I really tried

[author]

I've really tried to get any kind of job I can despite my disability so I can move out of my abusive situation. I really have. I've gotten countless rejections, but I had hope because two jobs were willing to hire me.

One is a job from a temp agency and the other was a casino in another state.

The casino isn't willing to wait for me to move, and would want me to commute nearly two hours to the state every day, and I'd have to get an uber near midnight to get home in a big city. That's so dangerous. Not to mention, they lied about my pay. It'd still be good pay, but I had to turn them down.

The temp agency lied about what I'd be doing. I applied to be a form processor and they've put me on to potentially do mailroom work. I can barely walk, let alone lift 40 pounds. I can't do it.

Social Security isn't gonna give me shit, either, despite how bad my disability is.

I don't know what to do. I really tried. Am I just destined to fail? I just wanna get out of here before I die.

Seems like the world's not made for people like me.

 

[CommitSudoku]

I apologize if you've said before but what limits does your disability present you? Quite honestly I think it's good you turned down the casino job, Uber would eat up your pay not to mention it could be unsafe in many ways. But props to you for getting the offers even if they didn't work out. I don't think you're destined to fail, just haven't found a good fit yet. Or a good fit might not be near or you're otherwise outwardly restricted from finding it yet. For small cash you can start with surveys and such. Feel free to PM me if interested in those. Though I'll be offline soon. I'd be happy to throw out ideas in any case. I'm wishing you the best. Also your name made me think of writing, perhaps a job related to that could work.

 

[Versailles]

Seems like the world's not made for people like me.

I'm sorry you feel that way, I'm also disabled, and I'm not good at face-to-face jobs, that's why I dedicate myself to being a programmer, even so it's stressful because many things don't tend to go as I wish and to make matters worse, my undocumented situation It makes some things difficult for me, like health insurance or buying property.

 

[author]

I apologize if you've said before but what limits does your disability present you? Quite honestly I think it's good you turned down the casino job, Uber would eat up your pay not to mention it could be unsafe in many ways. But props to you for getting the offers even if they didn't work out. I don't think you're destined to fail, just haven't found a good fit yet. Or a good fit might not be near or you're otherwise outwardly restricted from finding it yet. For small cash you can start with surveys and such. Feel free to PM me if interested in those. Though I'll be offline soon. I'd be happy to throw out ideas in any case. I'm wishing you the best. Also your name made me think of writing, perhaps a job related to that could work.

I can't stand for more than an hour at the most without frequent rest. I often get dizzy and can potentially faint when pushed too hard. I can't do overly hot environments because I'll overheat and faint. I'm also just generally in a lot of pain most of the time and if I took pain meds for it I'd be addicted because of the frequency. I need a wheelchair tbh but I can't afford one, there's stairs to get to my room and to leave my house, and the sidewalks around here are fucked because America is built for cars.

I think I've tried to do surveys before, but I wasn't able to find anything that paid. I might actually DM you about that, but don't worry about replying right away.

I do actually do a lot of creative stuff like writing, it just hasn't been monetarily profitable for me despite my love for it, and if I may be so bold, my talent for it. I think I'm good at what I do, it's just hard to become known enough to make money...

I'm sorry you feel that way, I'm also disabled, and I'm not good at face-to-face jobs, that's why I dedicate myself to being a programmer, even so it's stressful because many things don't tend to go as I wish and to make matters worse, my undocumented situation It makes some things difficult for me, like health insurance or buying property.

I feel you. I'm also bad at face-to-face. I've considered programming, but my knowledge on it is very limited. It's not enough for me to get hired.

 

[CommitSudoku]

I can't stand for more than an hour at the most without frequent rest. I often get dizzy and can potentially faint when pushed too hard. I can't do overly hot environments because I'll overheat and faint. I'm also just generally in a lot of pain most of the time and if I took pain meds for it I'd be addicted because of the frequency. I need a wheelchair tbh but I can't afford one, there's stairs to get to my room and to leave my house, and the sidewalks around here are fucked because America is built for cars.

