone2]

I am trying to do that yeah but it's hard considering my biases....i promised myself to die before my birthday yet I still live and am living

I'm in same boat. Well past the point I promised myself I'd do it. And subsequent days. It sucks

 

[itsnotokayy!22]

I'm in same boat. Well past the point I promised myself I'd do it. And subsequent days. It sucks

I totally understand it...with my situation I feel like I must and I need to do it to preserve myself and protect me but I can't find it in me to be completely comfortable and okay with it....its back and forth..I really need others who get it and understand it, I'm hoping that atleast gives me more clarity atleast

 

[itsgone2]

I totally understand it...with my situation I feel like I must and I need to do it to preserve myself and protect me but I can't find it in me to be completely comfortable and okay with it....its back and forth..I really need others who get it and understand it, I'm hoping that atleast gives me more clarity atleast

What is your method? Mine is fsh. I could walk to my spot right now. Would absolutely love to be able to right now. But here i lay in bed.

 

[itsnotokayy!22]

What is your method? Mine is fsh. I could walk to my spot right now. Would absolutely love to be able to right now. But here i lay in bed.

Oh my method is SN I have the SN and everything and the other needed drugs I will order soon....probably why it's so hard for me and terrifying right now

 

[copioushopelessness]

Oh my method is SN I have the SN and everything and the other needed drugs I will order soon....probably why it's so hard for me and terrifying right now

I'm not too sure still and scared of my death yet still, maybe I'd end up forgoing my decision if I am still not sure or convinced of dying yet but till then if there are people in the same situation as me. Please do reach out if you can...I really need to talk about suicide and this big decision of my life with somebody as to be sure about it.

I hope you come to your decision with ease.

 

[itsgone2]

Oh my method is SN I have the SN and everything and the other needed drugs I will order soon....probably why it's so hard for me and terrifying right now

Yeah. I've looked at sn but so much to order. So you can't really attempt right now?

 

[itsnotokayy!22]

Yeah. I've looked at sn but so much to order. So you can't really attempt right now?

Nope not right now, not prepared but I'm finding difficulty even preparing for it...

 

[eternalpace]

At first, I wanted a suicide partner, too... but I'm just not sure that I'd trust any random stranger that I met on the internet.... They could be a cop or they could have other ill intentions. If they have ill intentions, then I'd rather go the way that I choose and not be slaughtered by some axe murderer. It's probably not surprising to know that I don't trust people in general.

 

[itsnotokayy!22]

At first, I wanted a suicide partner, too... but I'm just not sure that I'd trust any random stranger that I met on the internet.... They could be a cop or they could have other ill intentions. If they have ill intentions, then I'd rather go the way that I choose and not be slaughtered by some axe murderer. It's probably not surprising to know that I don't trust people in general.

I see okay yeah....true it'd be hard to trust them but I'm nos far out of it rn that I don't truly care as long as its just online.