I smuggled SN in the psych ward

[3FailedAttemptss]

It's just as the title suggests, I've managed to smuggle SN into the psych ward. I did this by putting it in my pants and the staff just know me so well they didn't think to check. I don't know if I'm gonna use it. I might…

I'm very compulsive with my attempts. I just attempt whenever I can. But I need a fast. I just had dinner, so I can't kill myself tonight. But I need a fast and then I need to ask the staff for oxazepam and yeah, skip a meal or two. I literally just got back into the psych ward, so it's all very new. But I think there can't be very many people who can say they've smuggled sodium nitrite into a psych ward.

I'm kind of interested in attempting in the psych ward because I'd like to imagine that if I ingest my sodium nitrite and then have some epiphany or realization that suicide isn't for me, then I am already in a hospital. If anyone, they should be able to save me. I don't know. I don't think that would happen but it's just it gives me more peace and more calm knowing that there's sort of a way out as opposed to if I attempt it at home?

 

[MephiticShadow]

That is a pretty epic brag. I bet there really aren't any or many that have successfully pulled that off. You deserve to feel pretty chuffed. I sincerely hope you decide against using it, but I love that you managed that and that it is in your control, where it belongs. All my hugs to you. You're a legend

 

[itsallogrenow]

I've never been in a psych ward but media makes it seem like you are constantly supervised or checked up on.

Is this not the case? I worry you'll be found after taking it and you're situation could be made worse

 

[Phobia_DLW]

It's just as the title suggests, I've managed to smuggle SN into the psych ward. I did this by putting it in my pants and the staff just know me so well they didn't think to check. I don't know if I'm gonna use it. I might…

I'm very compulsive with my attempts. I just attempt whenever I can. But I need a fast. I just had dinner, so I can't kill myself tonight. But I need a fast and then I need to ask the staff for oxazepam and yeah, skip a meal or two. I literally just got back into the psych ward, so it's all very new. But I think there can't be very many people who can say they've smuggled sodium nitrite into a psych ward.

I'm kind of interested in attempting in the psych ward because I'd like to imagine that if I ingest my sodium nitrite and then have some epiphany or realization that suicide isn't for me, then I am already in a hospital. If anyone, they should be able to save me. I don't know. I don't think that would happen but it's just it gives me more peace and more calm knowing that there's sort of a way out as opposed to if I attempt it at home?

Rare trophy unlocked.

May I ask how you ended up in the ward?