hellispink
poisonous
- May 26, 2022
- 1,229
Did any of your decisions or having trust someone made you come to this point? or at least made worse things... that's how I feel right now. I cannot forgive myself
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I have trust issues... I feel your pain. 
Yeah, i can understand, I regret a lot of my previous decisions including trusting other people.
The worst part is that now I don't trust my own intuition.
Pluto
Cat Extremist
- Dec 27, 2020
- 4,843
As a kid I trusted my parents, and it was all downhill from there. Only later did I come to realise that they are batshit-crazy lunatics of the highest order.
You can forgive yourself for making choices based on what you knew at the time. There is no alternative for any of us.
You can forgive yourself for making choices based on what you knew at the time. There is no alternative for any of us.
rainwillneverstop
Global Mod | Serious Health Hazard
- Jul 12, 2022
- 566
I wish I had never shared what I had promised to myself I would take with me to the grave.
It is and will always be the greatest mistake of my life, and it has cost me dearly.
It is and will always be the greatest mistake of my life, and it has cost me dearly.
yes, both and I can't forgive myself either. I always feel identified with your threads, I guess we have these situations because of bdt
Sunny-Pia
Student
- Jul 12, 2022
- 105
Yes, one of the reasons that made me come to this point and made things worse in general. I know how u feel!
Fadeawaaaay
Visionary
- Nov 12, 2021
- 2,160
Everybody and everything I trusted turned out to be wrong… Mostly I don't trust myself… Since I've made such a stupid decisions…
Efilismislife
Psychopath family tortured me
- May 25, 2021
- 642
Same they brainwash me since i was a kid when i realize its too late
then theyre blaming me for not being able to escape their abuse
If they dont at least abuse me i can still have hope but no
Yes completely. I'm autistic and really struggle with social intelligence. As a result of my upbringing I have BPD and highly vulnerable to manipulation. Luckily I have a partner who keeps me very safe at home, but my workplaces are just one bully after another. I seem to draw them out, like I'm a temptation they can't resist, and I have no skills to stop it. I'm at the end of what I can cope with.
Hangnail
Member
- Jul 14, 2022
- 85
Yes, I trusted my mom to look out for me and have my best interests at heart. I thought that she would spend the effort and time to talk to me and be honest with me. I was thinking about getting a surgery for my eyes and asked her for advice. She told me my eyes were already pretty and so I decided against it, but then she changed her mind and suddenly really encouraged me to do it. I've always trusted my mom and her guidance. She is also very authoritarian, so I've always felt pressured to listen to whatever she says.
I felt really bad about my surgery. When I told my mom, she apparently didn't even remember the conversation we had over a LIFE CHANGING DECISION. She spends hours talking to my sister and brother but can't bother to talk to me more than 5 minutes because she apparently "didn't see the point." If I knew she cared that little and didn't think I was worth the effort to give proper advice, I wouldn't have asked her and would've thought more about it myself.
I felt really bad about my surgery. When I told my mom, she apparently didn't even remember the conversation we had over a LIFE CHANGING DECISION. She spends hours talking to my sister and brother but can't bother to talk to me more than 5 minutes because she apparently "didn't see the point." If I knew she cared that little and didn't think I was worth the effort to give proper advice, I wouldn't have asked her and would've thought more about it myself.
Sunny-Pia
Student
- Jul 12, 2022
- 105
I've also been debating for long about sharing something i was going to take with me to the grave but scared I might regret it later. After reading your post, I might just keep it all to myself forever. Sorry I know how you feel!
Yes, my own mother. I was already weak from mental & medical problems, so the things she did had a more severe impact on me & my future than it would the average person. My life is ruined, I never recovered, I never got my justice, and now I have to receive money from this old devil. To make things worse nobody cares about my story, they just see a 41 unfortunate person that they don't want nothing to do with. I find myself focusing more and more on CTB.
The last person I trusted, I cried tears to them & I told I was suicidal wanting some comfort, it backfired, they told me "I was not in God's good graces," "something demonic is going on," "and "I've been bearing rotten fruit." I'm tired of people traumatizing me just because they want to be selfish and arrogant with their time.
I never thought my life would end in tragedy, but that may be the case. I never had many people in my life, but they all were untrustworthy, or made my situation worse. It makes me think that it's more of a human nature type of thing.
Wow, I can really relate to this except I never had someone keeping me safe, they only made my situation worse. My mother & sisters were my bullies, a few friends, a few boyfriends. They could not resist.
Totally relate to this...
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Yes I'm super lucky to have gained a safe home environment as an adult. It's the only thing I do have, and one I never had as a child. As a child my family made it worse and is a huge contributing factor as to how I got sexual assaulted as a child by a peer and never understood what had happened till I was an adult. I've now gone full no contact with my family and that's made a big difference.
Outside of the home I've been raped, sexual assaulted and sexual harassed multiple times by different people. Now thanks to my safe home environment I'm able to keep myself safer so that doesn't happen, but the bullying never stops. The world is a very cruel place.
I wish we could live on islands so only interact with good people.
If only I had become successful, and was able to go full no contact with this so called family, but I failed. I'm in shock that I've failed this bad after all these years. This reality is unbearable. It's great that you were able to accomplish this.
I did it as a gradual process so it didn't come as too much of a shock to cause them to try and come back stronger. I was also lucky as my partner had already done a lot of research on this to go NC with his narcissistic family so we had some experience to work with.
I found some really good advice too online.... Happy to share links @Why Me?
I found some really good advice too online.... Happy to share links @Why Me?
Absolutely. Trusted the FDA to be something more than a pharmaceutical mafia.
I can't go no contact right now because I'm desperate for the little money & help they are willing to give me. That's how bad my situation is.
