All she ever could want from me is to see how I bleed. The only thing that would have made her happy towards me was my death. She knew how to prosper in a world of suppressed pain. I can't live in that world any longer. I want the truth to show.
0X1LoveStay
I don’t want to die, I just don’t want to live.
- Jun 6, 2023
- 11
When I told my mother about how I felt she went 'well jump then. What are you waiting for, jump?'. Like I want to Ctb but now right in front of her
You sound like you could be way more important than your mother. Anyone who would say something like that sounds like a very pathetic person. Why give your life for someone like that?
No matter what it sounds like you're in a position where she is forcing you to make a very strong decision with what to do of your life, and that's despicable because she sounds so weak, but you don't have to let her control the narrative of what that decision is.
I don't feel bad about leaving. I just feel bad for how long I stayed. I kept thinking maybe there's a way it's not as bad as it feels, but when I saw how it was, I knew there was no sticking around. Some women are just deadly. They just want so suck all the life from you. It's hard to know how to think about it, but once you finally get the right idea, it makes it so easy to leave. It just took me way too long to find it. It's good now.
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