i ruin everything and i am a monster i deserve to die

[argkwargs]

I got really fucking drunk yesterday at a person's birthday party and there were paramedics called. I don't want to get into the details of what happened but its daytime now and I really regret it. I think I ruined the birthday for everyone and now everyone will hate me. God I just want this suffering to end. I am a horrible horrible person. I deserve to die.

 

[04k1ey]

I think the important thing here is that you regret it and weren't intentionally trying to ruin anything. So long as you apologise they can surely forgive you, right?

 

[argkwargs]

I think the important thing here is that you regret it and weren't intentionally trying to ruin anything. So long as you apologise they can surely forgive you, right?

I apologized, but they saw the message three hours ago and still no response. I am not sure what to do. This is probably going to be the catalyst for my impending suicide and I don't really know what to do lmfao.

 

[Quietist]

Were you hurt/unresponsive or do you think you hurt someone else while intoxicated?

If it just happened yesterday, your friends/host(?) might just need time and space and might not be ready to respond yet.

But I totally understand what you're feeling right now - the overwhelm, the shame, the fear.

 

[argkwargs]

Were you hurt/unresponsive or do you think you hurt someone else while intoxicated?

If it just happened yesterday, your friends/host(?) might just need time and space and might not be ready to respond yet.

But I totally understand what you're feeling right now - the overwhelm, the shame, the fear.

I didnt hurt anyone else, I just tried jumping off the balcony lol whilst drunk apparently and some people had to hold me back

Yeah it just happened yesterday. I feel so fucking bad

 

[Mr. Snrub]

A friend of a friend of mine once took acid for the first time at my friend's house. He took a shit in the hallway and ran out of the house and up the road naked. They're still good friends but I think they had a week or two to process things before they spoke again.

All this to say don't be too hard on yourself. There's a good chance everything will work itself out.

 

[onyx559]

I've done some things while drunk, depending on how close you are to said person I think everything will be okay. I once got too drunk at my friend's house and tried to take her gun to shoot myself and instead of her saying I ruined the night she took care of me and made sure I was okay. I felt really bad and I felt like I ruined everything. Also VERY EMBARRASSED but her caring about my safety made me feel better. We also weren't even that close at that time, she was kind of a new friend to me but now we're three years in and she's one of the most important people in my life. We all do dumb things while drunk, and it's never really as serious as we make it out to be. Just try not to overthink it too much. Which I know is easier said than done since it's something that just happened but don't beat yourself up.

 

[kazatte]

I've done some things while drunk, depending on how close you are to said person I think everything will be okay. I once got too drunk at my friend's house and tried to take her gun to shoot myself and instead of her saying I ruined the night she took care of me and made sure I was okay. I felt really bad and I felt like I ruined everything. Also VERY EMBARRASSED but her caring about my safety made me feel better. We also weren't even that close at that time, she was kind of a new friend to me but now we're three years in and she's one of the most important people in my life. We all do dumb things while drunk, and it's never really as serious as we make it out to be. Just try not to overthink it too much. Which I know is easier said than done since it's something that just happened but don't beat yourself up.

agreed!! if the people at that party have any sort of human decency they'll understand that you were intoxicated and clearly needed SOME support. i'm pretty sure everyone has done at least one dumb thing while drunk and that's okay, we all fuck up sometimes