I still want to die despite my mood improving.

[BeautifulMosaics]

I just don't see the point in sticking around much longer no matter how my mood improves. It's a paradox alright..

The will, logic and tired spirit overrides the mood I guess. It's funny, people often think of suicide as an illogical, spontaneous choice - but for the first time in my life, by sticking to a decision such as this, I'll be thinking of the long term instead of the short. It almost feels responsible

 

[FuneralCry]

Suicide can be a perfectly rational decision to someone coming to the conclusion that their life is not worth living. For me it is the only thing that makes sense. I wish you the best whatever happens. I hope you find what you are looking for.