Venting I struggle to get out of bed

[AtomicWaffles]

I just can never find a reason why I should, what purpose do I serve that makes me of any value to get up and do things everyday? I often find myself just laying there looking at the roof just waiting for my time to CTB whenever it may come, and the continuous painful feeling that I am going to cry yet I don't is so painful and continues to rip me to shreds everyday of my miserable life that I only wish to be freed from. I just want to lay down one final time and just never wake up, just do not wake up the following morning, I need to cry but I can't. I just want to go and soon I will, just can't yet and because of that I suffer and struggle to get up. I just want people to understand since when people ask I just have to give them a false all is good.

 

[JOkE2109]

I need to cry but I can't.

Can relate to this, always end up just halting myself or telling myself in my head that it's unjustified to cry and stop.

 

[Lostindespair3]

I just can never find a reason why I should, what purpose do I serve that makes me of any value to get up and do things everyday? I often find myself just laying there looking at the roof just waiting for my time to CTB whenever it may come, and the continuous painful feeling that I am going to cry yet I don't is so painful and continues to rip me to shreds everyday of my miserable life that I only wish to be freed from. I just want to lay down one final time and just never wake up, just do not wake up the following morning, I need to cry but I can't. I just want to go and soon I will, just can't yet and because of that I suffer and struggle to get up. I just want people to understand since when people ask I just have to give them a false all is good.

I relate SO much to all of this. It all feels so pointless…I literally can't get up. And I feel like crying- the situation warrants it- but I don't/can't….its probably the fing meds- have me all numbed out in a way.

 

[FuneralCry]

It's certainly very much understandable just never waking again, the peace of an eternal and dreamless sleep really is all I wish for as well. It would be such a relief if the option is there to just never wake, I get that it's so dreadful continuing to wake when you wish to be gone.

 

[Dmoore3232]

Could be your thyroid, try iodine and tyrosine supplements, they make the thyroid hormone.

 

[Ash’Girl]

Absolutely get this. Of late I've just been staying in bed and feeling completely unable to get out of it (I have to for work, but I just put the messenger app we use on my phone so it looks like I'm online and don't actually drag myself to my laptop until a few hours after I'm supposed to start ). I'm usually ok when I get going and end up working late because when I stop I immediately want to go hide in bed and never come out again. So I make my time up I guess.

I am off over Christmas and New Year and I probably will only get out of bed to goto the bathroom

 

[BlazingBob]

I deal with extreme exhaustion because of my health problems and spend the majority of my time in bed and isolated. I want nothing more than to be dead.

 

[vitbar]

When I got home from work today I sat on the step to take my boots off and just couldn't. Ended up lying there on the cold, hard floor until I was freezing. Totally despondent.

 

[idonothing]

The only thing that gets me out of bed after waking up is the urge to smoke a cigarette and the need to feed my cat.

 

[Alltheywanted]

I'm with you on this. Nothing is as pleasant as sleep, a state in which all my problems disappear.

 

[Nightwillalwayswin]

I feel you so much. I've had SO many days in bed this year. I've been in bed the past 2 days and HATE that I have to get up tomorrow. It makes me so anxious I want to throw up. I just want to lie here and fade away.

 

[Abyssal]

Feeling this right now.

 

[EternalShore]

yeah, I've had a lot of trouble with getting out of bed recently too~ If I don't have to work or got to college or something, it's so difficult! >_< I just want to be unconscious forever~ It's more pleasant than anything else~ I'm sure you'd agree~

 

[AtomicWaffles]

yeah, I've had a lot of trouble with getting out of bed recently too~ If I don't have to work or got to college or something, it's so difficult! >_< I just want to be unconscious forever~ It's more pleasant than anything else~ I'm sure you'd agree~

Very much yes

 

[Jolene79]

I deal with extreme exhaustion because of my health problems and spend the majority of my time in bed and isolated. I want nothing more than to be dead.

I totally relate to this. My pain and distress is so severe I have to drag myself up onto the sofa where I don't move all day. I want more than nothing some escape from constant sickness

 

[Levia@than]

One thing that helps for me personally is making a checklist. Just a list of small tasks that make you feel accomplished and motivated. Obviously your list might vary but some of the things on my list are "eat breakfast" and "read a chapter of a book". And if you complete all of the items on your list,, you can treat yourself to something nice. I would recommend taking some time to put together your own list and see if it helps you.

 

[kettlevinbarq]

ugh same I feel like I'm just rotting away. I can feel my muscles atrophying.