I REALLY, really want to jump. But I'm very worried about surviving

[SHThrowAway213]

Very strong impluse at the moment again but truth be told this medication isnt helping I'm just getting more paranoid so i think i'm done
Ony thing is I work at the same place as my husband
but i've been like this up and down since age 12 and i'm 23 now,
theres no actual way this will ever go away as it's fucking ptsd and theres nothing left

 

[Macc Lad]

Very strong impluse at the moment again but truth be told this medication isnt helping I'm just getting more paranoid so i think i'm done
Ony thing is I work at the same place as my husband
but i've been like this up and down since age 12 and i'm 23 now,
theres no actual way this will ever go away as it's fucking ptsd and theres nothing left

heart goes out to you!

 

[21Neberg]

Well, if you're worried about surviving, all you need to do is make sure you jump from the right height. If jumping above solid ground, you should jump from at least 100 meters. If you jump above water however, you should make sure it's at least 200 meters high. It is quite likely that you'll die of a heart attack before you land.

 

[NoChoice]

Very strong impluse at the moment again but truth be told this medication isnt helping I'm just getting more paranoid so i think i'm done
Ony thing is I work at the same place as my husband
but i've been like this up and down since age 12 and i'm 23 now,
theres no actual way this will ever go away as it's fucking ptsd and theres nothing left

Impulse will help you fight the survival instinct, but you need to do the best you can in planning to give yourself the best odds of success (assuming you have really decided this is your best option or way out and you're fully committed and decided) The last thing you want is to end up disabled or in a vegetative state where the idiots keep you alive and treat you like a pet goldfish or something.

 

[SHThrowAway213]

I do get very strong impules but its usally faded by the time I get o where I want as its a 45 minute walk there.

 

[DoneBlonde]

I am a jump survivor. I did end up damaging my leg and a got a 3/4 month pysch hospital stay.

 

[siray]

I am a jump survivor. I did end up damaging my leg and a got a 3/4 month pysch hospital stay.

Can you give us the details of your jump, what was the height, how did you overcome SI and all?
Sorry if I'm being insensitive.

 

[DoneBlonde]

Can you give us the details of your jump, what was the height, how did you overcome SI and all?
Sorry if I'm being insensitive.

No it's okay. Not insensitive at all . I don't remember much but I jumped from a motorway. Woke up in hospital , a lot of pain. I tore tendons and ligaments in my ankle. I was transferred to the trauma ward for 7 days .there I had a little physio. One of the days the hospital accidentally OD me on opiates, I went into respiratory depression, short story I was saved. I experienced this warmth feeling and complete darkness , a darkness I cannot explain , I didn't see anything to do with any so called afterlife , but never thought I would being non religious. After that experience I have been at peace with death and not scared at all of dying now. Its 3 years later I still get ankle pain because I was meant to get physio whilst in the pysch hospital which was never set up. I was recently told to keep exercising it because the Dr thinks I could end up with arthritis.

I am sorry I do not know the height. Also I am new to this, so just wondering what does SI mean ? I hope this helps.

 

[siray]

No it's okay. Not insensitive at all . I don't remember much but I jumped from a motorway. Woke up in hospital , a lot of pain. I tore tendons and ligaments in my ankle. I was transferred to the trauma ward for 7 days .there I had a little physio. One of the days the hospital accidentally OD me on opiates, I went into respiratory depression, short story I was saved. I experienced this warmth feeling and complete darkness , a darkness I cannot explain , I didn't see anything to do with any so called afterlife , but never thought I would being non religious. After that experience I have been at peace with death and not scared at all of dying now. Its 3 years later I still get ankle pain because I was meant to get physio whilst in the pysch hospital which was never set up. I was recently told to keep exercising it because the Dr thinks I could end up with arthritis.

I am sorry I do not know the height. Also I am new to this, so just wondering what does SI mean ? I hope this helps.

I feel sorry you had it this rough. If you want to talk about it more, you can PM me. It may not help you, but it certainly is better than keeping it all inside.

Glad to hear there is complete darkness on the other side as you mentioned.

SI means survival instinct. In case of jumping, there is an invisible wall created in your mind when you are at the edge, which prevents you from going any further. It is incredibly difficult to take the step if you're not impulsive. I can't imagine your state of mind as you jumped from that motorway, knowing there was a high chance of survival.

 

[bigj75]

You should be worried. If you are going to jump you have to make sure it's high enough and the landing is on the correct surface.

I posted a thread where a guy jumped but got impailed thru his ass and was still alive suffering the whole time while waiting for the ambulance and all the way during the ride at the hospital. Then he died after getting to the hospital. A horrible death all because he didn't jump correctly and he jumped on the wrong area.

 

[Flowersarenice]

SI is survival instinct

 

[SHThrowAway213]

You should be worried. If you are going to jump you have to make sure it's high enough and the landing is on the correct surface.

I posted a thread where a guy jumped but got impailed thru his ass and was still alive suffering the whole time while waiting for the ambulance and all the way during the ride at the hospital. Then he died after getting to the hospital. A horrible death all because he didn't jump correctly and he jumped on the wrong area.

Theres is a 60 foot cliff near me which jumps onto rocks just beneath, the highest one after that is a hours bus journey and it's 200 feet but onto sand

 

[Arak]

@SHThrowAway213 ,

I wouldn't do the 60 foot cliff. Note sure about the 200 feet on sand. Check Geo Stone's book (resources), also in one of my threads.

