rabbitlinnt10
my life is a clown show 🤡
- Mar 29, 2022
- 58
i resent normies who gaslight you for your pessimistic view on your own life, all I can imagine is that the majority fall under the categories of being privileged with good genetics, rich, pretty with no insecurities about the way they look, or grew up with a loving family in a nice home with no physical health problems either, who are also cunning and wise enough to not get hurt or backstabbed to the point of being heart broken in relationships or by other sociopathic/psychopath people, so that's why they're either clueless, coping or purposefully dumb to not realise the issues the unlucky people in this world face 
the most agonising feeling is getting a tiny smidge of hope which sets you up for even more heart ache, cuz only reason that hope came up is because you either purposefully ignored or forgot about how miserable your existence is for a millisecond. I am mentally drained and bored of the second year of being bedbound from contamination ocd, fantasying about what life could've been like while getting spikes of 2 second oxytocin from making plans in my head that would've made me have out of body experience levels of happiness then getting hit with the twisted reality again that my genetics are trash and dreaming about old traumatising experiences that are worse than the uk's funding for mental health
i don't even care about burning in hell because at least you know it's permanently over for you and you don't have people constantly bugging and reminding you with false hope porn and bullshit narratives. it's like being in a shoe store and the workers and customers there are constantly telling you it's a pizza restaurant or something
only thing I hate more than these type of braindead gaslighting normies are the ones that know what being suicidal is like themselves but then "get a life" or sum and shame you for being suicidal. this happened with many of my friends after they recovered from depression then think you're a loser, clown or a nutcase for struggling with mental health problems, but don't care because they're not anymore. it's like if when some virgin got into a relationship for a few weeks then shame other people for being virgins when they prolly stayed in their basement for 25 years without a touch of a woman or man. but suddenly now they feel like they're better than other people because they're better off in life than some people at that particular moment. best metaphoric example I could think of which makes it sound even more cringe. projection at its worst, it's fr sickening people who know what's it's like at the bottom than kick other people while they're down. all this does is remind me why I want to die and end it for once and for all even more
the most agonising feeling is getting a tiny smidge of hope which sets you up for even more heart ache, cuz only reason that hope came up is because you either purposefully ignored or forgot about how miserable your existence is for a millisecond. I am mentally drained and bored of the second year of being bedbound from contamination ocd, fantasying about what life could've been like while getting spikes of 2 second oxytocin from making plans in my head that would've made me have out of body experience levels of happiness then getting hit with the twisted reality again that my genetics are trash and dreaming about old traumatising experiences that are worse than the uk's funding for mental health
i don't even care about burning in hell because at least you know it's permanently over for you and you don't have people constantly bugging and reminding you with false hope porn and bullshit narratives. it's like being in a shoe store and the workers and customers there are constantly telling you it's a pizza restaurant or something
only thing I hate more than these type of braindead gaslighting normies are the ones that know what being suicidal is like themselves but then "get a life" or sum and shame you for being suicidal. this happened with many of my friends after they recovered from depression then think you're a loser, clown or a nutcase for struggling with mental health problems, but don't care because they're not anymore. it's like if when some virgin got into a relationship for a few weeks then shame other people for being virgins when they prolly stayed in their basement for 25 years without a touch of a woman or man. but suddenly now they feel like they're better than other people because they're better off in life than some people at that particular moment. best metaphoric example I could think of which makes it sound even more cringe. projection at its worst, it's fr sickening people who know what's it's like at the bottom than kick other people while they're down. all this does is remind me why I want to die and end it for once and for all even more
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gasp ohhno guys