I think I've tried to do surveys before, but I wasn't able to find anything that paid. I might actually DM you about that, but don't worry about replying right away.

I do actually do a lot of creative stuff like writing, it just hasn't been monetarily profitable for me despite my love for it, and if I may be so bold, my talent for it. I think I'm good at what I do, it's just hard to become known enough to make money...


I feel you. I'm also bad at face-to-face. I've considered programming, but my knowledge on it is very limited. It's not enough for me to get hired.

I do believe I actually remember reading a post from you before, which goes to show how you have been trying for a long time. To attempt not to clog this thread, I will send you a message, hope that's okay.

As a biker, every time I'm forced to wait to cross a busy street, I'm definitely aware America was built for cars as well lol

I'll post here though for writing/creative stuff, you could look into contests. I used to do that and never applied to any, but some contests are free to enter and still have a prize. Not a reliable way and you have to be careful to make sure to find ones with no entry fee, but might be a good excuse to dedicate more time to creative pursuits with a chance at something more. You could even look into applying for those retreats/workshops/scholarship type things, if they still have such, since something like that could provide a paid ticket away. Again just ideas you'd have to research and no guarantee these are the best options, they just came to mind.

For programming, any gig work would probably expect decent or specific experience. And most jobs usually expect you've been to a boot camp, college, or else can show you've self taught well (there is often technical interviews where you code). I wouldn't go into coding unless you're passionate and like it, but if you are then certainly you could pursue it. There are tons of resources on YouTube for self teaching. If you ever go that route I'd encourage you to tailor your search for entry positions and show a lot of passion. Also don't take rejections personally. Tech is a vast and growing field, but a lot of people are applying now. Job postings in it come and go very fast, it's the nature of the beast.

 

[june]

Sounds exhausting. Wishing you well

 

[Forever Dead]

I am tearful having just read this because you are going through so much and I can relate to all of it. I am also stuck in a toxic situation that requires me to move out of my current residence. I am also classed as disabled ( chronic depression, anxiety, depersonalization etc ). In my experience, and that of many others in the UK the whole employment system is not interested in people who are disabled. There are laws against discriminating against the disabled, but those laws are very often ignored, and you often have a very hard battle with the disability benefits system that is also not very helpful to say the least. There are thousands of us going through the same thing worldwide: lack of employment, lack of affordable housing, lack of any kind of support etc, etc. I am so sorry you are feeling this way, and I hope that you find some kind of decent employment so you can move out your current situation.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that you are in this situation, I can imagine that it must be really stressful and tiring. This life is just so unfair and disappointing. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

 

[author]

I am tearful having just read this because you are going through so much and I can relate to all of it. I am also stuck in a toxic situation that requires me to move out of my current residence. I am also classed as disabled ( chronic depression, anxiety, depersonalization etc ). In my experience, and that of many others in the UK the whole employment system is not interested in people who are disabled. There are laws against discriminating against the disabled, but those laws are very often ignored, and you often have a very hard battle with the disability benefits system that is also not very helpful to say the least. There are thousands of us going through the same thing worldwide: lack of employment, lack of affordable housing, lack of any kind of support etc, etc. I am so sorry you are feeling this way, and I hope that you find some kind of decent employment so you can move out your current situation.

Yeah, I'm in the US and it's a similar situation. The ableism here is horrific. I have both physical and mental problems. Just actually got off the phone with a temp agent who said they could only provide "temporary accommodations" for a permanent disability (aka the fact that I can't walk) which is so horrible. I know there's opportunities out there, there has to be some way other disabled people are surviving, it's just exhausting.

Hopefully something gets done on my end about the agent because they emailed HR about it and I told them to have HR contact me as well. If nothing gets done, I suppose I'll just have to pack up and leave this company. No other choice.