As a rule I'd want at least 150 metres, hard surface. Don't land on feet !!

 

[Salvacion]

No it's okay. Not insensitive at all . I don't remember much but I jumped from a motorway. Woke up in hospital , a lot of pain. I tore tendons and ligaments in my ankle. I was transferred to the trauma ward for 7 days .there I had a little physio. One of the days the hospital accidentally OD me on opiates, I went into respiratory depression, short story I was saved. I experienced this warmth feeling and complete darkness , a darkness I cannot explain , I didn't see anything to do with any so called afterlife , but never thought I would being non religious. After that experience I have been at peace with death and not scared at all of dying now. Its 3 years later I still get ankle pain because I was meant to get physio whilst in the pysch hospital which was never set up. I was recently told to keep exercising it because the Dr thinks I could end up with arthritis.

I am sorry I do not know the height. Also I am new to this, so just wondering what does SI mean ? I hope this helps.

Thank you for sharing this. Do you remember at all how you landed or how you jumped ....feet first? Backwards? It was Very brave of you to share this with us

 

[DoneBlonde]

Thank you for sharing this. Do you remember at all how you landed or how you jumped ....feet first? Backwards? It was Very brave of you to share this with us

Sorry I do not remember the landing. But I can say that I jumped facing forward feet first. I hope this helps .

 

[SeekingSolace]

Thank you for sharing your experience with us, it is greatly appreciated. I'm sorry you've had such a rough time with everything.

Wishing you the best.

 

[TheCrow]

I posted a thread where a guy jumped but got impailed thru his ass and was still alive suffering the whole time while waiting for the ambulance and all the way during the ride at the hospital. Then he died after getting to the hospital. A horrible death all because he didn't jump correctly and he jumped on the wrong area.

holy shit!

 

[TheCrow]

This guy was successful, though it impacted many, many people.

https://www.google.com/amp/s/amp.miamiherald.com/news/state/florida/article225447290.html

 

[Crazy I]

Theres is a 60 foot cliff near me which jumps onto rocks just beneath, the highest one after that is a hours bus journey and it's 200 feet but onto sand

I definitely not recommend the 60 feet one. Though i cant exactly say im confident in the 200 feet one because you will land on sand. Tbh i will recommend you search another building or cliff that will land you on a solid object and have at least 300 ft in height if you want to ensure your death. I recently read an article about a jumping attempt in my city and the person jumped from around 90 ft and still alive though she died at the way to hospital. So i strongly advise against jumping from that 60 ft cliff.

 

[lululoo]

No it's okay. Not insensitive at all . I don't remember much but I jumped from a motorway. Woke up in hospital , a lot of pain. I tore tendons and ligaments in my ankle. I was transferred to the trauma ward for 7 days .there I had a little physio. One of the days the hospital accidentally OD me on opiates, I went into respiratory depression, short story I was saved. I experienced this warmth feeling and complete darkness , a darkness I cannot explain , I didn't see anything to do with any so called afterlife , but never thought I would being non religious. After that experience I have been at peace with death and not scared at all of dying now. Its 3 years later I still get ankle pain because I was meant to get physio whilst in the pysch hospital which was never set up. I was recently told to keep exercising it because the Dr thinks I could end up with arthritis.

I am sorry I do not know the height. Also I am new to this, so just wondering what does SI mean ? I hope this helps.

I envy you being at peace with death now. What has kept you from attempting again if you're not afraid? I assume you are still wanting to die if posting on this forum?

I wish I could figure out how to be at peace with it. I have moments where I am but it's not continuous.

 

[throwaway123]

Jumping is a very hard thing to do. I don't think that impulse will help. You have to be rational about it

 

[KatieW]

This guy was successful, though it impacted many, many people.

https://www.google.com/amp/s/amp.miamiherald.com/news/state/florida/article225447290.html

This was silly self sabotage. He should have died peacefully.

 

[TheCrow]

This was silly self sabotage. He should have died peacefully.

Right?! This happened here in the states somewhat recently, and I thought this story was both sad and interesting.

 

[pleasethistime]

i jumped 6 years ago from 4th storey window to concrete. i had started using prozac the day before and that day and it made me do it impulsively without any thinking.

 

[pleasethistime]

I am a jump survivor. I did end up damaging my leg and a got a 3/4 month pysch hospital stay.

i m a jump survivor, too. sorry for you. you are luckier than me if you just broke legs.

 

[John Smith]

i jumped 6 years ago from 4th storey window to concrete. i had started using prozac the day before and that day and it made me do it impulsively without any thinking.

Did u fall head first?

 

[CJM]

It's crazy hearing the stories about people surviving from what you would normally associate with a height of death. Jumping is a thing you would have to get absolutely right or you could end up much worse than you were before jumping.

 

[bigj75]

It's crazy hearing the stories about people surviving from what you would normally associate with a height of death. Jumping is a thing you would have to get absolutely right or you could end up much worse than you were before jumping.

That's why i can't consider jumping a viable method. Atleast for me.

 

[pleasethistime]

Did u fall head first?

according to breaks, feet ricochet ribs

 

[pleasethistime]

about the incident, i dont remember being in the air or landing. i remember waking up on the floor for a few seconds before passing out again. i was smiling, happy thinking i was dying. no pain till i woke up 3 days later. then HELL.